Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 29w ago

Religious OCD - Evil thoughts

Lately I’ve been having demonic thoughts, possession thoughts and just nasty thoughts about my soul and thoughts about my heart and the devil. Is that normal in OCD? I would never want that or say that! But recently been having false memory OCD and I’m scared what if I’ve said those thoughts out loud!! I’m always trying to say God & Jesus owns my heart & soul but I’m scared what I’ve I accidentally said the enemy instead! These thoughts cause so much discomfort! Please any advice? Does anyone else go through this?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29w ago

I have experienced this. I know this is reassurance but you must know this: God and Jesus know your heart and mind better than you. He knows how much you love him and how much you are for him. And OCD is a liar. And even through your darkest moments God knows your heart and mind and he is with you. You’re not alone. This struggle will pass. 🙏

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 29w ago

@Anonymous Thank you! It makes me feel no so alone to know other’s experience this. It just feels so gross and awful to have evil demon thoughts. Especially the heart ones! They bother me and make me feel awful but I’m trying to remind myself these thoughts are the opposite of me. So I know I’m and to worship God and love them! So obviously my mind is going to throw those opposite thoughts! Also the fear of the thoughts is another reason why them come. They bother me so fricking bad and make me feel like an awful christian or a monster for having these thoughts but I know the more I’m like don’t think this don’t think this it’ll come. I just can’t stand when it feels like I’m thinking them when I don’t want to think these! It’s just so automatic! But thank you so much for responding! It’s just difficult when OCD makes me doubt my love for them and there love for me!

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 29w ago

I can relate to you. I went through a phase for like almost 2 years where I thought I constantly needed more deliverance and more deliverance and I thought I was possessed. I was experiencing POCD and constantly was praying and rebuking the thoughts, but I didn’t know that what I was experiencing was POCD, I thought I was possessed and had demons. God opened my eyes like 2 months ago and showed me that it is POCD and the moment I realized there was a name for it I noticed those thoughts went away and no longer have a hold on me. I still experience religious OCD sometimes and other subtypes but the POCD was the worst for me and the religious ocd with thinking I was possessed! Cuz if you go to talk to a Christian leader or deliverance minister and explain OCD symptoms, there gonna demonize you and it can make the OCD worse. Can I recommend a book for you to read about being a Christian and experiencing OCD?

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 29w ago

@YouarenotyourOCD Yes please! I’d love to know what book!

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 29w ago

@Cammy123 It’s called “The OCD Healing Journey” by a man named Mark DeJesus!! I really recommend this book!!! Check out his YouTube channel as well, named Mark DeJesus !!! He explains how to walk with God when you experience obsessive compulsive struggles/scrupulosity !

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 29w ago

Cammy, I commented on your post last week. These thoughts and ideas do not serve you. You have framed God and Jesus as two very petty characters worried about your every thought. As someone who has gone through this you are only creating suffering for yourself with this. It is up to you to begin to think rationality about it. God does not care about your thoughts no matter how disturbing you may find them. When I was young I would get this thought “I hate God” and I didn’t want to think it and my ocd would spike like crazy. I barely slept for weeks because I wanted to control this and never think such things. The more I tried to not think it the more I couldn’t stop. Do you see now how I can think that thought and even type “I hate God” with no anxiety spike. It has no meaning whatsoever to me. I do not believe it to be my true feelings in any way but even if my mind said maybe you do feel that way, oh oh! No panic I am no more in control of my feelings than I am of my thoughts. And after all this is God punishing me, nope! I’m at peace and my ocd gets better everyday. So I thought these thoughts and wrote these things yet I am blessed daily by God and now can help others. You are addicted to perfection just like I was. God is not asking you to be perfect and just know you are safe.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 29w ago

@Malisimo Thank you. It’s been a rough month tbh. The thoughts just feel like they get worse and worse and just straight up evil and blasphemous. I’m trying to remind myself there’s NOTHING I can do to make Him not love me. I just feel so guilty with these thoughts. I love them and I just don’t want to disappoint them, make them mad or leave me because of these thoughts. Which logically whenever I’m not in “OCD mode” I remind myself He knew everything I would think, say and do and still created me! Because He loves me! It’s just hard whenever I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts. I know God is good and Jesus that He forgives ALL! I feel like I have a distorted view of them whenever I’m in that mode. What has helped you move forward? I know this isn’t a quick fix and it’s going to take time. What has helped you?

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 29w ago

@Cammy123 See you are already able to think very rationally about. It’s funny because it is and isn’t a quick fix at the same time. The moment you really understand like you said God loves you then really it IS over. Do you see me judging your thoughts? Did you judge mine? Are we more forgiving or wiser than God? No, of course not. We know the thoughts are just our silly thoughts and us trying to be perfect. I’ve dealt with this for 30+ years so at this point I don’t care about anything I think, it’s just a thought, I don’t give it meaning. However having said that the addiction to perfectionism is very difficult to overcome and you must work very hard. You only have these thoughts because you want and feel you MUST be perfect for God to love you, well you don’t. Fixing the distorted view of God is a great first step forward. God is love, created everything, knows everything, and does not care about my our thoughts, he knew them before we ever thought them and created us to think them.

