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Yup, yup, and yup. Same here. Everything you said, same here. I waste so much time redoing and undoing, and have wasted a lot of money on things that I have thrown away. There's so many things I want to do but I just can't. And what really drives me crazy is why can't I think "safe" thought for more than longer thab a few seconds. You are not alone. I experience everything you're talkin about as well. I recently found out that what I have is called OCD with psychotic features (or OCD with poor insight). To better explain it, people with OCD and high insight know that what they are experiencing is completely irrational and that's just the brains playing tricks on them. But, people like me (and possibly you) feel like what we are experiencing is a little more real, and that something "beyond" is causing it. But do not fret, there is hope for people like me (and possibly you). There are certain types of "insight therapy", and also augmenting SSRI's with an anti-psychotic (which me and my psychiatrist are currently working on). Give me a second and I'll provide you with some very great links that can help you.
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This link https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/ is where you can find specialized OCD therapists who are part of a larger OCD Network (I found my current therapist here). I strongly recommend starting here and getting yourself a therapist because they CAN help you. If that doesn't result in any promising results, then check here https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists you can filter for therapists who are trained in OCD. Next you going to want to find a psychiatrist. Medicine is very helpful in the situation. I use LiveHealthOnline https://livehealthonline.com/ it's an online/mobile doctor. you can see a psychiatrist within a few days or even the same day. if you choose this option make sure you click the psychiatry option as they are the only ones who can prescribe you medication. There is hope in this situation. A professional is very helpful.
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Yup, same thing here man (not the medical issues though, which I sympathize). I have dealt with this for about 8 years now, and it wasn't until now that I finally seeked help. I wish I seeked help long before because now I have 11 credit cards that are maxed out, $75,000 of debt, had to take a break from college, no friends or relationships, severly underweight, no hobbies or things I can really do to pass the time, my family have been paying my bills and are completely drained with me. I'm only 25 years old. I do have a delivery job, but I don't make much, mainly because my OCD makes it extremely hard to work. But depsite all this, I do have just a small sliver of hope that the medication and therapy will get me to a place where I can some what live and hopefully actually enjoy life. All I can say is try your best to get some help. Your future self will thank you!
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I have it but its in relationship to contamination OCD. I need to clean over and over again, avoid touching anything when dressing, it drives me nuts.
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Mine involves bad thoughts. Things i dont want to think about. Its become worse soon as one thought over a new one come. This is making it difficult for me to get things done or work a job. I literally try to go somewhere and turn right back around and wind up in bed. I watch others just go on and about with their business and get things accomplished. Me something simple as sliding on a pair of socks is a task
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I feel the pain, even if it's for different reasons. I've been at this for 3 years and all I can say is don't do what I did; avoidance and compulsions. It only dug me deeper, deeper and deeper.
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I have the same type of OCD as you, it’s called “just right” ocd. The only way to feel better is to ignore doing compulsions as you’re doing tasks. It sucks a lot but eventually the anxiety subsided and you feel better after
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My heart goes out to you though, it’s really difficult
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I AM THE EXACT SAME WAY! It has made life a living hell and nightmare. This is the first time I have heard anyone mention this. I honestly thought I was alone. I have started meds and therapy. Are you seeking any professional help?
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I have not done anything about it. Nothing. It traps me in. Its gotten to the point ii am ordering things online canceling them and reordering then canceling then when i get that out the way I gotta wait til its shipped then i also put a thought during that process its so hard to explain. I hate to even explain it because it causes more anxiety n ocd. I cant get rid of these thoughts no one understands. When I do work ill stack and rotate something then my head tells me if you dont redo this over this will happen to you or someone you love. Its holding me back from everything.
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I have thrown so much stuff away tooken things back. Just typing is a nightmare. Updating status on fb these are simple examples im using. Ill even re wash clothes over and over i literally cant afford lr take the stress no longer. There is so much more i wanna explain. But i cant even explain it. This is leading me to a scary path because im scared to do anything anymore everything gotta be right cant think nothing wrong as im doing things it just continues. Sorry for the typos im just trying to get it out
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Thanks for the tips but even thats a task in itself. This time last year I just got home from the hospital from liver damage and kidneys I thought that would scare the stupidity of my thoughts nope. Still goin strong if not even more stronger. Now im stuck here like a hermit I dont know how to control this in public. I cant even take a shower without restarting things. This is causing so much stress I cant even find work because my time is so consumed on my thoughts and im even to the point im talkin to myself yellingstop just leave me alone. Hiding this is hard too.
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When an intrusive thought comes I can’t just say “that’s not true” and just move on. I always feel like I have to disprove the thought and be able to say it with confidence but the problem is that the ocd doesn’t allow me to feel and say it with confidence so I get stuck for hours or even days. How can I stop feeling like I need to do this?
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I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.
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so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.
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