Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 35w ago

Religious OCD - Blasphemous Intrusive Thoughts

Hi everyone! My main theme in religious OCD is doubting God & Jesus! It hurts me heart I love them but I’m trying to remember His love and grace! Recently I’ve been having major blasphemous intrusive thoughts! I’ve had them before throughout my OCD journey but this time it’s kinda hard to let go and they’re coming so hard! They scare me! They can be very mean and just disgusting. Cursing, denying and just thoughts I hate! I ask for forgiveness and don’t always “feel” forgiven! I love Jesus & God! These thoughts hurt so much! Sometimes they make me feel like I want them or I’m saying them on purpose! I feel like I subconsciously “check” & ruminating on them. I know this is a normal and common OCD theme but it’s like sometimes I feel like I doubt my OCD! Especially whenever I have blasphemous intrusive thoughts! Like my brain just thinks “nope it’s you not OCD”. Like it doesn’t feel like OCD but Ik OCD can make it feel “very real”. It makes me feel like God is mad at me or upset! Or He doesn’t love me as much or just can’t be “forgiven” which I know is a lie and not true! I love God so much! Ik OCD attacks on hat we love it’s just my mind will doubt I have it! Please any tips to overcome these thoughts! I feel a lot of shame, guilt, fear, anxiety and sadness for having these thoughts! I know people say “they’re just thoughts” and not bad but they feel like that. Any advice?! Has anyone else gone through this?

Username: Dutch75Dutch75

Date posted: 35w ago

The fact that you hate and reject the thoughts proves that they are not coming from within you. Treat these thoughts as outside construction noise and disregard/ignore them. God has already forgiven you through Jesus Christ sacrificial death on the cross, and you are His child. Nothing and no one can separate you from God. “Nothing shall ever be able to separate us from the love of God which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” Another good scripture to remind yourself of is, “the blood of Jesus Christ, His Son cleanses us of all sin.” Once you were saved, you were forever saved and nothing can change that. Go to God and pray the word by saying it is written, and when you pray believe you receive. I hope this advice gives you peace.

Username: Brooke cookieBrooke cookie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

Hi Cammy 123 , I also have intrusive thoughts about my faith. I worry that god hates me for my ocd thoughts or that i will or already made a deal with satan and now god will or as Bandaged me for them. Also have thoughts of is god real ? , why I do I pure ocd and long term depressed , is he mad at me? When I have these thoughts I have stop and remember god and Jesus will always love me and they know about my ocd thoughts. They know I can not help but have my ocd thoughts and they are just thoughts. Please know that god and Jesus will always love you and your ocds thoughts are just thoughts they are not you or your faith. Both you and me will push through these thoughts and live the great lives god as planned for us. Sorry you seem to have some of the some thoughts that I have they really are terrible . My thoughts my been making to hard to sleep , eat , relax for 3 weeks . Some times I do not know what else to do but cry my heart out.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 35w ago

@Brooke cookie Thank you so much Brooke! It helps me realize I’m not alone! These blasphemous thoughts are tormenting! Make me cry my eyes out. Gets me to the point sometimes I’m so exhausted to even do anything. I feel like I have like OCD Tourette! Like my mind will blurt out a blasphemous thought and I’m like NO I don’t meant that!! Please forgive me! It’s just so scary because they sometimes “feel” like on purpose but I feel like it’s me maybe “checking” if the thoughts are there and maybe subconsciously doing it. I love God & Jesus so much. I’ve dealt with this before multiple times but this time it’s kinda stuck and I’m trying to remind myself it’s OCD and not me! Literally had intrusive thoughts about cursing, rejecting and thoughts about the devil! I somehow got over them! Even last week I was able to brush them off but this time not so easy. I’m trying to remind myself God & Jesus loves me no matter what thoughts I have!! Also they’re just thoughts! Not actions! We think just because we think something we automatically think it’s true or we said it. I pray that God & Jesus are with me through this and not replying on my feelings!

Username: Brooke cookieBrooke cookie

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

@Cammy123 Stay strong cammy123, god knows everything about everything if we like it or not. He knows they are just ocd thoughts you need to let of any shame or guilt of the thoughts and let them go. I know it is hard to do I sometimes still get stuck on my own thoughts. God whats you to let them thoughts go so you can think about what he has planed for you life instead of the ocd thoughts. You can do I girl :)

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 35w ago

My heart hurts because it’s like I’ve written this😭😭 I’m going through the exact same thing literally!!! Im crying now because of how much I can relate to this!! I feel like I’m constantly ‘checking’ the thoughts are still there and I’m a way I feel uneasy when I’m not having them if that makes sense? Like I HATE the thoughts and I want nothing more for them to stop but then my brains telling me I want them that’s why I keep checking for them!!! Mine are blasphemous, doubting & sexual about Jesus and god. I literally feel TORMENTED that’s the only way I can describe it. I’ve even Googled if I could be possessed because I can’t deal with the fault my brain is conjuring up these types of thoughts!! I can’t physically concentrate on anything I’m just in auto pilot constantly and I’m sorry I can’t help you I just hope you get some comfort knowing your not alone!! X

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 35w ago

@Liv24 And I know what you mean about I can’t leave them be because I’m also at the point we’re I don’t know if I’m checking for them or they are there and then if I leave them i feel like I want them and my mind makes new ones up!!

