I'm confused

@lalalalalalalalal We got this!! You are strong

@lalalalalalalalal Trust me it sounds like you have so-ocd because these thoughts are very distressing to you and they don't seem to go with who are as to why they are very distressing

@lalalalalalalalal I completely understand. I like to think actions and thoughts have to align. Your mind may tell you that you like girls but are you going to act on it do you have a drive for it? I had to ask myself that. I have ZERO drive to be in a same-sex relationship and remind myself of what those thoughts make me and it makes me feel not like myself and very uncomfortable. I've watched Same-sex porn and have done my stuff to it but there was never a single thought in my mind saying that i would want to do that.

@AmandaB345 It sounds like you know who you are and just keep that in mind

@lalalalalalalalal Trust me I've been there!! My head dies that to me all the time. Men are just what makes me tic what gets me going and excited ( sorry tmi). We all have options and i know i choose men and nothing other than that. If anything I'll be on my own

@AmandaB345 We are very much so alike it sounds like with our stories

@lalalalalalalalal Yeah. Your body is reacting to men because that is what is natural for you. I've watched two women fo at it and it's gotten a rise out of me but I've never thought oh i want that to be me. Plenty of straight women have watched same sex or have read same sex relationship

@lalalalalalalalal Right, i get that. I think that's normal just depending on mood.

@lalalalalalalalal I've experienced this with men, not with women but with men yes

@lalalalalalalalal Of course!! We all need someone to talk to every now and then

@lalalalalalalalal SAME!! The guy that i have a huge crush on i always think of him!! I can't wait to see him on June 29th. Sometimes i question if he really likes me but I'll get there everything that has happened between points to him liking me but i think I'm just being delulu sometimes because he is a singer

@lalalalalalalalal I have insta. If you have insta we can follow each other there

@lalalalalalalalal I literally feel myself falling in love with him

@lalalalalalalalal Oh bummer do have other socials like Snapchat

@lalalalalalalalal Ahh, i completely understand!! I don't have Reddit sadly

@lalalalalalalalal Yes definitely:)

@lalalalalalalalal I have that

@lalalalalalalalal Do you imagine yourself with men in first or third perspective ? Like do you imagine yourself with a man like you re seeing a movie of you and a man ( third perspective)

@lalalalalalalalal That's the ocd still acting up trying to make false feelings and attractions feel real. If you're not thinking about it as much that could mean you are beating your ocd

@lalalalalalalalal Yep!! People have beaten ocd without therapy and meds.

@lalalalalalalalal This is the ocd talking. Just let it talk and show it that it doesn’t affect. That is easier said than done. But yea you can feel repulsed to the sex you prefer there have been men that I don’t even want to be near and make me feel sick. Doesn’t mean you want to be bi, lesbian or with a woman just means you didn’t feel a strong reaction and that’s ok. Could mean you need more time with men for the emotions to click to more and that’s ok

@lalalalalalalalal Yeah just let the thoughts go and say whatever to the ocd.

@lalalalalalalalal Its super hard for me to imagine from my first person

@lalalalalalalalal But im talking about imagining sex with a man especially because i cant fantasize from my firsr person 💔 im so scared that means im not into them

@lalalalalalalalal No i have insta

@lalalalalalalalal I also before bed i make up romantic and sexual scenarios of a handsome rich man and a beautiful girl , it is like i made up a movie from my own imagination

@lalalalalalalalal Yes me tooo its a movie

@lalalalalalalalal ✔️ done