The constant fear of harming or abusing a child has made me stay in and not want to go outside. It’s such an awful, uncomfortable fear that scares me so much. By avoiding outdoors I feel so isolated but I feel by keeping myself in I’m keeping others safe. Does anyone else ever feel like this?
While I have a different kind of constant fear, it has also led me to isolate or become more distant from people I used to be closer friends with. It's hard:/ I have to tell myself these thoughts are lies. .. have you done anything to make yourself believe you would harm or abuse a child?
Not a question I would ask someone with POCD
@Juddandlucy77! Oh okay, I apologize! Both to you and the author of this post. Forgive me! I am still learning and just beginning this journey of recovery from OCD myself
You basically have to force yourself to deal with the fear and force yourself to be in those situations maybe maybe not and sit with the anxiety. I still struggle with this.
@Juddandlucy77! Thanks so much for your input. It’s such a horrific and debilitating fear. Sometimes I stay in because the thought of sitting with a false memory or thought around that subject is too scary to face.
@LookingforLight It's absolutely terrifying 😳 but it's the only way to beat the OCD is to face the fear... it's honestly the hardest thing I have ever had to do
@Juddandlucy77! I literally have become physically sick facing the fear shaking and vomiting 🤢 but it gets easier
@Juddandlucy77! I was super nervous and scared to write here because it’s such a taboo subject and fear. Thank you for the positive and encouraging feedback. Being able to relate with someone over this is very helpful and emotional. ❤️
@LookingforLight Try to deal with this fear in small chunks.
I'm struggling with pocd it feels very real and I'm at a point where I feel I need to go to confess to the police stuff I know I haven't done but have false memories of doing and I feel like nobody thinks like this and very alone.
My pocd actually started cause of I accidentally read a cp manga and I didn’t have any special reaction while reading it. And got loads of false memories surrounding it. Now each time I see a child or literally anything I’m TERRIFIED that I somehow see cp and will enjoy it. Idk I wanna crawl under a rock and live there forever. Life is too much :/
Hi NOCD community, I was hoping to get some advice from fellow sufferers. In December we welcomed the first baby into the family, my beautiful niece. Since then, my POCD has been awful, which I know is probably very normal. Last week, in the middle of a very high stress day in my family, I was changing my niece and as usually happens, I got intrusive thoughts about awful things people do to babies when changing them. The thoughts were so harrowing to have as I was also changing her at the exact same time, and I felt my hands just quickly want to finish patting her dry before putting her nappy on, and for some reason, my heart dropped with that hand movement, because I was afraid that I had acted out the awful thoughts in my head, in a moment of mania because my morals, values and heart do not align with abuse of any kind, especially to children. My niece is my everything, and I know I would never want harm to come to her in any way, shape or form. I love her endlessly. I am having therapy, but have only had a couple of sessions. But, I cannot shake the 'what if'. I am tortured over trying to remember what it was I did that made my heart drop, but I can't, and its getting fuzzier and fuzzier the more I try to remember. Could anyone offer any advice on this please? Thank you.
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