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Yup, yup, and yup. Same here. Everything you said, same here. I waste so much time redoing and undoing, and have wasted a lot of money on things that I have thrown away. There's so many things I want to do but I just can't. And what really drives me crazy is why can't I think "safe" thought for more than longer thab a few seconds. You are not alone. I experience everything you're talkin about as well. I recently found out that what I have is called OCD with psychotic features (or OCD with poor insight). To better explain it, people with OCD and high insight know that what they are experiencing is completely irrational and that's just the brains playing tricks on them. But, people like me (and possibly you) feel like what we are experiencing is a little more real, and that something "beyond" is causing it. But do not fret, there is hope for people like me (and possibly you). There are certain types of "insight therapy", and also augmenting SSRI's with an anti-psychotic (which me and my psychiatrist are currently working on). Give me a second and I'll provide you with some very great links that can help you.
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This link https://iocdf.org/ocd-finding-help/find-help/ is where you can find specialized OCD therapists who are part of a larger OCD Network (I found my current therapist here). I strongly recommend starting here and getting yourself a therapist because they CAN help you. If that doesn't result in any promising results, then check here https://www.psychologytoday.com/us/therapists you can filter for therapists who are trained in OCD. Next you going to want to find a psychiatrist. Medicine is very helpful in the situation. I use LiveHealthOnline https://livehealthonline.com/ it's an online/mobile doctor. you can see a psychiatrist within a few days or even the same day. if you choose this option make sure you click the psychiatry option as they are the only ones who can prescribe you medication. There is hope in this situation. A professional is very helpful.
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Yup, same thing here man (not the medical issues though, which I sympathize). I have dealt with this for about 8 years now, and it wasn't until now that I finally seeked help. I wish I seeked help long before because now I have 11 credit cards that are maxed out, $75,000 of debt, had to take a break from college, no friends or relationships, severly underweight, no hobbies or things I can really do to pass the time, my family have been paying my bills and are completely drained with me. I'm only 25 years old. I do have a delivery job, but I don't make much, mainly because my OCD makes it extremely hard to work. But depsite all this, I do have just a small sliver of hope that the medication and therapy will get me to a place where I can some what live and hopefully actually enjoy life. All I can say is try your best to get some help. Your future self will thank you!
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- 6y
I have it but its in relationship to contamination OCD. I need to clean over and over again, avoid touching anything when dressing, it drives me nuts.
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- 6y
Mine involves bad thoughts. Things i dont want to think about. Its become worse soon as one thought over a new one come. This is making it difficult for me to get things done or work a job. I literally try to go somewhere and turn right back around and wind up in bed. I watch others just go on and about with their business and get things accomplished. Me something simple as sliding on a pair of socks is a task
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I feel the pain, even if it's for different reasons. I've been at this for 3 years and all I can say is don't do what I did; avoidance and compulsions. It only dug me deeper, deeper and deeper.
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- 6y
I have the same type of OCD as you, it’s called “just right” ocd. The only way to feel better is to ignore doing compulsions as you’re doing tasks. It sucks a lot but eventually the anxiety subsided and you feel better after
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- 6y
My heart goes out to you though, it’s really difficult
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- 6y
I AM THE EXACT SAME WAY! It has made life a living hell and nightmare. This is the first time I have heard anyone mention this. I honestly thought I was alone. I have started meds and therapy. Are you seeking any professional help?
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I have not done anything about it. Nothing. It traps me in. Its gotten to the point ii am ordering things online canceling them and reordering then canceling then when i get that out the way I gotta wait til its shipped then i also put a thought during that process its so hard to explain. I hate to even explain it because it causes more anxiety n ocd. I cant get rid of these thoughts no one understands. When I do work ill stack and rotate something then my head tells me if you dont redo this over this will happen to you or someone you love. Its holding me back from everything.