Username: MichaeldsMichaelds

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

@Liv24 I’ve had the same exact thing and wondering about the possession, but supposedly we can only be oppressed not possessed once we have the Holy Spirit. I’ve been going through the same thing and this is the worst thing ever. But in some weird way this is literal proof that OCD is from the enemy to begin with and FAITH is the weapon against it. Just put on the ARMOR of God! We must prevail.

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 35w ago

@Anonymous It’s horrific isn’t it!!!!!! Especially when your braining is tell you you want these thoughts!! I try so much to be present and not in my head all the time but it feel impossible i feel like the second my brain gets a change it’s searching for the most vile things it can think of! I just want to feel normal again 😭😭😭 I feel like I’m preempting the thoughts myself to like I can’t stop repeating words/phrases in my head which I usually say after a thought but I find myself going it constantly which then triggers more thoughts! It’s exhausting! Are you in therapy????

Username: MichaeldsMichaelds

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

@Liv24 Yes I am. NOCD has been a godsend. I used to have ocd about something else and I over came it. Now it transformed, as ocd does. I feel like my mind is not my own lately. I’m wondering “ where are these thoughts coming from?” I got triggered by something I saw on you tube and it’s been a spiral :( I keep going to church and I keep being standfast about seeking the Lord and I’m telling the darkness that it cannot win, because I won’t stop seeking God. So it’s going to have to just quit bothering me.

Username: MichaeldsMichaelds

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

@cammy123 I’m sorry to hear, I’ve been having the same stuff happening, and I can’t believe it. I never thought my OCD would attack this.

Username: Steven55!Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 35w ago

I've had these, too. Yes, they're very disturbing. I do know that God knows me better than I know myself and he knows these disturbing thoughts, images, etc, are OCD-related. Please keep on mind that OCD attaches itself to who are what you value, as well what you fear. It's the nature of the disorder. Are you in therapy?

Username: JMM1990JMM1990

Date posted: 34w ago

All of these pop into my mind all day every day. It’s absolutely miserable, I feel crazy. I hate you go through this, but I’ve always felt I was alone with these blasphemous intrusive thoughts and that no one would understand me if I said it out loud to talk about it. Glad I’m not alone

Username: Kit Kat Chocolate Kit Kat Choc...

Date posted: 27w ago

Hi there! Someone on here encouraged Christian people to check out Mark DeJesus online. He is very knowledgeable about religious OCD. Hope this helps! 😊

Username: Jolee0524

Date posted: 36w ago

Religious OCD

Hey guys so I’m new to this. I struggle really bad with religious ocd on top of other themes of ocd i have. But the religious ocd and POCD I have are definitely the hardest two. Today was so hard for me because I was freaking out all day about the eclipse and if it was the end of the world. I grew of in a very strict church and being gay was not acceptable so now I feel I’m morally wrong and unlovable in a sense. I don’t really know how to explain it. Wether it was from my youth pastor outing me on stage in front of all of my friends and hundreds of students, to them praying over me for years on end, before I finally left the church. Yet I still question if my salvation is safe or not. I question if God loves me etc. it gets so bad that I’m convinced everything I do is because I’m possessed by a demon. And I’ll start to vomit. Literally vomit. It sounds wild I know. Wether it’s music my ocd deems demonic or movies or spiritual things such as tarot cards that I enjoy. But my mind will convince me if I use them I will go to hell because that’s what I was taught for so long. I just wish I could get better but I don’t know how and I’m so hopeless.

Username: chihuahua_girl

Date posted: 30w ago

Religion OCD

Hello, I’m very new to this and have never confessed the fact that I struggle with severe scrupulosity (religion ocd) to anyone before. I am not officially diagnosed but I have spent countless hours researching and know that I am dealing with this horrible mental illness. I can’t function anymore. The intrusive thoughts are getting so bad. The moment I wake up they begin to pop into my head & I can’t even sleep because they are just running all over my mind. The thoughts are so bad that I don’t want to repeat them but they mostly are blasphemous bad thoughts. I avoid praying and religious services because it triggers my bad thoughts. I cannot control anything and I have no access to therapy because I’m so scared to ask for help and don’t know how to even describe to my family what I am going through. It’s so debilitating and I just keep repeating these scripts to myself to try and relieve my mind but it just starts all over again. It’s non stop and I know I cannot keep going like this. I don’t know whats real or isn’t, I just want a break. I’m so scared of everything and it’s interfering with my life more and more. If anyone could share some words of encouragement or tips it would be greatly appreciated.

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 23w ago

Intrusive thoughts

Hey guys ! Can anyone share some tips or advice for coping with shame and guilt that come from having intrusive thoughts. I feel like these thoughts are taking over my life. I hate these thoughts , these thoughts are the total opposite of what I want to think of. I keep obsessing over the fact that im afraid that god won’t forgive me for having these intrusive thoughts. I keep praying and ask god for his forgiveness. Do you guys have an advice on this ?

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