I'm starting to believe that I might be attracted to my sister in laws son. I'm afraid that my fiance will leave me still. I don't like children. They don't turn me on. This is post three that I've made on this app. I've breaking down for three days now in fear that I will lose my fiance because of these thoughts. I don't know what to believe in anymore. He's my everything and I would never touch that boy. Or even want to have intercourse with him. But my Brian keeps telling me that I do. I'm scared

Im sorry for a long post but I'm very scared Prior to few weeks ago I didn't have any sexual thoughts regarding children EVER, and if I did then I really can't remember. But ever since I started worrying about the possibility that I might be attracted to them, I just felt severely awful. And it's getting worse and worse overtime. What started as just me worrying that I might be attracted to kids has now turned into a deep belief that there is a very dark and real part of me that is, in fact, a pedophile. I even started having intrusive but pleasurable fantasies about children and it's driving me absolutely sick. I really wish that it's just a very extreme form of POCD and not actually me turning into a monster, but with each passing day my hope is fading away, replaced with pure disgust in myself and unwillingness to live like this. Has anyone here ever went through something similar?

I recently told my fiance what has been going on with me since it just started to occur and I couldn't stop myself from crying and hiding it. I currently have been having intrusive thoughts like POCD becuase of something I watched on TV. And now I am having regrets on telling him becuase I am scared he might tell someone and my life will change I never wanted these thoughts in the first place I don't want to be seen as a pedo for something I didn't do or can control yet mentally....I'm scared he might use it against me now it's making it worse and idk what to do I love him so much but I keep thinking he will tell his family since they are so close....he told me he wouldn't but it just keeps bothering me I love his family I don't want them to think differently of me....what do I do?

Last night I was intimate with my partner, and I love my partner very much, but during the intimate time I had a thought pop up about his little brother. No I feel disgusted and I love his brother like my own. I known him since he was five I just can’t do this anymore.