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I have thrown so much stuff away tooken things back. Just typing is a nightmare. Updating status on fb these are simple examples im using. Ill even re wash clothes over and over i literally cant afford lr take the stress no longer. There is so much more i wanna explain. But i cant even explain it. This is leading me to a scary path because im scared to do anything anymore everything gotta be right cant think nothing wrong as im doing things it just continues. Sorry for the typos im just trying to get it out
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- 6y
Thanks for the tips but even thats a task in itself. This time last year I just got home from the hospital from liver damage and kidneys I thought that would scare the stupidity of my thoughts nope. Still goin strong if not even more stronger. Now im stuck here like a hermit I dont know how to control this in public. I cant even take a shower without restarting things. This is causing so much stress I cant even find work because my time is so consumed on my thoughts and im even to the point im talkin to myself yellingstop just leave me alone. Hiding this is hard too.
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- 23w
Hey guys just wondering if anyone suffers from this type of OCD. I feel a big struggle to even begin things because it doesn’t feel right or if I resume things it doesn’t feel right. Anyone have any advice ? Thank you
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- 23w
I never heard about people with OCD who have messy living conditions. Maybe this is why it took so long to accept my diagnosis. Although I really dont like how OCD is percieved at by the majority of people, I feel like Im weird or something because I dont fit into that stereotype. I understand that a lot of people with OCD have this issue, but why do I feel so different? If anybody else has/had this belief, what helps with feeling more comfortable? Everytime my mom points out my room, and how its messy- Its like I feel so lazy and useless. So then I often plan out everything I was going to do, step by step, always having a reasoning behind everything, because logic always comforts me. When I start tidying up my room, I go full out (Sheets, Laundry, Clorox, Candles, Vaccuming, Then I start going through the guinea pigs cage to rearranging all of their stuff) Yet always somewhere after doing a few things, I start feeling disgusting and almost shameful of myself. 99% of the time I end up laying on my floor sobbing, noting every little thing about my room. How my furiniture doesnt match, how i would rather have solid floor like hardwood or vinyl instead of the carpet, usually things i cant change… and then barely anything gets done in my room. I start to have a meltdown and often dont take care of myself even more afterwards. A piece of me feels like my thoughts are just me being a spoiled brat and wanting everything i dont have- meanwhile others dont even have a roof over their head. The other piece of me is just tired, just emotionally exaughsted. Please comment any thoughts or recomendations to maybe improve motovation and attitude towards doing long tasks.
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i’ve unfortunately fallen into the cycle of trying to figure out my thoughts and find answers as to why i feel so distressed. this still pertains to the situation regarding changing my room for those reading who have seen my multiple posts over the last few days. i’ve been so distressed and in so much panic about it. i’m also panicking over my other room looking so different from when i left it. it’s been making me feel crazy because to me there’s no reason for my anxiety to latch so hard onto something that seems so minuscule. i was thinking i was having anxiety over change, but it’s like symptoms of ocd too that’s making it really hard for me to let go. SO i started thinking maybe it was perfectionism ocd? i’ve realized over time that i do compulsions to where things have to feel “just right”, but i also do that with any environment i’m in. like it HAS to feel cozy to me and provide me comfort in order for me to feel at ease. and this change is causing me to panic because there’s something wrong that i can’t find an answer to. maybe the different colored carpet? but it’s also more than that it feels like. however, now it’s spreading into other areas of my house where i’ve always been fine in and possibly to just any area i’m in at all. hence why it’s making me feel crazy because there’s no reason for me to be THIS distressed over that as i’ve never really had this problem before. and when i did it would last maybe an hour to a couple of days at most, but this has been going for over 2 weeks with my really bad anxiety being this week. i’m doing a little better, but it’s still hard when i can feel that panic waiting for me to acknowledge and just engulf me in the ocd cycle. i’m also analyzing basically any feeling i have so i just feel off in general and like i’m going insane. i’ve been so hyper focused on how i feel and that will send me spiraling too. multiple themes then start coming in like existential ocd and fear of solipsism. not to mention my harm and contamination ocd that just adds on when i’m this vulnerable. then i worry if no one is real, then no one feels the way i do. or just in general that what if no one feels the way i do. honestly, i think being out of college and in my house with nothing to do is causing me too much time with my thoughts. which is why i’m so distressed about everything that pops into my brain.
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