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Just feels like i can never win in life... I dont ever have a special talent that makes me stand out from anyone... I cant win at games, nor ever have a victorious moment based on my skill instead of luck... i just lose and lose and lose... from having OCD based on real events, to my OCD gaslighting me into thinking my fears are true, to just never being able to ever win in life once in my life... i have no one in my college who understands... let alone anyone who cares... Maybe I deserve this because Ive done bad things in life... maybe I deserve this because of my childhood mistakes... who knows... Im just in a state of giving up on ever being happy because I genuinely feel like nothing works out for me, either by my own stupidity or just life being a bitch...

Username: Ben84Ben84

Date posted: 33w ago

I can relate to this. I didn't start "winning" until about 36. I wish I had handled "losing" better. Marcus Aurelius wrote, "It can ruin your life only if it ruins your chatacter". Great advice, but I understand it can be difficult to stick with the process when there never seems to be a payoff. There are no guarantees. I can't say "If you do x, then y will happen". I think a worthwhile life can still be in your future. For now though you seem to have made losing your identity (Givenup) rather than something that happens to you. Further, you seem to think it says something important about you as person. Granted, many people will judge you for it, but that doesn't mean you have to buy into it too. Remember, people whose opinions are worth caring about don't judge you for losing, but for how you handle it. I wish you well :-)

Username: StoicGuyStoicGuy

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 33w ago

Hello, control what you can control to take small steps in life to feel happier and improve your self esteem. What you can't control do your best to accept. You have OCD,but you can make it barely noticeable with therapy as I'm living proof of this. I would say most people don't have a special talent they are born with. They practice something repeatedly to develop a talent. Even then that doesn't make them more valuable than you, they just are better at a particular task. Winning, or feeling superior to others isn't necessary for living a happy life. Honestly, happiness is a state of mind that some people need to work on, myself included. When I focus on everything in my life that isn't going well I will undoubtedly feel depressed. When I focus on spending time with others, serving others, and being grateful for what is going well in my life then I feel much happier.

Username: Ben84Ben84

Date posted: 33w ago

Hello fellow Stoic :-)

Username: bm111111

Date posted: 43w ago

😞

I feel so lacking in confidence, both in dealing with OCD and everything else in my life. So much has happened in the last few weeks, I just wanted to find a stable path but no one seems to believe I can do it. I'd like to get a job, have my own things, go out with friends, live my life, but it seems so difficult. Maybe I'm weak, but I've been through so much, I just wanted some victory

Username: Moha🍃

Date posted: 41w ago

Life's unfair?

I feel like since I was 15 where OCD really started kicking, I feel like I was living on survival mode and now I'm 25 and OCD has never been worse, I think I spent most of my life surviving, on the other hand others spent it improving and investing in themselves, which leaves me with a big question mark, how can I compete, knowing that today's societal standards are harsh and pretty much unrealistic, I feel alienated, overshadowed and straight up not belonging here, I really can't find my place in this world.

Username: leafwaves

Date posted: 38w ago

I feel lonely

This isnt really OCD related but rather just a vent post. I wanted to leave my feelings somewhere so feel free to ignore this. I feel like im going to die at this point, since i can remember ive been dealing with thisbfeeling of alienation and loneliness (yknow, the autistic experience) vut i dont know how longer i can keep up with it. I feel like ive failed at the most basic things that make a human being, making friends, having a job, studying, romance. I see everyone around me reach greater heights while i am stuck in one place and i feel like im going to rot in the spot. I only have two friends, one of them is away in another state preparing to be a priest and we can go for months without talking and still act so close, but im afraid hes ultimately going to leave. My other friend, my best friend for 7/8 years is also drifting away this very moment, she's in her last year of uni and will grafuate as a technician, she has a wonderful boyfriend and friends who lives overseas and she has plans to leave the country in some future. Im obviously beyond happy for them and what theyre achieving but i cant keep acting like im not rotting with envy, they have so much going on for themselves and so many people around them i feel like at any moment i will no longer be part of their lives and theyre going to be okay with it. I cant keep acting like that wouldnt kill me inside, i love seeing them succed but i hate knowing that im such a failure in just doomed to fall behind and just watch as everyone moves on. Its always been like this with every friendship ive had and at this point i dont know how longer am i willing to take it, this crippling feeling is something you never get used to, it always hurt the same and living out of resignation is horrible. i dont want to live a life repeating this painful meaningless cycle.

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