Update - Fear of Repetitive Sounds and Health OCD

@Mike0310 So hard but I will try 🙏🏻

@Lilly2442! They songs ? Random sounds? Quotes ? Movie snippets?

@Mike0310 So basically it’s whatever I hear around me for example a sound of a car beep it’ll stay in my head even after it’s gone. Or just a random sound in general but it does always go away but at the same time I have a fear of schizophrenia so this really makes me think something is wrong. I have sounds and songs tho. But mostly the sounds. I always think how how something might sound (imagination) and I can hear it in my head and it triggers anxiety because I think it won’t go away. Example : a car door slamming I can hear it in my head and then triggers anxiety cause I think that isn’t normal but I know it is.

@Lilly2442! This is exactly what I have . I am no therapist or doctor but what I was told is that these repeating loops are involuntary mental compulsions we don’t even realize we are doing . Also we are so hyperaware we question everything that comes into our minds and we just keep repeating it over and over an giving it importance. To ground me , I sometimes try an resist thinking about a sound I’m repeating ? And it is almost like I HAVE to think it . It’s like a tic . I do it to myself and I guess repeating is the compulsion

@Mike0310 This all started cause of the fear of schizophrenia. It triggers so much anxiety and when I focus in on it it becomes louder. And yes I’m too hyper aware of everything and question everything and relate it to “is this a sign I’m FOR-REAL losing control this time” especially with the stuck sounds.

@Lilly2442! Same . Heard landscapers using blower on neighbors lawn now that noise is being repeated non stop in my head.

@Mike0310 The initial fear is “ this will last forever and I’ll never get it out “

@Mike0310 Yes exactly which creates more anxiety and makes the sound in my head seem louder for some reason?

@Lilly2442! Yep . All self induced . Soooo compulsive

@Mike0310 Far from schizophrenia though

@Mike0310 Yeah and that’s my biggest fear is this is a sign even tho it always goes away :( it’s so exhausting

@Simon Thanks Simon. That’s good advice . I too have gone through big “ spikes “ during pivotal moments of my life , especially moments that reminds me of my childhood trauma. Part of my fear is also just my impatience. I want to wake up tomorrow and it to be gone . In reality nothing works that way 😄

@Lilly2442! Never lasts forever . More energy put into it , the more it sticks .

@Mike0310 Yes but the anxiety it causes automatic sometimes makes it feel like it will last forever