Anyone else get so deep into the OCD cycle that they can barely disprove the thoughts anymore? Compulsions don’t even help me anymore. I have no relief. I have been thinking about taking my life every day and have no will to live anymore. I can’t see my future, have no idea what life is anymore. I look in the mirror and have a panic attack because I feel like I don’t know the person looking back at me.
I would urge you to get immediate help, I've been in this situation before and it's much worse to leave yourself in this situation.
@orla123 i just don’t know where to go. i am supposed to start therapy on the 10th
@Anonymous What country do you live in/ are you the right age for free therapy if it's available?
@orla123 i live in the us i’m 20
I have felt this before, and I promise it gets better. ERP has been the miracle pill for me (yes, it’s SUPER HARD, but dang is it worth it). You are brave and strong and capable and you WILL get past this. I agree with others, reach out to someone you trust for support right now. You’re not alone.
I understand what u feel or what ur going through But trust me There is always a hope Do erp Take professional help Dont give up on ur life I assure u Life will get better if u take tiny steps to recovery process
What is erp? Just joined the app today
@zara khan🥴 i’m starting erp this coming week im just terrified im not going to be able to get through this and live
@orla123 - Exposure Response therapy. Its the main way to reduce OCD symptoms. Here is my perception of ERP for context: https://app.treatmyocd.com/community/posts/1875940
@orla123 Erp is a therapy Its helps u to beat the ocd And get full recovery
@Anonymous U should But remember u have to face ur fears and face the anxiety as well In starting its hard but trust me Its get easier and easier
@Anonymous Do tracking on ur compulsions... rumination... avoidance Daily reduce the amount And make it to zero I assure u Everything is possible If we get stronger 💪
Hey, I just wanted to check in and see how you are doing today? I’ve been worried about you, and hoping you’re doing okay!
@Courage2Continue Thank you so much for asking! I called my psychiatrist and have them on standby if I feel that I need to be admitted. I have some more support now that i’ve admitted to them how awful i’ve been doing recently. I was advised to try and wait til my therapy appointment on the 10th, and if I feel that I can’t I will go to the hospital. Thank you for your kindness
@Anonymous Okay, good to know! I’m so grateful you reached out to them! If you need any coping skills in the meantime, there are DBT skills that may offer some relief until you’re able to get in to see your therapist too. I personally usually have to splash freezing cold water on my face to get out of that headspace, but there are a bunch of options that are listed there if you need, and are wanting to try that out. No worries if not too. I’m going to check in with you throughout today and tomorrow as well, just to make sure you’re doing okay, so you know you aren’t facing this alone
@Courage2Continue thank you very much!
@Anonymous Of course, anytime! I’ll do whatever I can do to help!
@Anonymous Hey, how was your day today? How are you feeling at the moment?
@Courage2Continue anxious unfortunately
@Anonymous My OCD gets worse at night too, it’s the freaking worst! Are you getting nightmares at all? If so, your psychiatrist can prescribe medication that helps with nightmares if you feel you need something for that Sometimes holding an ice cube and focusing on the cold pain can help too, or splashing cold water on your face for 20-30 seconds at a time. I think it causes the brain to switch into a different mode of functioning or something
@Anonymous This guy has some really good videos too that can give you some skills in the meantime: https://youtu.be/wvsAaZwzr6o?feature=shared https://youtu.be/7U9DGeT8OPw?feature=shared https://youtu.be/fPtjx2ysxa8?feature=shared Just know you’re not alone! I know it seems like it’s never going to get better, but once you start therapy, you’ll be surprised at how much better you feel! Do you feel you need to go in at all? Or are you feeling like you’ll be able to do okay over night?
@Courage2Continue i don’t know anymore i think ill feel worse if i go in. if i go in it will be a last ditch effort
@Anonymous No worries, just wanted to see where you were at mentally, make sure you’re safe. I just want to say, you’re strong! It’s been several days since you posted (and I’m sure you’ve probably been struggling longer), but I’m proud of you for hangin’ on!
@Courage2Continue thank you still for being so kind and compassionate in reaching out to me and checking up. if you are interested, I run a support group on instagram you can join. I don’t know if you’re suffering with OCD or if you just would want insight or to join, or maybe not up to you. My insta tag is @ocdhaver123 you can follow and i’ll put you in if you want. again thank you for being so kind
@Anonymous I actually don’t have instagram or any other social media, it just wasn’t good for my mental health, so I steer clear from that, but I appreciate the offer! And I’m glad to help! I’ve struggled a lot with this stuff myself, and know how isolating it can feel. Today is the day of your appointment, right?!? I hope it goes well!!!
@Courage2Continue thanks so much !
Is there free therapy in the us for under 25s?
@orla123 don’t think so.
