I just done a HOCD test from a top OCD clinic in LA. And it confirmed what I already new I'm 100% straight and it's the OCD playing games with my mind. It's getting easier week by week. And all this started two summers ago with a horrendous panic attack which then manifested into anxiety now this bullshit. But I truly believe I will beat this.

You will totally beat this. But telling yourself you’re 100% straight , while it could be the truth , is not going to help you recover from this which I hate to say. You can only recover fully when you embrace uncertainty because you’ll always find something to latch onto and ruminate about

I’m glad the test could help confirm this for you, but as with most reassurance, the good feelings you’re getting from it probably won’t last. Doubt and anxiety will eventually creep back in and you’ll go searching for more reassurance to make it go away again. Embrace the doubt and uncertainty and anxiety. Let it be there. And continue to live your life. You might be 100% straight. But maybe you’re 98% straight. Or 97%. Quantifying it won’t serve you in the long run. Being okay with not knowing that number will.

I understand what you’re saying, but if you really believed that with 100% certainty, you wouldn’t have HOCD. I’m assuming you’re still regularly experiencing doubts that make you spiral into rumination, anxiety, and compulsions. What I’m saying is that it’s your need for certainty (“always have been always will be 100% straight”) that’s driving the OCD. Can you live with the fact that there’s a teeny tiny chance you might be a little gay (even just 2 or 3%!) and stop trying to prove to yourself that you’re 100% straight? If you can learn to live with the possibility and the risk, you can overcome OCD. The intrusive thoughts won’t mean anything anymore because you’ve accepted their risk and they will therefore diminish over time.

I didn’t say you had to admit anything. Just to accept the slightest bit of uncertainty or risk into your life. I think you’re going to find it very difficult to overcome this without facing some uncertainty. Life is never and will never be 100% certain. Good luck to you.

I wish this OCD shit wasn't in the world.

@Cc552 that’s the problem right there with all due respect. I’m not giving you reassurance. That’s why I said “ could be “. By telling yourself you are 100% straight , you’re taking a position and that’s the worst thing to do with OCD. It means you haven’t gotten under the fear and really want certainty. A few days of amazing relief is nowhere near as good as almost constant relief which you’ll get by accepting uncertainty.

I totally understand your frustration. OCD is a monster , but the only way to slay it is to not let it have power over you. You simply can’t have 100% certainty and your OCD will always prey on the gaps you have in your memory , experience , or knowledge when it comes to your sexuality and history of it.

It's not it could be the truth it is 100 % the truth. If OCD wasn't on earth I wouldn't even be talking about this bullshit. But unfortunately it is and with more time I will beat this. I got my anxiety down to s manageable level with time and this will be the same as it manifested from anxiety.

I always was and always will be straight. It's this OCD bullshit that plays games with your mind.

No I will never admit to untrue rubbish. I will beat this HOCD bullshit.

Ocd nothing is sacred it attacks every possible thing so know that !

A really bad panic attack lead to anxiety which lead to this bullshit.

It'll take time to get rid of it just like the anxiety. My anxiety is not totally gone but way much better since just after I had the panic attack.