This thing gets weirder and weirder I swear. I literally woke up, right. And my mind immediately went “What if you don’t have OCD? You’d just be really bi” and I went along pretending that I didn’t know about OCD and I was just experiencing denial. Then I scrolled on twitter and went on my friend’s page and then my mind went “why don’t you like her? There’s nothing wrong with her. I thought you were supposed to have a crush on her” Here’s the worst part in this: I’m now convinced that HOCD is a huge lie that I made up and it’s homophobic for me to suffer from this theme of OCD and label my “attractions” to the same sex as “bouts of anxiety.” Therefore, I’m not only a bad person, but a liar.

I’ve been seeing so many of these posts and while I’m not an expert in hocd I thought I’d share something completely personal. I’m a lesbian. It took me awhile to figure it out but I’m married to a woman now and consider myself gay. was there a point in time I may have considered myself bisexual? Sure. Were there moments I may have questioned my sexuality, absolutely. But- I never, never, never obsessed over it. I think naturally humans have the instinct to question things and occasionally doubt, the difference is with OCD, we obsess and constantly doubt and ruminate. That’s the difference I think between someone who is ocd and someone who is not ocd, regardless of the theme. Again to clarify, my ocd theme is NOT revolved around hocd. I actually have illness anxiety disorder. Good luck to you all. I know the ocd struggle seems intolerable at times (regardless of the theme). Just keep pushing.

It’s interesting to hear that from you. Because I’m literally afraid to reveal this to some people in the LGBT community and them either tell me that I’m in denial or shun me for using OCD as a way to erase their identities and experience simply because I don’t want to “accept” myself.

Litteraly same with my tocd. But let me tell u smthg, i'm gay and i don't see at all how having hocd is homophobic. I totally don't understand how lgbt can say things like that. But i feel the same with my tocd so...

Can totally understand. It seems that a lot of lgbt ppl especially on some forums are not really open on this type of ocd.

Yeah and I get where they’re coming from because people who suffer from HOCD are simply “in the closet” or questioning their sexuality without considering the intrusive and obsessive component that comes with it

Yeah because throughout the years even before I was diagnosed, I was pretty confident that I liked men, despite having constant repetitive thoughts about otherwise. I didn’t exactly know what to call it, but I had a hunch that it wouldn’t lead me to discovering that I was possibly gay or bisexual. And I also struggled with other themes in the past too (and now). It wasn’t really obvious that it was linked to OCD until I got to college, when I obsessed over this and another theme.