Ocd

Just feels like i can never win in life... I dont ever have a special talent that makes me stand out from anyone... I cant win at games, nor ever have a victorious moment based on my skill instead of luck... i just lose and lose and lose... from having OCD based on real events, to my OCD gaslighting me into thinking my fears are true, to just never being able to ever win in life once in my life... i have no one in my college who understands... let alone anyone who cares... Maybe I deserve this because Ive done bad things in life... maybe I deserve this because of my childhood mistakes... who knows... Im just in a state of giving up on ever being happy because I genuinely feel like nothing works out for me, either by my own stupidity or just life being a bitch...

Username: Ben84Ben84

Date posted: 37w ago

I can relate to this. I didn't start "winning" until about 36. I wish I had handled "losing" better. Marcus Aurelius wrote, "It can ruin your life only if it ruins your chatacter". Great advice, but I understand it can be difficult to stick with the process when there never seems to be a payoff. There are no guarantees. I can't say "If you do x, then y will happen". I think a worthwhile life can still be in your future. For now though you seem to have made losing your identity (Givenup) rather than something that happens to you. Further, you seem to think it says something important about you as person. Granted, many people will judge you for it, but that doesn't mean you have to buy into it too. Remember, people whose opinions are worth caring about don't judge you for losing, but for how you handle it. I wish you well :-)

Username: StoicGuyStoicGuy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 37w ago

Hello, control what you can control to take small steps in life to feel happier and improve your self esteem. What you can't control do your best to accept. You have OCD,but you can make it barely noticeable with therapy as I'm living proof of this. I would say most people don't have a special talent they are born with. They practice something repeatedly to develop a talent. Even then that doesn't make them more valuable than you, they just are better at a particular task. Winning, or feeling superior to others isn't necessary for living a happy life. Honestly, happiness is a state of mind that some people need to work on, myself included. When I focus on everything in my life that isn't going well I will undoubtedly feel depressed. When I focus on spending time with others, serving others, and being grateful for what is going well in my life then I feel much happier.

Username: Ben84Ben84

Date posted: 37w ago

Hello fellow Stoic :-)

Username: roses_are_rosé

Date posted: 5y ago

This is just too much...and it just sucks because no matter what I do... in reality ocd doesn’t care about what it’s doing to me... it’s gonna keep doing this. My brother is sick with something that causes diarrhea...he was sick with it 2 weeks ago, got better last week, and we all got the stomach flu this week which caused his sickness to come back...he’s playful and doing normal 1 year old things but ocd keeps saying he is going to die. I don’t completely understand how a 1 year old would just magically die from watery shit, but just because this worry makes no sense, it doesn’t mean I’m still not scared.And it showed me a scenario of his funeral and it’s so fucked up.I think the worst punishment God has ever given me was ocd... ocd hurts me more than anyone else can... it’s so fucked up... I used to ask God for help but I guess mental health wasn’t that saving worthy so I just stopped praying about my mental health BC I’d be “wasting my time, he doesn’t answer you.” I just have so mu ch in. My life that isn’t going right and I’m started to get low key sad and miserable about my life at this point. I need help lately but I’m really depending on some sort of relief... just thought control and to get rid of bad people in my life and to get some of my grades up and...to be happy

Username: Make the mos...

Date posted: 3y ago

I don’t know if I’m ever going to get better, if I’m ever going to feel good, if I’m ever going to be able to carry on with this 10 years down the road. It’s torture with no exit, for me recently. Every time I bring up my OCD around family, they get annoyed. I can’t go to friends because it has only been of temporary relief. I am literally tearing up as I write this. I’m afraid I’m so close to convincing myself of the horrible lies my OCD has been telling me. I just can’t, I don’t know if there’s anyone or thing that can make me feel better. It’s been like lifting gigantic boulder up a steep mountain the entire day—and I could be crushed by it if not careful. If there is a god, why must he put me through this? I have already been through some many enough hard times in life, this OCD has only magnified any insecurities, anxieties, feeling of loneliness, self hate, and negative emotions.

Username: Moha🍃

Date posted: 46w ago

Life's unfair?

I feel like since I was 15 where OCD really started kicking, I feel like I was living on survival mode and now I'm 25 and OCD has never been worse, I think I spent most of my life surviving, on the other hand others spent it improving and investing in themselves, which leaves me with a big question mark, how can I compete, knowing that today's societal standards are harsh and pretty much unrealistic, I feel alienated, overshadowed and straight up not belonging here, I really can't find my place in this world.

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