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- 1y
Confessing
I get so scared when I confess that I didn’t confess enough. I have to stop. This is good motivation to get out of this loop. Does this happen to anyone else?
I get so scared when I confess that I didn’t confess enough. I have to stop. This is good motivation to get out of this loop. Does this happen to anyone else?
Yes this happens to me! All the time! I feel the need to tell every detail no matter how difficult it is it uncomfortable it is for me. I do this so I can get a ‘fair’ judgement from people.
My brain also convinces me that if I leave anything out it’s because I’ve been ‘manipulative’ and ‘sneaky’
Ugh this is me!! I feel you.
Me too like I’m lying cus I left certain things out cus they are too difficult to talk abt
@suspectedocd3!!R I do this too
I’ve experienced this, and didn’t know it was a thing until I’ve joined this community. I’ve confessed things that were absolutely ridiculous and unnecessary all because the urge was so strong. I’ve gotten better with this although it’s definitely a tough one
Yes! Like if I don’t state everything they won’t believe me, or think I’m lying or faking it. Or they’ll misunderstand what I’m trying to say, which is a big thing for me. I find myself repeating myself a lot if I forget something, or if I felt like I wasn’t listened to properly, like I should probably reword so they understand exactly what I’m trying to convey, which is very hard as someone with a very small vocabulary from being home schooled.
@GoldenArgentavis I feel that too! I get terrified I didn’t explain enough and they didn’t understand
I can't stop confessing! I have this urge to dump on him every thought and wrong doing I've ever had and its destroying me! Im worried it'll destroy us too. When we started dating I stole a story from a friend to make myself look cool which was pathetic. But its the only time I remember doing anything like this.
I know confession is a compulsion, and it ultimately feeds into the cycle, but I'm tearing myself apart over this and I want help. I just want to confess everything to my partner, and then we can figure out how to deal with my thoughts together. Should I confess?
I’ve always struggled a lot with confessing. It’s my worst compulsion. My bf has always been really understanding and can usually see the OCD in it more than I can. He’s always grounded me and helped me see the distortion or the OCD. Lately it hasn’t been that way, he takes my confessions out of the context of the OCD. Takes offense. Gets upset, and angry. He’ll say things like “Who says something like that? Why would you say that?” I can’t ask him not to react, that’s not fair, but I’m feeling like a monster is this is only making me want to confess more because every time I do I get a terrible reaction from him and it feels like it just confirms whatever it was was awful. It doesn’t feel like I’m overthinking or getting stuck on a technical truth or just having ocd distort something. It feels like I’m truly a monster. I can’t even defend myself because I can’t tell if it’s really OCD or just me having a bad thought I agree with. I feel scared. He’s never reacted badly like this and it’s happened multiple times now. I know it’s not fair to keep confessing but I’m genuinely struggling and scared. I don’t know what to do, I can’t just write it down or something. That makes it more real. Materializing the confession makes me more likely to confess.
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