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Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 25w ago

Religious OCD - Evil thoughts

Lately I’ve been having demonic thoughts, possession thoughts and just nasty thoughts about my soul and thoughts about my heart and the devil. Is that normal in OCD? I would never want that or say that! But recently been having false memory OCD and I’m scared what if I’ve said those thoughts out loud!! I’m always trying to say God & Jesus owns my heart & soul but I’m scared what I’ve I accidentally said the enemy instead! These thoughts cause so much discomfort! Please any advice? Does anyone else go through this?

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 25w ago

I have experienced this. I know this is reassurance but you must know this: God and Jesus know your heart and mind better than you. He knows how much you love him and how much you are for him. And OCD is a liar. And even through your darkest moments God knows your heart and mind and he is with you. You’re not alone. This struggle will pass. 🙏

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 25w ago

@Anonymous Thank you! It makes me feel no so alone to know other’s experience this. It just feels so gross and awful to have evil demon thoughts. Especially the heart ones! They bother me and make me feel awful but I’m trying to remind myself these thoughts are the opposite of me. So I know I’m and to worship God and love them! So obviously my mind is going to throw those opposite thoughts! Also the fear of the thoughts is another reason why them come. They bother me so fricking bad and make me feel like an awful christian or a monster for having these thoughts but I know the more I’m like don’t think this don’t think this it’ll come. I just can’t stand when it feels like I’m thinking them when I don’t want to think these! It’s just so automatic! But thank you so much for responding! It’s just difficult when OCD makes me doubt my love for them and there love for me!

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 25w ago

I can relate to you. I went through a phase for like almost 2 years where I thought I constantly needed more deliverance and more deliverance and I thought I was possessed. I was experiencing POCD and constantly was praying and rebuking the thoughts, but I didn’t know that what I was experiencing was POCD, I thought I was possessed and had demons. God opened my eyes like 2 months ago and showed me that it is POCD and the moment I realized there was a name for it I noticed those thoughts went away and no longer have a hold on me. I still experience religious OCD sometimes and other subtypes but the POCD was the worst for me and the religious ocd with thinking I was possessed! Cuz if you go to talk to a Christian leader or deliverance minister and explain OCD symptoms, there gonna demonize you and it can make the OCD worse. Can I recommend a book for you to read about being a Christian and experiencing OCD?

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 25w ago

@YouarenotyourOCD Yes please! I’d love to know what book!

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 25w ago

@Cammy123 It’s called “The OCD Healing Journey” by a man named Mark DeJesus!! I really recommend this book!!! Check out his YouTube channel as well, named Mark DeJesus !!! He explains how to walk with God when you experience obsessive compulsive struggles/scrupulosity !

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 25w ago

Cammy, I commented on your post last week. These thoughts and ideas do not serve you. You have framed God and Jesus as two very petty characters worried about your every thought. As someone who has gone through this you are only creating suffering for yourself with this. It is up to you to begin to think rationality about it. God does not care about your thoughts no matter how disturbing you may find them. When I was young I would get this thought “I hate God” and I didn’t want to think it and my ocd would spike like crazy. I barely slept for weeks because I wanted to control this and never think such things. The more I tried to not think it the more I couldn’t stop. Do you see now how I can think that thought and even type “I hate God” with no anxiety spike. It has no meaning whatsoever to me. I do not believe it to be my true feelings in any way but even if my mind said maybe you do feel that way, oh oh! No panic I am no more in control of my feelings than I am of my thoughts. And after all this is God punishing me, nope! I’m at peace and my ocd gets better everyday. So I thought these thoughts and wrote these things yet I am blessed daily by God and now can help others. You are addicted to perfection just like I was. God is not asking you to be perfect and just know you are safe.

Username: Cammy123Cammy123

Date posted: 25w ago

@Malisimo Thank you. It’s been a rough month tbh. The thoughts just feel like they get worse and worse and just straight up evil and blasphemous. I’m trying to remind myself there’s NOTHING I can do to make Him not love me. I just feel so guilty with these thoughts. I love them and I just don’t want to disappoint them, make them mad or leave me because of these thoughts. Which logically whenever I’m not in “OCD mode” I remind myself He knew everything I would think, say and do and still created me! Because He loves me! It’s just hard whenever I’m constantly bombarded with these thoughts. I know God is good and Jesus that He forgives ALL! I feel like I have a distorted view of them whenever I’m in that mode. What has helped you move forward? I know this isn’t a quick fix and it’s going to take time. What has helped you?

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 25w ago

@Cammy123 See you are already able to think very rationally about. It’s funny because it is and isn’t a quick fix at the same time. The moment you really understand like you said God loves you then really it IS over. Do you see me judging your thoughts? Did you judge mine? Are we more forgiving or wiser than God? No, of course not. We know the thoughts are just our silly thoughts and us trying to be perfect. I’ve dealt with this for 30+ years so at this point I don’t care about anything I think, it’s just a thought, I don’t give it meaning. However having said that the addiction to perfectionism is very difficult to overcome and you must work very hard. You only have these thoughts because you want and feel you MUST be perfect for God to love you, well you don’t. Fixing the distorted view of God is a great first step forward. God is love, created everything, knows everything, and does not care about my our thoughts, he knew them before we ever thought them and created us to think them.

Username: SpecklesSpeckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w ago

@Malisimo I don't think God created us to have these thoughts tho. That'll be torture. I think he understands we have an illness. At least I think he would have mercy and I understand that our thoughts aren't who we really are. I guess I'm praying that bc I think I'm completely opposite of my thoughts.

