Hello, I’m 25 weeks pregnant, and I’m having intrusive thoughts. I was molested as a child multiple times and have always been afraid to have children yet here I am. These thoughts came out of nowhere and I’ve been so terrified. I would never harm my child or any child. I’m so distraught, I’m thinking about abortion because I’m so afraid. God please help me, I can’t do this
This is totally ocd and it too shall pass. I was also molested as a kid. I had my first son at 22, actually took my ocd into overdrive (pregnancy is the ultimate exposure- so much unknowns!). I now have 4 kids. Pregnancy is hard on my ocd- I think it’s like that for everyone! I think you need to do some self-care, and when you’re ready start looking into exposures. Also, ending this baby’s life would be the ultimate harm for him (her?). I was molested, too, and I’m still thrilled that I had the opportunity to exist!
You should seek mental health support from a doctor or therapist who is familiar with how to manage OCD. Trauma (often sexual trauma) can contribute to the onset of OCD. Pregnancy can trigger and intensify ocd symptoms. There are ways support from a provider can alleviate your symptoms and allow you to make fully informed decisions.
Feel so alone. Does anyone else struggle with POCD and is / was pregnant? I just want my poor baby to be safe and feel so guilty about unwanted thoughts. This is the worst. I can’t even enjoy this pregnancy because of these horrendous thoughts.
I began struggling with pocd about 3 months ago. I’m the mom of two boys ages 3 and 7. Soon after that theme started for me, I discovered I was pregnant which was a surprise. At some point I latched on the the “what if I acted on my pocd fears and that is how this pregnancy came to be.” This led to me exerting all my energy to figure out if that was true, checking my memories ect. I began feeling like I had a “memory” even though that memory is very vague and details of it sometimes change when I try to recall it. Anyway, I’m struggling a great deal by now thinking I’ve acted on my pocd fears and now I’m carrying a child of incest. I get thoughts such as “what if I was half asleep?” Ect. And maybe that’s why I can’t remember it clearly. I’ve even gotten to the point of contemplating terminating this pregnancy because I just don’t know how to make it through with these thoughts. I feel like I will have the baby and something will be majorly wrong with it. Eventually tests will be run ect and all of my fears will turn out to be true. Then I will be separated from everyone and everything that I love and have to live out the rest of my life in a prison cell.
i haven’t been diagnosed w/ ocd but my therapist says i have like symptoms of it but i recently just stared dealing w/ Pocd (hell) that my therapist says was triggered from the sound of freedom which absolutely breaks my heart bc i was so excited to support the movie but now i feel like it’s one of my biggest regrets. i feel as if i would’ve never watched the movie i would’ve possibly never started dealing w/ this. But my biggest scare now w/ this is having my own kids . i’m F18 and throughout my whole teenhood my biggest goal and dream was to become a mother a GOOD mother. everything i tried doing was motivated by the thoughts of giving my kids the absolute best one day. Now i feel like it’s my biggest fear w/ dealing w/ this and i don’t know how i’d even explain to someone like my bf for example, of the reason why i don’t want to have kids anymore ( though i still really do but i just literally feel like can’t because of this 💔💔) are there any mothers out there w/ Pocd w/ kids out here? how do you cope w/ this? should i even have kids?? i also feel as if it kinda bad rn. i was doing good for a couple weeks and last night it just rushed back for no reason. i’ve learned what groinal responses are ( it absolutely scared the shit out of me before i found out what it was and i was just not okay and sort still am not when it happens. it just feel too real and i end up sobbing god i hate this ) and i feel as if i’m constantly body checking myself especially when i see a cute baby or children tiktok i love babies n kids id never wanna hurt them in such away i rather pass away. i just can’t believe why this this happening i used to be so much more happier before this and i really don’t know how to deal w/ this and what i should do😖💔💔
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