Struggling with intrusive blasphemous thoughts and seeking understanding?

Religious OCD

Does anyone feel they say/think there blasphemous intrusive thoughts on purpose? Sometimes I feel like I say them but i reject that! I don’t want to think these thoughts! u would never say them out loud! Apart of me thinks since I thought stop a lot and thought replace a lot thats when it’s coming. I start thinking "don’t think it, don’t think it". I’ll start rejecting the other thoughts but mid way they start going to God & Jesus! Or I’ll feel cursing thoughts coming and I’ll say f OCD or f these lies then it’ll go over to God & Jesus! Then you just end of thinking it. Idk if my OCD is wanting me to think “oh since you thought it you said”. Like Thought Action type thing. Does anyone else go through this? It hurts. i love God & Jesus so much and to think "what if i thought this or said it in my mind on purpose!" any advice?

Username: Nitro929Nitro929

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w ago

You are not alone this happens to me all the time. Going through this today. God knows what you are goung through and gives us grace and forgiveness...I have tried to hold back the thoughts for a long time and feels like holding back a freight train...I am still working on it but just have to let them happen knowing God understands what is happening and sit with the feelings and not try to compulsed or give them meaning... Believe me this is a big work in process for me but just have to trust in Christ that he holds us and is there with us during the storm...There is some good scripture to remember Isaiah 43:2 When we pass through waters I will be there with you when you pass through rivers, they will not sweep you over...He promises us Never will I forsake you Never will I leave you...My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 29w ago

@Nitro929 Thank you so much. I feel so much shame with these thoughts. I feel like I’m disappointing God & Jesus. I love them so much and these thoughts hurt! Sometimes I feel like am I saving them in my mind? Am I saying them on purpose? Do these mean something about me. Whenever I think and say in my mind don’t think that thought don’t think it my mind will think of curses. Sometimes I try to move my thoughts to cursing OCD or it’s lies but it’ll move back to God and I think oh no did I say that? Or sometimes I feel like I’m ruminating and that’s why I’m hearing those thoughts in my mind. I feel so guilty! I pray for forgiveness if I thought it on said it in my mind on purpose. Because I want to make sure He knows I didn’t mean it or even wanted to think it. If I could remove these words and thoughts out of my mind I would. I hate these thoughts. I try to remind myself the fact I feel any guilt, shame, fear and torment just shows I don’t want it! Yet I feel like am I saying it or thinking it on purpose?! I’m trying so hard to remember God & Jesus forgive us and love us no matter what we say, think or do! It’s just hard when I feel like He’s mad but I’m trying to remember who I know He is! A God of love!

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29w ago

Atleast you can tell that u don't like them, for me, I cant tell if I think it on purpose or not, most probably I do. I don't even know if it's ocd, if it ever was. I just have this urge to scream, laugh nd cry at the same time. I feel numb mostly. I keep getting/thinking these thoughts, these blasphemous thoughts like a chain reaction. Everyday. EVERY SINGLE DAY. Initially it hurt, I cried nd cried nd cried. Asked for forgiveness all the time. Now it all feels fake. The crying. The repentance. Fake. From the moment I wake up to the moment I sleep. I think I hv lost my faith. Nothing is left anymore. I'm not a Christian btw.

Username: Jesuslover28Jesuslover28

Date posted: 13w ago

I just wanted to say your not alone I'm in the same boat. These thoughts are so bad and it makes me think I like them or that I'm not a Christian anymore, but ik Jesus is there for us. But it just feels so weird and I'm mostly numb and scared.

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 29w ago

I get this ALL THE TIME!! To the point I don’t even know what are intrusive thoughts or if I’m just thinking them on purpose!! I also feel like I know when a thought I’d coming I’ll get a feeling so then I instantly think right think of something else then feel like I chexk see if the thought is there which obvs it going to be if I go looking for it!!! Mine are all to do with Jesus and God it’s awfull!! I don’t even get anxiety somtimes with mine then suddenly get hit with shame and guilt which in a weird way I’m glad of that part because it means I definitely don’t want them if that makes sense!!

Username: Liv24Liv24

Date posted: 29w ago

Also if busy doing something and I suddenly realise I’ve not had a thought in a while I get such a strong urge to thing something really BAD it’s like I want to search my mind for the most awful thing it can thing of and then when i have I’m so upset with myself like what couldn’t I stop myself!!!

Username: hannie

Date posted: 3y ago

Does anyone else get intrusive thoughts while praying or thinking of God? It has been stressing me out so bad. I feel like I’m a bad Christian or somethings wrong with me cause sometimes I get flooded with intrusive thoughts when I try to focus my time on God.

Username: sidneyrae7

Date posted: 1y ago

Intrusive thoughts

I'm religious, so anyone else who is religious I need to know if this happens to y'all. When I read the Bible, which I want to do twice a day, I feel like I have to reread and reread stuff bc if I didn't comprehend it properly, something bad would happen, or my fears would come true. I also have intrusive thoughts that come into my head about what I'm reading and the thoughts will say something bad about the Bible or about God, and it's like I know God knows I didn't say it but I have to "undo" the thought by getting up out of my seat completely, and saying something that "undoes" it then I can sit back down and read. Sometimes I also shake my head or hit myself in the head trying to rid of the thought. And say "no, no, of course not" and stuff like that trying to undo the thought that intruded...

Religion & Spirituality OCD

Username: jellyfish305

Date posted: 19w ago

Religious OCD (?)

PLEASE READ. Ok so I’ve had these intrusive thoughts for a while and essentially at their core they’re about worshipping the devil. I’ve always been scared of doing a prayer to the devil (specifically out loud). Recently for ERP practice my therapist has had me say the word “devil.” We’ve also watched videos about people who have made deals with the devil and videos talking about the devil himself. These are really triggering for me but I understand they’re meant to be as ERP. However, this stuff has really amped up my doubts and I’m not even really sure how to explain them. Basically I’m doubting if I even believe in what I’ve considered my core beliefs, and whether or not I would want to worship the devil. Moreover the fear of saying a bad prayer aloud has spiked especially because I’ve already said the word “devil” aloud. Then I tell myself that if I do it as a form of ERP it would be fine, but then i wonder if my doing it would actually be as ERP or because I actually want to, which stresses me out more about doing the prayer. I haven’t actually done it aloud but I’m scared of doing so.

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