Username: SpecklesSpeckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w ago

@Malisimo I don't think God created us to have these thoughts tho. That'll be torture. I think he understands we have an illness. At least I think he would have mercy and I understand that our thoughts aren't who we really are. I guess I'm praying that bc I think I'm completely opposite of my thoughts.

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 29w ago

@Speckles God created you knowing you would have these thoughts, if not then he isn’t omnipotent. He created you to overcome the thoughts. Once you overcome them you will be better than normal. Yes they are pure torture.

Username: SpecklesSpeckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 29w ago

I can relate to what you are saying right now. I feel the same way and don't know how to stop it. It's been really difficult. I pray we can both get some peace soon.

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 29w ago

@Speckles Read mark de Jesus book called the OCD healing journey

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 29w ago

@Speckles https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/is-it-normal-to-be-terrified-of-demons-a-christian-therapists-advice Also read this article it is the article that opened my eyes to how OCD works

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 29w ago

Hey! I’m so sorry you’ve been experiencing this and you’re not alone. OCD is not anyone’s fault. First, I would suggest talking to your therapist about this if you haven’t already bc then you can start the exposure response therapy to fight these thoughts. Once you start that, i hope that the OCD won’t give the devil a foothold in your life (Ephesians 4:27). Second, if you’ve been saved by Jesus once you’re saved you’re always saved so there’s nothing you can say or do that would make you lose your salvation! These are also some bible passages that may help: Psalm 23 & Psalm 91! This is my advice & I hope this helps!

Username: novaceknnovacekn

Date posted: 29w ago

You are not alone. I’ve been dealing with this mixed with harm OCD since I was 14. I’m 33 now and am having a bad flare up. I wish I had advice for you but I just seen this post and wanted to let you know you’re definitely not alone.

Username: Redrose

Date posted: 2y ago

Someone plz talk to me :(

I keep randomly getting scary evil/ demonic images or thoughts in my head. I can’t specifically describe how or what they are but I just feel scared & unsettled I feel like I’m possessed or that a devil is controlling my mind or something! I’m catholic I haven’t really been that religious but I’ve been so scared that I started praying to feel better and I feel like I need to pray to make whatever this is go away. I never believed in possession I’m more of a scientific based person however I’ve reached the point where my beliefs aren’t firm anymore I feel scared I don’t know what to believe it’s like I’m slowly believing my mind is being controlled I’m scared :( is something severely wrong with me? Is possession / devils real? Do I have a severe mental illness am I going crazy / developing psychosis or becoming delusional?? :(

Username: Mr. Motivation

Date posted: 1y ago

OCD thoughts?

Hello! Lately I’m dealing with my brain giving me intrusive scenarios or almost giving me worst case scenarios and my mind instantly believes them! For example: My Brain will give me an intrusive scenarios like “what if god is actually punishing me with these thoughts!” Then my brain gives me negative emotions towards god and being a Christian it’s just heart breaking!

Username: mrselfdestru...

Date posted: 47w ago

schizOCD

Does anybody else’s intrusive thoughts come in the form of “delusional thoughts”? I’ve been in a terrible episode of hypochondria or ocd for the past 6 months where I have FULLY convinced myself I am developing schizophrenia, it started with becoming really easily overstimulated and not being able to concentrate and now it has spiraled out of control to where I am constantly getting intrusive thoughts center around demonic stuff, which i have never ever believed before, I have always been a skeptic. But now i get these thoughts all the time like “what if this song has hidden demonic meanings?” “What if your wife is a demon” “what if nobody is real and your just in hell” “what if this political figure is being controlled by the devil”, the typical kind of delusional thoughts you would expect from a schizophrenic. Keep in mind I am a literal atheist and all about facts, science and evidence, I am a skeptic. Not only does the fact that I’m even having these thoughts in the first place scare the life out of me, but I have to constantly battle with these thoughts in my head if I believe them or not. I feel like I have to constantly hold myself back from fully going off the deep end, I feel like I have to constantly disprove these thoughts and stop myself from believing them, but they feel so real and it’s scaring me so much. One part of me is like “why can’t we just stop worrying about this, this is delusional” and another part of me is like “what if I actually do need to worry about if these things are true or not, they FEEL true” and I’m just like “wtffff I shouldn’t have to worry about if things like this are true at all in the first Place!” I feel like I have fully lost my mind, and in no time I’m going to lose this little bit of insight I have. I hate these thoughts so much, I don’t want to think about them, but now that they are here, I feel like I can’t forget them. My dpdr is already making everything feel so off and weird and unreal and I feel like it’s only giving these thoughts more credibility and realness. I feel like this could also be partly a terrible form of existential ocd that’s being thrown into the mix with all these “what if thoughts”. Ugh I just want to be normal again ): but I don’t even know what normal feels like anymore because I’m constantly on the lookout for symptoms that I can’t even be normal anymore. Btw: yes I am seeing 2 therapists and a psychiatrist and all of them do not believe I am developing schizophrenia.

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