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- 39w ago
Bummer
I was doing great for 4 days straight then it just hit me…like a giant wave and intrusive thoughts just started bombarding me…now I’m in the back yard in tears & sad…arrrrhhhghg
I was doing great for 4 days straight then it just hit me…like a giant wave and intrusive thoughts just started bombarding me…now I’m in the back yard in tears & sad…arrrrhhhghg
Just had that yesterday I was outside myself crying my eyes out because I just don’t want to feel like that ever again. Don’t stay here too long friend sit with the discomfort and continue living. You’re doing great and in case no one told you today thanks so much for being alive and being awesome. ❤️
@ Skyline 🕊️ Thanks Skyline…that means a lot
@DavidSeeker It’s meant. I know how hard it is. You’re worth it. It’s not fair but it is what it is. ❤️🩹
It sucks when intrusive thoughts creep up on you suddenly! Try running cold water on your head for about 30seconds - 1min or if that’s not for you, a YouTube guided progressive muscle relaxation exercise can help with calming the nervous system. This might help bring you down from feeling highly strung from your thoughts 🙂 It’s important to note that thoughts are just that and they aren’t facts about yourself. They’re ego-dystonic! Hope you start to feel better 🤍
Oof...yeah that's never fun. Whenever I have spirals I try to remind myself to take a step back and just breathe. Hope your day gets better. 🩵
@Thatoneunhingedfae Thanks…I will take some breathes … it helps to know I’m not the only one that has this 😁
I’m having a very bad evening with my intrusive thoughts. I was doing really good dealing with them but tonight one hit me hard. I’ve been having a lot of different intrusive thoughts but I’ll have one occasionally about hurting my mom or my dog who I love and they’re the only family I have in my life. They’re my world. I was helping my mom put away the dishes and I had the big kitchen knife in my hand and my intrusive thought was you could stab your mom. And then my brain said I had a twitch in my hand and that meant I wanted to do it. Let me just say that I wouldn’t hurt a fly. I actually caught a fly in a glass and put it outside instead of killing it this evening before this intrusive thought happened. I’m such a gentle and compassionate and caring person and these thoughts instantly cause me to have a panic attack. And I have no one to talk to them about. I know they’re hard for my mom to hear and I don’t want to be any more of a burden than I already am. I do desperately want to tell her and have her reassure me that I’m not crazy or a psycho. Then my thoughts wander to if your hand did flinch could you be a psychopath. Is hurting someone in you. I know it’s not but I feel like my mind is out to get me and hurt me. I’m working so hard and I thought I was doing so good but I need to know why I have these thoughts. They’re not ok. I need someone to help me make sense of why. I know we aren’t supposed to ruminate but I shouldn’t have thoughts like this about people I love and care about the most in the world.
This might contain triggering content, but I'm also wondering if others have dealt with this similar thought, and if so, how to deal with it? Overall, I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm able to eat again, which I hadn't been able to do because of how much anxiety I'd been experiencing. I'm spending time around loved ones and not just rotting in my room, and I've been able to wake up without immediately being bombarded by intrusive thoughts. When things first got really bad, I'd wake my mom up every night for reassurance, but I haven't done that in a while either. I'm really proud of myself, but there's still this nagging thought in my mind... While looking through others posts on here, hoping to find advice that'd fit my situation, I ended up making things worse. Someone mentioned how they had a fear that they'd purposely search for illegal content (related to POCD). I panicked, and "what ifs" flooded my thoughts. "What if the intrusive thoughts affect who I am as a person, and I do that?" I'm terrified that I'll search for those things, which I know means I wouldn't do it. But then, another person on here said they'd actually looked for those things, and that freaked me out even more. Does that mean it's possible for that to happen to me? I don't want to do that, but I keep having intrusive thoughts surrounding it. I've been doing so well these past few days. I'm just... stuck. I don't know what to do. I've spoken with other people who have the same fears, but how do I manage this? It's not something I've even thought about before seeing those posts. I've been practicing accepting the uncertainty, but I'm really struggling with this one. I hate this. This morning, I woke up, and the intrusive thoughts were back. It's just disheartening.
Does anyone like go through waves. Your mind is super silent maybe a couple of thoughts but you are able to brush it off? But then out of nowhere your mind just starts rushing with every thought? If so, how do you cope with this? It drains me.
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