I have two memories of molesting two different children and nothing has come of it. No one has spoken up about it no one’s complained hell there’s nothing even on the cameras. But I’m convinced these false memories happened and it scares me to death. Did I really molest those children or is my brain conjuring all of this up? What do I do because I feel like I can’t live with myself
I had one time a false memory that I hit somebody with my car. This thing never happened but the thoughts haunted me for like 2-3 weeks. In that moment when I was driving, with 3-5 mph, I was fully aware of What I was doing, but in my head there was that fear of hitting somebody. I lived with that fear until it had me thinking I actually did it. I was even looking on the news to see if someone got hit by a car, I was asking friends How does it sound when you hit somebody or things like that. Most probably you care about children and this subject is very sensitive. If you were to do this thing, you wouldn t even think about it right now. OCD is tough. You are stronger than OCD.
@Magicalthinking We are all stronger than our ocd thank you so much for telling me your story I really appreciate the time and effort you put into your comment thank you
I don’t have advice but I do have this kind of false memory also😭I’ve never admitted it before because it makes me sick to my stomach. I have real and false details also mixed in and I don’t know what’s real anymore…it’s just terrible. I know I’d never ever hurt a child. I’m so so sorry❤️I hope that makes you feel less alone?
@LillyX Aww hunny thank you so much for commenting I do feel less alone now and a bit better thank you so much I really Hope we both get better
Hello you have to practice ERP and accepting uncertainty it is the only thing that will help you
@KeerenJialal You’re right it is the only thing that’ll help me it’s just so ridiculously hard
"pOCD and zOCD false memories" I'm so sorry for venting... I need help... Or just someone to lend me an ear. I'm suffering from really serious, really bad false memories that are not only illegal but also make me feel like a monster. Basically, my false memories are extended to these two topics only and are always of a sexual nature. 1. That I used my pets as tools to obtain sexual gratification. (and or touched them) 2. That I touched a child (during an actual real event) inappropriately. I don't have images for these false memories... It's more fears than anything else! I feel like I forgot about them or I'm just in denial. The 1st one comes from a situation where I masturb- near my cat. (she was in my bed but I can't recall where she was standing). There's also another situation that I have also masturb- near my dog but in this case, she wasn't near me. Just in the same room as me, in separate beds. The 2nd is from a real event where I played with this child in the pool. I can only remember one physical interaction that was giving her a piggyback ride. In conclusion, I'm so afraid these are real and if they are real, then I should be punished! I don't want to go to jail because I'm terrified of that place so the only option is to kill myself. I don't deserve to be happy or even alive...
I have this memory of playing with my childhood friend like lifting him up in the air putting him back down just playing. And my brain is taking that memory and saying I had sex with him or I humped him or something like that. It makes me sick to my stomach to think I had sex or raped a little boy. I’m scared. Please give me some advice
Yesterday I tried to commit suicide because I started remembering things from my childhood that I did to another child and ask I kept thinking I remembered other instances of doing other things to them and I am really disgusted with myself and I don’t deserve to live. I’m scared to tell any even my therapist because of what she might think of me. I’ve also have intrusive thoughts about children, I know that I don’t find them attractive but my brain tells me that I do and I get all of these weird thoughts in my head all at once and I don’t know what to do, I don’t know if I actually did this to them or if I’m making it up because of my trauma and anxiety. I tried asking them if they remembered me doing anything uncomfortable when we were children and they said no and were getting annoyed and dismissive.
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