The distress is real

Today I got a new intrusvie thought from the same themes and I feel really sad and devasted because it feels really scary and like I'm worried that I agree with the intrusive thought or that it is revealing something about me ...the intrusive thought feels more intense like why would I have such a thought? and I feel to tired to react but I have a heaviness and worry for my mental health. I feel ill/disgust and tired but too tired to fully react. I almost feel like the more intrusive thoughts I get the weaker I get because of the distress and mental/emotional pressure and stress. I don't know how to describe it but it feels very heavy and I almost feel like I will never recover from this intrusive thought.... I also get moments when I think what if I'm making this up and I do not struggle with OCD

Username: laceylawrence2laceylawrence2

Date posted: 37w ago

I feel very similar emotions. For me I feel so scared because the intrusive thoughts are so new and never have had them before until recently. It’s crippling and scary and you question everything about yourself and who you are and who you were. I have panic attacks and days where I can’t function. I know this isn’t helping anything but maybe comfort in knowing you aren’t alone. Reading your post made me feel better because I am not alone and I am not losing my mind. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers for healing and comfort!

Username: OCDisQUICKSANDOCDisQUICKSAND

Date posted: 37w ago

So sorry you’re going through this. OCD is going to make you think that you’re whatever you think is the worst kind of person. Thats why so many people with OCD have POCD or HOCD. They are disgusted by pedos and serial killers. Have you learned how to acknowledge and accept intrusive thoughts yet? If a thought says you want X disgusting thing to happen. You just acknowledge it and say “maybe I do”. You keep doing it every time you have the thought and the anxiety will eventually subside.

Username: OCDisQUICKSANDOCDisQUICKSAND

Date posted: 37w ago

@OCDisQUICKSAND OCD is a bully that wants a rise out of you. Don’t take the bait. Do not struggle. Just say “ok maybe”. Even if it’s terrible like “ok maybe I am going to become a child killer”. “maybe I am going to stick the dog in the oven” “maybe I do want my mom to die in a terrible way”, etc etc etc.

Username: laceylawrence2laceylawrence2

Date posted: 37w ago

@OCDisQUICKSAND Thank you!

Username: OCDisQUICKSANDOCDisQUICKSAND

Date posted: 37w ago

Just accept the thought. What is it? I’ll tell you what to do when it happens.

Username: Sarah🕊Sarah🕊

Date posted: 37w ago

To be honest I'm too scared to write the intrusive thought. It is one of the intrsuive thoughts where it has me questioning what if I want this to happen, what if I like this thought and therefore it could become a reality? what if I have no problem with the thought. Usually with all the intrusive thoughts I have been through even if I have these previous worries I just wrote they are not as strong but with this new intrusive thought It is making me feel very distressed and worried. I can't put the emotions into to words. Just when I think I can't be surprised by OCD...it surprises me. I have been through so many themes. And then there is the very terrfiying aspect of what if this is not OCD and therefore what kind of person am I?

Username: Lavander

Date posted: 5y ago

In the last two days, I was deeply sad and unmotivated (If you read my posts, I think you noticed it). So, today, I woke up "better". It's just like I'm in a tiny moment of clarity. I'm so sick of this. It isn't true, but it won't leave me alone. I just feel mentally and emotionally exhausted. And when it comes back, it just feels so real. OCD screams that I'm just in denial, and it takes all my will to live, like it's taking my identity and ripping it to shreds. "What ifs" flood my mind. It puts a weight on my heart. It makes me believe I need to "come out". It takes my attention from other areas of my life. I am always in a bad mood. I mistreat my parents. I'm cold towards my colleagues. This lie is destroying my life, treatment is expensive, and I have no one to talk about this who would really understand. If it wasn't for this app, I'd be completely alone in this dreadful illness.

Username: freshpanda

Date posted: 46w ago

What if this time it’s real?

i’m sorry for posting a lot but i’m relapsing again and it’s hitting hard this time. It feels so real the thoughts feel like they are becoming mine and I thought i was doing better but no Im not because im suffering again. I feel like this time i can’t ignore them if i do they will be my thoughts. i will become who i fear becoming. i don’t want to die but i don’t want to live like this. i’ve never been more suicidal then when this last ocd relapse hit. this is the 3rd month im going through this theme and it’s relentless and painful and attacks every.little.thing. i doubt everything. i’m sorry for posting so much but. i’m afraid i can’t keep on moving. my heart is tired and beat up and broken and my mind is against me so how can I trust it? idk i don’t want this. it feels so real.

Username: winterdays

Date posted: 34w ago

Intrusive thoughts

Why do intrusive thoughts feel so real? I sometimes fear it isn't OCD and I actually do feel/think those things and it causes me immense distress.

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