- Date posted
- 39w ago
Kinda long sorry
I grew up with a very Catholic mom who made me go to Sunday school when I was in elementary school (2nd-7th grade) every Sunday, during that I learned about sins and how having sex before marriage was a sin (for context my parents weren’t married and recently got married last year when I was 16) after learning about these sins I came to the conclusion that I myself was the product of a sin therefore I was a sin and Jesus hated me and I would go to hell which was really scary for someone who was always surrounded with religion as a kid I blamed everything that was wrong with me for being a sin and thought I deserved to feel worthless and sad I hated myself, now I don’t feel this way about religion but I still am very self conscious and have really low self esteem I feel like this was my first experience with that, ever since then I found any way to justify feeling disgusting worthless stupid ugly and every other negative feeling you can have on yourself :/