- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
This is me too! But OCD can really be anything it doesn't have to be common, it just latches onto our worst fears :(
Also I feel like everytime I post on here I’m just looking for reassurance
I feel this way too!
12 years with this disorder, it is exhausting. i feel this like no one else can relate. it feels so lonely sometimes
I've had a specific theme that I feel others have had but not commonly labelled. I overcame it eventually with help. Work with what you have, not what you wish for. You can do this but he brave and seek the right therapy if you haven't already
Thank you so much
i'm really sorry to hear you're feeling so isolated with your obsession. it sounds incredibly tough to feel like you're the only one dealing with something so specific. but remember, obsessions can be incredibly unique to the individual, and you're not alone in feeling overwhelmed. 💔 by the way, have you heard about this new AI-powered OCD therapy tool called 'unstuck'? when i was in a similar spot, feeling like my obsessions were just too out there, my NOCD therapist recommended 'unstuck' (unstuckmyOCD.com/try) to me, and it was a game-changer. i think it'll be especially helpful for you because it offers personalized support tailored to your unique situation, acting like an OCD therapist to guide you through those tough moments. i hate when people promote stuff, but i really think it can help you because it's changed my life. lmk if you have Qs or just want to talk more! <3
Thanks so much I will definitely try it!
Ok update I just got it and wow I’m very impressed with how much it understands my problem and it’s helping me a lot thank you!
@Sophiaas1 - Wow. I'm glad that you've tried it and helped you!! Please take care. I am rooting for your progress.
I know a few of you saw my posts about my ERP and the googling urges. That didn’t end up going well. My therapist actually decided we needed to halt it for now. The thing is it’s almost like I learned googling is harmless from those few exercises and my brain keeps generating more things to google. Normally I would just spiral and be done but now I can barely hold back from searching for long. I eventually give in. I’m horrified because it feels like I want to find illegal content. I swear on everything I am, I don’t want to find anything even close to it. I’m freaking out because I don’t understand what’s happening. I keep compulsively searching/testing/checking or idk. I keep remembering details and I feel like I need to google again to be sure of something. I feel absolutely insane can someone please help me??? I’m petrified I’m going to get in trouble.
Very brief mentions of pocd and nsfw jokes,id like this to be adults only . Repost bc i had to edit something Does anyone have experience with real event ocd attached to your online footprint etc? I keep checking old messages,trying to find old people i knew i used to talk to etc. To find out every problematic thing I did and if I've ever been unfollowed or blocked by anyone I used to be friends w online/atleast on good terms w. I am particularly concerned abt doing something bigoted,esp racist bc i have racism ocd,and doing something predatory bc of my pocd. I remember hanging around people who could use 'edgy' or offensive humour in my teens and i remember a lot of sex jokes and that i would join in on sex jokes sometimes . i dont remember details w the offensive humour as much,i feel like i didnt join in on it as much but i was definitely WAY passive abt things and prob let a lot of bad stuff slide i shouldnt have bc i didn't speak up it was wrong,I remember one friend in an online community would say slurs and horrible jokes when i was 16. I dont remember my response to it as much but i feel i didnt speak up abt it aside one time i found in the dms where he made a bad joke on a thing i shared for social justice. I cant stop going thru old messages and stuff or trying to find ppl from the past. I feel like if I don't check it now,that eventually it'll come to haunt me or that I'll stumble across it eventually. I worry what if someone messaged me on one of these apps I un-installed or on one of the accounts I don't have access to,confronting me abt all this stuff I did. I had an obsession w this back in 2020 and did check in depth on all my accounts,but now that it's been 4 years the obsession is back in full swing.
I look back at all past interactions with others and think “what if they were a minor” even though there is no particular reason to think that they were. Is that a common obsession with Pocd? Has anyone else had this intrusive thought? It’s so scary and exhausting.
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