anyone else?

i obsess over extremely negative unwanted thoughts and no matter how hard i try to convince myself they’re just thoughts and i don’t actually want that they continue to almost consume me in a way? it’s like a constant battle with myself and there’s been many times where it physically makes me ill and distressed and like i need to tell someone even if it also affects them. i have some decent days where i can fight them but ive noticed when im stressed i can only fight them for so long. i seriously feel crazy 99% of the time and like nobody understands me. everyone always tells me they get bad thoughts too and it’s human which i understand but not everyone gets them to the extent of some others. its to a point where i just want to give up sometimes so i won’t have to deal with the thoughts. of course i never would but my mind does go there.

Username: purpleturtle730purpleturtle730

Date posted: 33w ago

i understand completely and am going through this too, it was definitely worse couple months back but it’s still very much affecting me and i get how it can feel like you’re crazy constantly. i’ve also dealt with the wanting to like confess thing and tell other ppl too. that can be a compulsion and it’s something i try so hard to not do and sometimes i do feed into it but not doing that has given me more satisfaction over time and brought me more peace if that makes sense. take care of and be kind to yourself through this, you’re not alone in this experience.

Username: Dlhm04Dlhm04

Date posted: 33w ago

@purpleturtle730 it’s hard because sometimes telling someone is what helps me because if i don’t it bottles up and eventually i cry my eyes out and feel like i’m gonna throw up. i feel this overwhelming guilt especially when it’s involving someone i love. i feel like im keeping something from them.

Username: purpleturtle730purpleturtle730

Date posted: 33w ago

@Dmalecke i understand. take this with a grain of salt cause i haven’t personally really done this but i’ve seen ppl say to let yourself cry and feel all of the things instead of going to a compulsion. face the feelings head on i guess. i believe this is sorta what is done in erp. again take this with a grain of salt and look more into it.

Username: Dlhm04Dlhm04

Date posted: 33w ago

and i truly feel like i’m a bad person and have a disgusting mind. i want a beautiful mind if that makes sense.

Username: purpleturtle730purpleturtle730

Date posted: 33w ago

@Dmalecke i feel this way too.

Username: TonyyTonyy

Date posted: 33w ago

I know get what you’re saying. I have my days where I’m fine and able to look past obsessive and intrusive thoughts. The past few days for some reason have been hell. I’ve been going thru this for years now. Just when I think I’m doing better I always go back to square one. Of course I have those thoughts of just ending it all, but I never do.

Username: Dlhm04Dlhm04

Date posted: 33w ago

@Tonyy i’ve been struggling with it for years too and recently it’s been at its worst again but it truly is a little relieving knowing others experience it too and i feel the same way. i’ll start doing better and it feels like start going backwards out of nowhere again. it’s exhausting.

Username: arm_0arm_0

Date posted: 33w ago

makes me feel crazy too! we can get through this!

Username: bavphobavpho

Date posted: 22w ago

This is so well said I feel like I can truly connect to you and how you feel simply from what you said, I end up stressing my whole family out because of it and it only makes me feel worse but do not feel alone or weak in any way for not being able to fight those feelings because they can come off as so strong. I hope that at least you know someone, like me, knows EXACTLY how you feel. I wish you a very beautiful day and I hope you are able to enjoy yourself more often than not.

Username: getwellsoon

Date posted: 4y ago

so i feel like i need to vent because all of this is just building up, 3 months ago when i had my first intrusive thought that caused an obsession that went on for weeks and then every other week a new intrusive thought would pop up and i’d obsess over that one. and it continues with multiple themes. some even similar to the one i’m dealing with right now but for some reason this one feels so much more real then again all the themes did. i really don’t know how to explain it, frightened if it’s just me. some days i feel completely numb to it like i’m a bad person but if that was so why would i keep fighting it and being in distress over it. it’s breaking my heart. i should know that it’s no coincidence since i’ve been dealing with this thing. whatever it might be ): i really don’t want to give up but i’m just scared. it all feels wrong and i feel numb or sometimes the ugliest stuff pops into my head. also the old themes have tried popping up again. i wonder if this whole thing is just my fault if it’s all just me but the truth is i guess i’ll never know... there’s so much more i could say... but i hope someone can relate to this... is it possible to feel just completely not like yourself like you’re trying so hard to just be the way you are but it’s hard because you have to sit with the fear inside your head... cause tbh there’s no other choice

Username: arm_0

Date posted: 47w ago

obsessive thoughts

anyone else obsess over like every thought they have especially bad thoughts? i can think something and it’ll be the only thing i’ll think of. talked about something once? i need to keep talking about it. LIKEEE idk how to explain it, it’s jus like every thought i have i become so obsessive of it especially if it upsets me. let me know what helps

Username: iescobar.7o7

Date posted: 29w ago

Am I the only one

I have really bad intrusive thoughts and I feel like I can never get rid of them they’re always there and I can never get them of my mind can someone help me ?

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