Is this how other people think too

We all have triggers to our OCD but what mine are like are i just recently got out of my OCD attacks, but recently there’s a story of a girl who recently committed and me being dumb knowing that that stuff triggers me watched all about it. now my thoughts are “what if i do that” “what if im not happy in my life” “what if i want to kill myself” but also “your just like her your depressed and want too” and “your not happy” when in all reality i’ve been so happy with my life and living until i started watching all of those videos. I’ve been panicking all day and have been isolating myself from everything because i feel like everything is a trigger to my thoughts. my thoughts are convincing me that i want to kms and im not happy but in reality i am. i hate ocd so much i hate it. because i know i would never do this thought but its causes so much stress and time of my life i feel that i cant function.

Username: djfloriodjflorio

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 25w ago

You sound exactly like me from 10 years ago. The brain does very funny things when we are scared. If something is scary to us (in this case, the concept of "suicide"), the brain will hyper-focus on that thing. That's why it feels like suicide is coming up all over the place. It's basically like you have a security guard in your head, and he's been instructed to be on the lookout for anything that has to do with suicide. Of course he's going to spot every tiny sign of it. As I mentioned in your other post, my first suggestion is to look into ERP, and to speak to a therapist who practices it if you are able to (the therapists on this site are a good option). The premise of ERP is that the thoughts are NOT the problem. The anxiety we feel is also NOT the problem. The problem is how we react to these thoughts, and the compulsions we do to get rid of them. There are a lot of good YouTube videos about ERP that you can watch for free. Nathan Peterson has a channel called "OCD and Anxiety" with a lot of very helpful tips and info, and he has a video dedicated to this exact theme. I'm also happy to answer any questions you have, as someone who has been through the gauntlet.

Username: Meow 2068Meow 2068

Date posted: 25w ago

Exactly in your situation right now. It’s the first time ever I have this thoughts

Username: horserider4life78252horserider4l...

Date posted: 25w ago

I know how you feel… I have had this anxiety before and it can be absolutely debilitating to be thinking you want to kill yourself. I had multiple panic attacks a day. But that was about 4 months ago and now I can function a bit better. But I just want to promise you that things will get better. Your thoughts aren’t facts. Start praying every time you have a panic attack if you’re Christian. And just remember, everything will be okay. This helped me when I was in a panic attack about killing myself: Can I do something about not killing myself? My response: yeah.. I don’t want to.. Then why worry when I can do something about it? Hope this helps. Wishing you luck ❤️

Username: DehneDehne

Date posted: 25w ago

Oh. My. Gosh. I feel like I could of written this 🥺 this is so validating! I'm so sorry you're going through this. It's literally the most frustrating thing in the world. I KNOW EXACTLY how you feel. You're not alone. And I believe we can get through this! Sending hugs🤍

Username: Zach C

Date posted: 2y ago

Sometimes I feel as if I want to act on these thoughts and I will one day because I won’t be able to handle my thoughts and I’ll go insane and hurt myself. right now I feel a lot of pressure in my head and stress and anxiety along with some depression because I can’t seem to find the fun in things anymore also any type of semi stressful situation I go through on a day to day basis is 10x worse after getting this thought I’ve been dealing with this thought that I might not be able to handle my ocd thoughts and compulsions for years and years to come and one day I’ll snap and the last few days I’ve been feeling so down that I’m scared that I’ll act on them and I’ve had this thought for about two weeks now and before that I use to be fine i don’t know what happened I really just want to go back to how I was feeling two weeks ago I honestly don’t know why I got this thought and why it’s stuck in my head now and I can’t seem to shake it off I feel like walls are just crumbling in on me slowly and I can’t seem to get out of it I just keep wishing I went back to my normal self literally two 2-3 weeks ago I just don’t know what might have happened I know I was dealing with a great amount of stress before I got this thought so maybe it was building up to this one thought that I had two weeks ago. I usually am able to shake some of my ocd thoughts off and disregard them and continue about my day but this one thought got me into a hyperventilating state when I got it two weeks ago and it caused me to panic so much because it was such a bad thought that I can’t get rid of it now i feel as if I’m in a episode and Ill never get out of it and I’ll be stuck like this forever and I can’t feel like this because how should any human feel this type of way forever it’s impossible and then I might snap one day because I can’t take it anymore it just scares me I want to go back to my old self a few weeks ago

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Username: PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

Im scared again

I got triggered again cause randomly i remembered that in the past when ocd got so bad, i started to feel really sad and tired that i have this life, that i cant enjoy it and i got thoughts in my head like i dont want to live like this, then i was like i dont want to die, but idk what to do. Im sure i didnt wanted to die, but now when i hear people talking about dealing with suicidal thoughts, i feel like i can relate cause they tell the same story i had. I got tired and i had thoughts like i dont want to live like this. And i cant see the difference,i dont have this now, im just really sad and triggered about the thing that i might had dealt with suicidal thoughts in a real way, and the more i want to deny it the more shame i feel cause it makes me think that i only avoid it cause of shame but i should accept the fact that i was, which i cant. Also it doesnt help that my therapist said when i eas going to therapy that im not in danger but when life gets hard i want to avoid the pain by dying, and the more i tried to accept this, the more depressed and shame i felt...until i decided i will leave cause it made me feel worse... since then im in war with does she was right? Did i ecperienced suicidal thoughts? Am i just putting this ocd label on it cause it feels better? Im really scared that back in the days i actually experienced real suicidal thoughts, and i cant stop to compare myself to people when i hear its the same pattern i did experienced as people who wanted to end their life...

Username: PRIV8

Date posted: 1y ago

Can ocd do this? Is this part of ocd?

I was watching a video about mental health and self hatred was mentioned and as i was listening it, i started feel anxious and then i was like "i hate myself its so bad" and i started to feel depressed. This happened in the past alot of times and with different topics too, but now i was more aware and i could notice, this isnt true. If i would go to therapy and i would tell that i feel depressed cause i hate myself, we would work on loving myself, but now i was aware that its not that the problem. I felt really sad, cause i believed the thought that i hate myself, when i dont, i just struggle a bit now and i cant feel that big loving feeling towards myself as in normal days, and i interpreted that as i hate myself, so i started feeling sad about it. Is this part of ocd? Alot of times it happened that i had a really strong thought like this, i had like "youre depressed, youre a narcisisst, youre suicidal or i was suicidal in the past" and i believed these thoughts, expecially when the feeling of sadness came with them, it was hard to not believe them.

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