Religious OCD

Does anyone feel they say/think there blasphemous intrusive thoughts on purpose? Sometimes I feel like I say them but i reject that! I don’t want to think these thoughts! u would never say them out loud! Apart of me thinks since I thought stop a lot and thought replace a lot thats when it’s coming. I start thinking "don’t think it, don’t think it". I’ll start rejecting the other thoughts but mid way they start going to God & Jesus! Or I’ll feel cursing thoughts coming and I’ll say f OCD or f these lies then it’ll go over to God & Jesus! Then you just end of thinking it. Idk if my OCD is wanting me to think “oh since you thought it you said”. Like Thought Action type thing. Does anyone else go through this? It hurts. i love God & Jesus so much and to think "what if i thought this or said it in my mind on purpose!" any advice?

Username: Nitro929Nitro929

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 34w ago

You are not alone this happens to me all the time. Going through this today. God knows what you are goung through and gives us grace and forgiveness...I have tried to hold back the thoughts for a long time and feels like holding back a freight train...I am still working on it but just have to let them happen knowing God understands what is happening and sit with the feelings and not try to compulsed or give them meaning... Believe me this is a big work in process for me but just have to trust in Christ that he holds us and is there with us during the storm...There is some good scripture to remember Isaiah 43:2 When we pass through waters I will be there with you when you pass through rivers, they will not sweep you over...He promises us Never will I forsake you Never will I leave you...My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 34w ago

@Nitro929 Thank you so much. I feel so much shame with these thoughts. I feel like I’m disappointing God & Jesus. I love them so much and these thoughts hurt! Sometimes I feel like am I saving them in my mind? Am I saying them on purpose? Do these mean something about me. Whenever I think and say in my mind don’t think that thought don’t think it my mind will think of curses. Sometimes I try to move my thoughts to cursing OCD or it’s lies but it’ll move back to God and I think oh no did I say that? Or sometimes I feel like I’m ruminating and that’s why I’m hearing those thoughts in my mind. I feel so guilty! I pray for forgiveness if I thought it on said it in my mind on purpose. Because I want to make sure He knows I didn’t mean it or even wanted to think it. If I could remove these words and thoughts out of my mind I would. I hate these thoughts. I try to remind myself the fact I feel any guilt, shame, fear and torment just shows I don’t want it! Yet I feel like am I saying it or thinking it on purpose?! I’m trying so hard to remember God & Jesus forgive us and love us no matter what we say, think or do! It’s just hard when I feel like He’s mad but I’m trying to remember who I know He is! A God of love!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 34w ago

Atleast you can tell that u don't like them, for me, I cant tell if I think it on purpose or not, most probably I do. I don't even know if it's ocd, if it ever was. I just have this urge to scream, laugh nd cry at the same time. I feel numb mostly. I keep getting/thinking these thoughts, these blasphemous thoughts like a chain reaction. Everyday. EVERY SINGLE DAY. Initially it hurt, I cried nd cried nd cried. Asked for forgiveness all the time. Now it all feels fake. The crying. The repentance. Fake. From the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep. I think I hv lost my faith. Nothing is left anymore. I'm not a Christian btw.

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 18w ago

I just wanted to say your not alone I'm in the same boat. These thoughts are so bad and it makes me think I like them or that I'm not a Christian anymore, but ik Jesus is there for us. But it just feels so weird and I'm mostly numb and scared.

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 34w ago

I get this ALL THE TIME!! To the point I don’t even know what are intrusive thoughts or if I’m just thinking them on purpose!! I also feel like I know when a thought I’d coming I’ll get a feeling so then I instantly think right think of something else then feel like I chexk see if the thought is there which obvs it going to be if I go looking for it!!! Mine are all to do with Jesus and God it’s awfull!! I don’t even get anxiety somtimes with mine then suddenly get hit with shame and guilt which in a weird way I’m glad of that part because it means I definitely don’t want them if that makes sense!!

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 34w ago

Also if busy doing something and I suddenly realise I’ve not had a thought in a while I get such a strong urge to thing something really BAD it’s like I want to search my mind for the most awful thing it can thing of and then when i have I’m so upset with myself like what couldn’t I stop myself!!!

Username: Anonymous

Date posted: 36w ago

Religious OCD

Lately Ive been having blasphemous intrusive thoughts I wonder if God knows about my OCD and that I would never willingly think these things I'm constantly asking for forgiveness and sometimes I feel like I go searching for these thoughts just to have something to obsess over Uuuuugh!!

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 36w ago

Religious OCD & Intrusive Thoughts

So about 2 weeks ago I started having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God & Jesus! I’ve had them before but they’re hard to brush off because you feel awful and disgusted for even having them. They were “rejecting thoughts” I finally was able to just let them float on by and not pay attention to them. My main theme is doubting God & Jesus but I’ve noticed it’ll switch on me. Sometimes my mind will doubt if it’s OCD! So currently 2 days ago I’ve been getting the blasphemous thoughts again but when I said “I love you Jesus” I heard instead of Jesus it was Satan! I panicked and sometimes when I say I love Jesus and God I hear “I love you S____” it freaks me out!!! I love God & Jesus so much! Those thoughts cause so much anxiety!!! I would never say that thought and I wish it would go away or remove all those thoughts! I Like ughh those awful intrusive thoughts hurts so much! Some times if feels like I think them or say them purposely in my mind! But I try to remind myself I don’t want them! They cause so much anxiety and distress for a reason! It’s just so annoying when it’s constantly changing and throwing other “themes” I try to tell myself this is still in the same category! I had a certain blasphemous thought weeks ago and now it’s a “new” one and I think it’s still a thought it’s just different and maybe that’s how it’s trying to trip me up! But then usually a bunch of them start coming like beating me down! Maybe it’s the themes switching up on me again but ughh it’s really hard! Makes it feel like it’s me but I don’t want these thoughts at all!!! Everytime I say I love Jesus & God those thoughts come and just randomly! I feel like it’s “me” but I’m reminding myself it’s OCD! The more I react the more they come! They make me feel like God is mad at me or He doesn’t love me which I know isn’t true at all! I know He loves me so much!! It’s just so sad that my mind thinks that! Sometimes I feel like He is mad or will leave me but I know that’s not true!! Any advice please 😭

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 35w ago

Religious OCD - Blasphemous Intrusive Thoughts

Hi everyone! My main theme in religious OCD is doubting God & Jesus! It hurts me heart I love them but I’m trying to remember His love and grace! Recently I’ve been having major blasphemous intrusive thoughts! I’ve had them before throughout my OCD journey but this time it’s kinda hard to let go and they’re coming so hard! They scare me! They can be very mean and just disgusting. Cursing, denying and just thoughts I hate! I ask for forgiveness and don’t always “feel” forgiven! I love Jesus & God! These thoughts hurt so much! Sometimes they make me feel like I want them or I’m saying them on purpose! I feel like I subconsciously “check” & ruminating on them. I know this is a normal and common OCD theme but it’s like sometimes I feel like I doubt my OCD! Especially whenever I have blasphemous intrusive thoughts! Like my brain just thinks “nope it’s you not OCD”. Like it doesn’t feel like OCD but Ik OCD can make it feel “very real”. It makes me feel like God is mad at me or upset! Or He doesn’t love me as much or just can’t be “forgiven” which I know is a lie and not true! I love God so much! Ik OCD attacks on hat we love it’s just my mind will doubt I have it! Please any tips to overcome these thoughts! I feel a lot of shame, guilt, fear, anxiety and sadness for having these thoughts! I know people say “they’re just thoughts” and not bad but they feel like that. Any advice?! Has anyone else gone through this?

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