I had the worst panic attack of my life today. It was horrible and I thought I was gonna have to call 911. I am so scared of losing everyone I care about I just want to be better. I have false memory ocd and I am in a spiral and I feel so out of touch with reality. If anyone has some techniques or advice that could help please share.
hi, i’m so sorry you’re struggling. you’re not alone, i’m in the same boat as you right now. in that moment where it feels impossible to keep going, i’ve been trying to quickly start deep breathing and turn on a story or a podcast about getting through ocd. because in that moment i feel so alone and almost crazy. so it’s helped me a little to listen to others struggling with ocd talk about how they got through it when it felt impossible or psychiatrists explaining why we are the way we are. i can give a couple recommendations of things i’ve been listening to or things i’ve written down that have helped me a bit. i’m sorry we have to go through this. it isn’t fair. try to remember that too, this isn’t your fault. in that moment where it feels impossible to go on, remind yourself that your anxiety won’t stay that high forever, your body will naturally bring itself back down. ride the wave, you can do this!!♥️
@carriejenson Thank you so much❤️❤️❤️
@carriejenson Is there anyway you could share some of the things you’ve learned? I feel that new perspective could really help!
@Cashmoney321 of course! i have some from a non religious perspective and some from a religious perspective, because some things help more on other days. would you like me to send one or the other or both?
@carriejenson Both would be great!!
@Cashmoney321 okay i’m going to send some things from my notes that i try to read every time it feels too hard to go on
stop with the all or nothing mindset. stop thinking in black and white. you do not need all the answers, just keep learning. keep pushing. recognize those thoughts are not yours. the more you pay attention to something the more it grows. for better or for worse. change the neural pathway.
what are you going to do with this challenge? are you going to let it consume you and dictate your life, or will you use it to motivate and inspire? reinforce positive thoughts. change the neural pathways. you’ve believed the lies it’s told you for years. it’s time to believe the truth. it is your body and your mind. this is YOUR choice. you have to make this choice alone. a thousand times a day if you have to. live minute by minute. live in the NOW. MAKE THE CHOICE. you’re the only one who can make the choice to stand tall and start the journey. you have to choose to walk, but let them hold your hand while you do. Refuse to act on an obsession, and it will die of inaction let go of the fear. the fear is not from God.
baby steps. it’s okay to fall down. just get back up and walk. your mind and heart are two different things i was identified by my thoughts. i was under the assumption that if i’m thinking it, it must be true and i must want it, but that is a lie
whenever you have a thought: 1. disrupt it. your lies fall short of the light of god. leave me alone 2. disconnect. say a prayer. pulling weeds, take them to god. lay them at his feet. 3. declaration. change the thought. i am fearfully and wonderfully made. “God has not given me a spirit of fear, He’s given me a spirit of power, love, and a sound mind” instead of worrying about what you might be, think about what you are 4. distract. deep breathing, mindfulness, the 5 senses, look around at the view 5. decide. make the choice. i don’t want to live like this anymore. i am committing to rewire my brain, with God 6. visualization. go into detail. put yourself in a happy place. remember that night at the deck. have hope. smile when you don’t feel like smiling. your mind doesn’t know the difference between what’s real and fake. it cant tell the difference between a real or fake threat. same thing with positive things. a fake smile, or a fake laugh will release dopamine. your mind can’t tell the difference.
the 5 D’s can be non religious or religious still has the same effect. YOU CAN DO THIS
I’ve never been diagnosed with OCD, but I relate so much to what people here are going through. I used to think it was just anxiety, and I felt like I could handle that. But lately I’ve been spiraling—constantly afraid that what I’m feeling is something worse, like psychosis or losing control of my mind. I feel so detached and scared, and I just want peace again. I have anxiety doing the smallest things, like the thought of waking up everyday and even eating give me straight up panic. I am afraid all the time, it’s paralyzing. And a lot of people say someone with psychosis wouldn’t worry that they’re in it, but then I convince myself I’ve been in it this whole time, and haven’t known, and that maybe I’ve been doing weird stuff. Idk. I also get really scared of labels. Even the idea of OCD makes me feel like I’ll never get better or like I’ll be stuck like this forever. I just want to be okay. If anyone has felt this way—confused, overwhelmed, or scared of what’s happening in their mind—I’d really appreciate any support or encouragement.
I’ve recently been struggling a lot with OCD. I have had OCD for a long time I just didn’t realize it until more recently. About seven months ago I developed panic attacks one day randomly at work. I thought I was having a heart attack and went to the hospital where they told me it was just a panic attack and I assumed I would snap out and be better within a few days. However it didn’t. Here’s where it gets scary, I was staying at my then boyfriends house while dealing with blurry vision, anxiety attacks everyday, and more (unsure of what was going on). But at some point I saw my bfs (pew pew 🔫) on his table and it sent me into an anxiety attack after sudden thoughts that I was going to hurt myself with it. I begged him to put it away when I’m not looking so I didn’t know where he put it. He did. These thoughts lasted for about four days but began to go away. (I thought that was it and I would be back to normal). Unfortunately though I ended up moving back in with my family when we couldn’t get my panic attacks under control in time for me to get back to work and pay bills. However, coming home brought up a lot of trauma from when I was kid. My anxiety got worse but I didn’t have those thoughts again. About two and half months ago though, I got sick and went to the hospital where they gave me steroid pills and a steroid shot but sent me into some kind of psychiatric event. Ever since then though, I have been suffering from harm OCD, I have had moments of intense anger that I usually have to completely walk away and go on my own because of how intense they are, and it feels like it’s getting worse. Today I felt fine until about and hour and half ago where I started to dwell on the fact that my suicidal thought was influenced by my OCD and at the moment my OCD is at the worst it’s been. This caused me to get suddenly really depressed and I started crying thinking about how I can’t handle this. I then saw a post talking about how suicide rates are high for people with this form of OCD and it made me question if I am mentally strong enough to pull through this. I fear that at times I’m getting worse. I have good days but I have a lot of bad days. Unfortunately this sent me into such a bad panic attack I went over to my nanas crying about how I can’t deal with this. I took a 0.25 mg Xanax which helped calm down the panic attack portion of it but my brain is still uncomfortably active. I guess I just need hope. I’m so saddened by this. It’s like my life took a total 360 in 10 months and got even worse since the steroid shot. Idk what to do about it. I can’t stop the spiral. I talk to two different therapist weekly and start more next week, making it 5 times a week. I feel no improvements…
Please help. I have felt so off/wrong all day. I constantly worry that the “bad guy” is going to get me. I have awful thoughts and I constantly want God to know that I don’t mean these thoughts. I am at a point in my therapy where I need to choose to use my ERP but it feels too scary. I then do compulsions, which makes the OCD worse, which makes me want to use ERP less. And the cycle goes on. I am currently sitting in my car crying because I feel so lost and exhausted. I’m not supposed to figure out my thoughts, but today I just went into a spiral of sadness and depression, thinking that I will always feel like this. When my thoughts got really bad at the end of the day, I tried to use ERP even though I was shaking and not believing my responses and I ended up feeling like I missed something and that I gave into the “bad guy.” I have no one to talk when I’m not doing therapy twice a week. I am alone and have no one to talk to when I am like this… please help
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