pocd help!!

i saw a family member post their kid, he is super adorable and funny ive met him before. but ever since seeing that my pocd is telling me i want to hurt him and or do something to him. im really close with his mom i look up to her a lot im scared that u will find out and i will be shunned forever. I don’t want to do anything to him. but these thoughts feel so real and it feels like my body is just gonna get up and commit a crime. she is very spiritual and I go to her for advice a lot, im scared she’s gonna get bad vibes or negative intentions from me I just want to be a good person I don’t want to hurt anyone especially him :( another thing is I had a thought that he looked like my ex and he does and even looks how he looked when HE was a baby but im scared that that means im a p. I hate this :( I get groinal responses and rapid intrusive thoughts it’s so draining :(

Username: 120120

Date posted: 28w ago

That’s an exhausting thing to deal with. I would look into learning about ERP if you haven’t before, and if therapy is an option that could be helpful for ERP as well. In the meantime you’re not alone and there are a lot of other people struggling with this sort of thing

Username: monse monse

Date posted: 28w ago

breath, please, hear me out, these thoughts ARE NOT REAL, remember, the LAST THING you would do, are the exactly your pocd are telling you to do. these aren’t your real thoughts. these are UNWANTED

Username: Booklover19Booklover19

Date posted: 27w ago

You described how I feel so well sometimes like my body is just going to get up and commit a crime I’ve never heard it worded like that but it clicked when I read it. It’s the scariest and most gut churning feeling….im in the same boat as you but not with a specific person but in general and I really freaking hate it

Username: Jesus247Jesus247

Date posted: 27w ago

I feel like I could have written this myself

Username: Emmnala Emmnala

Date posted: 28w ago

I’ve been through this in the past. You are not alone at all. It’s hard but it will past. Let the thoughts roll and even the groinal responses because they mean nothing

Username: co653co653

Date posted: 27w ago

@Emmnala it’s hard because of the compulsion I have with the groinal response “checking or testing” my self :( it makes me feel horrible

Username: OCDFamilyOCDFamily

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 28w ago

Ocd lies all the time. The more you argue and engage with the thoughts, the more ocd is sucking you into its spiral. Let the thoughts gallop across your brain with no arguing

Username: hope

Date posted: 3y ago

trying to sit with the intrusive thoughts and fear, it’s so hard. i don’t want this. i just want to go back to my normal self who only focused on what i wanted to and not this shell of who i use to be dying to just live again. pocd is the worst theme, it’s taken over my life. every move i make i am just overthinking everything. my brain tells me lies and sometimes i am so afraid i question if i am just “in denial” it’s so terrifying. i feel so so so much guilt, i would and could never hurt a child, it hurts me to even think about it. it makes me feel evil that i have intrusive thoughts. my brain tells me i am “attracted” to kids even though i know i am not, it’s hell. i’ve been having a huge flare up, maybe bc i am on my period, but it’s super difficult lately. i visited my nephew this weekend and i had so much fun, but of course my pocd ruined it and put intrusive thoughts in my head and said i was “attracted” AND I AM NOT, i was disgusting like ACTUALLY HORRIFIED. i wanted to go home so badly and when i got home i just felt so much guilt. pocd has ruined me. i want to be a mom, i want to be an amazing aunt. why is this disorder attacking me so much. :(

POCD

Username: katr :,)

Date posted: 35w ago

Ugh I hate pocd I can’t tell anymore :(

Every time I look at a child now I have these feelings and groinials and thoughts that I just can’t tell if they’re real or not bc it feels like it’s real it feels like I’m denying I’m attracted to them or something when I just notice that they are cute and have like attractive faces/feautures? And sometimes it feels like I notice them like an adult :/ but sometimes like if it’s like a vid or something sometimes I think it’s someone older but then I see longer and I’m like oof it’s not 🫠 like ughhh I just hate this idk what to do and I don’t want to be become an abuser I’m scared like I’ll be like my abuser and i don’t feel anxious like before bc I had these thoughts come up since 2020

POCD

Username: co653

Date posted: 29w ago

pocd help

there’s a little kid outside my window at the community pool. i looked to see what he was doing. i looked a couple times and he was just fully clothed in the pool LOL, but then I started having thoughts “oh are u looking bc ur a creep? do u want to go down there and gr0om him???” like wtf!!! and i stayed there and kept looking to i guess test myself and be like see im not looking for any reason but i got this feeling of dread and had to walk away :( i hate this. pocd makes me feel like i am a p everyday it feels so real sometimes I just wanna say I am and admit myself to a mental hospital

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