Username: MalisimoMalisimo

Date posted: 25w ago

@Speckles God created you knowing you would have these thoughts, if not then he isn’t omnipotent. He created you to overcome the thoughts. Once you overcome them you will be better than normal. Yes they are pure torture.

Username: SpecklesSpeckles

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w ago

I can relate to what you are saying right now. I feel the same way and don't know how to stop it. It's been really difficult. I pray we can both get some peace soon.

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 24w ago

@Speckles Read mark de Jesus book called the OCD healing journey

Username: YouarenotyourOCDYouarenotyou...

Date posted: 24w ago

@Speckles https://www.treatmyocd.com/what-is-ocd/common-fears/is-it-normal-to-be-terrified-of-demons-a-christian-therapists-advice Also read this article it is the article that opened my eyes to how OCD works

Username: AnonymousAnonymous

Date posted: 25w ago

Hey! I’m so sorry you’ve been experiencing this and you’re not alone. OCD is not anyone’s fault. First, I would suggest talking to your therapist about this if you haven’t already bc then you can start the exposure response therapy to fight these thoughts. Once you start that, i hope that the OCD won’t give the devil a foothold in your life (Ephesians 4:27). Second, if you’ve been saved by Jesus once you’re saved you’re always saved so there’s nothing you can say or do that would make you lose your salvation! These are also some bible passages that may help: Psalm 23 & Psalm 91! This is my advice & I hope this helps!

Username: novaceknnovacekn

Date posted: 25w ago

You are not alone. I’ve been dealing with this mixed with harm OCD since I was 14. I’m 33 now and am having a bad flare up. I wish I had advice for you but I just seen this post and wanted to let you know you’re definitely not alone.

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 31w ago

Religious OCD & Intrusive Thoughts

So about 2 weeks ago I started having blasphemous intrusive thoughts about God & Jesus! I’ve had them before but they’re hard to brush off because you feel awful and disgusted for even having them. They were “rejecting thoughts” I finally was able to just let them float on by and not pay attention to them. My main theme is doubting God & Jesus but I’ve noticed it’ll switch on me. Sometimes my mind will doubt if it’s OCD! So currently 2 days ago I’ve been getting the blasphemous thoughts again but when I said “I love you Jesus” I heard instead of Jesus it was Satan! I panicked and sometimes when I say I love Jesus and God I hear “I love you S____” it freaks me out!!! I love God & Jesus so much! Those thoughts cause so much anxiety!!! I would never say that thought and I wish it would go away or remove all those thoughts! I Like ughh those awful intrusive thoughts hurts so much! Some times if feels like I think them or say them purposely in my mind! But I try to remind myself I don’t want them! They cause so much anxiety and distress for a reason! It’s just so annoying when it’s constantly changing and throwing other “themes” I try to tell myself this is still in the same category! I had a certain blasphemous thought weeks ago and now it’s a “new” one and I think it’s still a thought it’s just different and maybe that’s how it’s trying to trip me up! But then usually a bunch of them start coming like beating me down! Maybe it’s the themes switching up on me again but ughh it’s really hard! Makes it feel like it’s me but I don’t want these thoughts at all!!! Everytime I say I love Jesus & God those thoughts come and just randomly! I feel like it’s “me” but I’m reminding myself it’s OCD! The more I react the more they come! They make me feel like God is mad at me or He doesn’t love me which I know isn’t true at all! I know He loves me so much!! It’s just so sad that my mind thinks that! Sometimes I feel like He is mad or will leave me but I know that’s not true!! Any advice please 😭

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 31w ago

Religious OCD - Blasphemous Intrusive Thoughts

Hi everyone! My main theme in religious OCD is doubting God & Jesus! It hurts me heart I love them but I’m trying to remember His love and grace! Recently I’ve been having major blasphemous intrusive thoughts! I’ve had them before throughout my OCD journey but this time it’s kinda hard to let go and they’re coming so hard! They scare me! They can be very mean and just disgusting. Cursing, denying and just thoughts I hate! I ask for forgiveness and don’t always “feel” forgiven! I love Jesus & God! These thoughts hurt so much! Sometimes they make me feel like I want them or I’m saying them on purpose! I feel like I subconsciously “check” & ruminating on them. I know this is a normal and common OCD theme but it’s like sometimes I feel like I doubt my OCD! Especially whenever I have blasphemous intrusive thoughts! Like my brain just thinks “nope it’s you not OCD”. Like it doesn’t feel like OCD but Ik OCD can make it feel “very real”. It makes me feel like God is mad at me or upset! Or He doesn’t love me as much or just can’t be “forgiven” which I know is a lie and not true! I love God so much! Ik OCD attacks on hat we love it’s just my mind will doubt I have it! Please any tips to overcome these thoughts! I feel a lot of shame, guilt, fear, anxiety and sadness for having these thoughts! I know people say “they’re just thoughts” and not bad but they feel like that. Any advice?! Has anyone else gone through this?

Username: Cammy123

Date posted: 26w ago

Religious OCD - Evil thoughts

Does anyone else get thoughts that just seem evil? I love God & Jesus so much but recently I’ve been having Satan thoughts, devil thoughts and they bother me! Like selling soul, worshipping the enemy, enemy thoughts, thoughts about your heart and stuff. Literally blasphemous thoughts! It bugs me so much and makes me want to cry. I’ve had some thoughts like these before but recently they have gotten so much worse. Please has anyone gone through this? I pray God & Jesus stay with me!

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