@orla123 Usually the waiting list is long, and takes 6 months to get treatment for the free therapy here unfortunately
@Courage2Continue Similar in Ireland tbh, you usually have to go through the hospital because GP is expensive and they don't believe patients usually
If you go to a nearby hospital and let them know you are feeling this way, they can have you there for the day and won’t check you in unless you aren’t feeling better by the end of the day. They will also have a list of free and paid options for immediate help as well, if you don’t check in and end up in crisis after leaving. If you aren’t eating or sleeping consistently, I personally would check myself in at that point, so they can adjust medication and ensure that at least those needs are getting met. Usually when you check yourself in too, you stay for a shorter period of time, and can leave when you’re feeling better. I’m not sure what will help the best, but I believe you and I think if you’re in that much pain, you should go in for inpatient treatment, and the tenth is too far away in my opinion. I think there is a crisis line on this app too, if you need someone to walk you through things more thoroughly, I would definitely use it!
I need help! Can anyone tell me if this sounds like Existential OCD? For the past year or so always think “what is the point” about so many things . This started because I realized me and my husband don’t have any friends, so every time I try to exercise or look nice I start thinking “what is the point, why do I care to impress random people” I don’t know .. it’s so fkd I hate this shit I need help or I’m gonna end up killing my self
Hey y’all i need to know if someone relates to what I’m going through. I feel almost like if I wanted to act on my thoughts but I actually don’t because this doesn’t please me at all. So if someone told me “You have Harm OCD” I would be like “really? So I don’t wanna harm people? Neither am I capable?” I have no clue why would that be my answer when I haven’t desired anything. But somehow it makes me feel like I do, and consequently makes me feel like I’m in denial. So it feels like if an unconscious part of me wants to do it but I am just resisting. I literally can’t go anywhere, I don’t wanna live any second more, because I feel so disturbed all the time. I feel like I’m gonna end up doing it, I feel so overwhelmed by these feelings,thoughts, images, urges, that I would avoid everything, like going anywhere. I hate feeling like this but I feel like there’s no way back, i can’t picture myself being good in the future because I feel like “this is what i want” when it’s not. I feel like it’s a time bomb for me to do something. I do not tolerate this, every minute that passes by I feel it closer to happen. I feel like I’m gonna collapse and act on it. I don’t even know if that’s what I want, but I don’t think it is, I think it just feels like it. Help I don’t know what to do.
It’s probably desensitization but I’m scared I’m getting worse and worse. My morals feel like they’ve been hijacked and I’m scared I’m turning into a bad person. Nothing really disgusts me enough anymore. I’m so tired. When all of this started, I was still able to do things normally even if it felt like I had a weight on my head but it got better. Until I had an intrusive thought about looking for CSEM which has just gotten worse because it’s like it’s turned into an urge. I’m worried at some point (sooner or later), I’m gonna end up doing it. Or I have the scary thought of what if I want to and I’ll regret NOT ever seeing it which is also gross. And I’ve heard about people running into it on social media somehow which then triggers this screwed up sense of morbid curiosity about how that would even end up on social media without being flagged/removed and the thought of “what if you went looking for it there” - I just want it to stop!!! I feel like I can’t even live life now because the thought/urge is there every single day and I can’t escape. Nothing brings me joy - I’m empty all of the time. I can’t make myself play a game or watch a show because I can’t focus and I feel almost nothing towards them. And even if I did feel happy, it wouldn’t last long before being ripped away again. I’m worried I have some sort of addiction to be having this thought every day of “look for it, do it, you have to know” - but I shouldn’t? I’ve cut back immensely on a lot of NSFW stuff and what little I do see (like in books) doesn’t seem to trigger me. This thought actually started happening after multiple accounts of hearing people being prosecuted for having that sort of material (people talk about exes or husbands of friends and whatnot having done that and you also hear about famous people sometimes - it’s everywhere and I’m so sick of hearing about it all of the time because I’m worried I’m gonna end up BEING one of those people). It will not go away even if I stop paying it any mind and I’m frightened all the time now. I feel disgusting and I’m afraid I’m a horrible person. I feel cursed and I just want everything to go back to normal. I want to be disgusted and opposed again and it just isn’t happening! 😞 even now I feel like an imposter posting here because it doesn’t seem like OCD anymore, I’m just gross and out of control like some freak. I feel like I’m gonna have to cut my life short to avoid it happening (but I’m also too scared to do that and I WANT to live but it just feels like I won’t be able to “help myself” which is no excuse but that’s how it feels). I’m not gonna do it at the moment (like I said, I’m too scared) but it feels like I deserve it and it’s the only outcome for me. It feels like too much to do anything because what if I snap?? What if I get too curious?? I’m just so done with all of this - I feel like I’m gonna explode. And no amount of people saying “I don’t think you’ll do it” would make me feel better. I just don’t know what to do - I can’t get therapy, I can’t tell anyone. I’m so alone and it feels like mental torture
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