everytime i see a kid or hear any words related to children i get immediate intrusive thoughts and terrible groinal responses :( the sensations feel so real. i have no anxiety anymore its been like this for a while i use to have terrible anxiety with my ocd but now its just shame and worry:( and sadness/dread. i hate this. my brain literally tells me im a p, and i believe it, it sounds and feels so real :(
i struggle with the same thing, and it does may it feel very real. i try to redirect myself to something more productive when it gets like this. if im outside ill take deep breaths and listen to a calming sound, like the wind. or, i try to do a calming activity, like playing with my cats or taking a nice warm shower
I used to struggle with the same thing and whilst I have moved onto other ocd focuses, I no longer think about this ever, I’m not sure how helpful that is but it really does get better. I know it feels so real right now but it won’t forever !
I feel like you. Especially the no anxiety part. And it stress me out because if I am not anxious anymore, does that mean that I am really a P and I am in the state of accepting my nature ? I did enough compulsive check to know I am not a P but it still here. The interrogation is still here. That haunt me. Everytime I read a story about a Pedo I am disgusted.
@Tiphaine30 I feel the exact same way. OCD is so hard.
everytime I see a kid or anything about a kid is mentioned then boom here come groinal responses that feel like genuine arousal and a whole bunch of thoughts telling me im a p. I genuine feel like I am one. I feel like this isn’t ocd. My anxiety has gone down tremendously so it seems as if im only ASHAMED of this. Which p’s can be also. I just want peace. I don’t want to be a p. Even my brain is like “just do it so u can have the label permanently “ like no I don’t want to do that but this all feels so real:( I hate the groinal responses they won’t go away
can’t see anything on social media about kids ill immediately get intrusive thoughts and groinal responses and thoughts like “u are a p, u can’t have kids because u are a p” and it genuinely feels like im destined to be a p. like impending doom. that no more what i do i am one and i can’t change or stop it. does anyone feel like this? can it get this bad? my brain feels convinced and it’s like whenever i say im not my body gets all uncomfy and then the groinal responses come. i hate this. am i a p? if i am one i want to get help. I don’t want to hurt anyone. I would rather be gone then be a p but if I am one the least I could do is get help for it but im stuck between ocd and this. what if im just a fraud hiding behind ocd
the minute I wake up it’s like a sense of impending doom. I immediately get thoughts like “ur a p, im a p, it’s inevitable, ur hiding behind an ocd mask” and it feels so real. I also get groinal responses and everything feels so real, like I AM ONE. and sometimes im too tired to even stop the thoughts so it just keeps going and my body and brain feels like it agrees and im just a p. idk what to do:(
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