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I was an anthropology and sociology major with a minor in women and gender studies. I got into it because I struggle with cross dressing fantasies and I worried about the same thing. When I look at other cultures and history—I just don’t believe in any sexual orientation. I think there are biological and social determinants. But on an existential level, I think there is more fluidity. Many cultures do not have the concept of sexual identity and they perform acts that Americans might see as hetero or homo or bi. But they have no concept of. Maybe this won’t help you. But I am continuing to learn to cope with my gender insecurity by recognizing that my being—my identity—my essence is not a type or a category. And I suggest to study on history of sexuality and gender. It really helped me.
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im attracted to women
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yeah
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i can't tell if it was just because i didn't know being gay was an option though
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i don't want to be bisexual though. i don't want to date men at all and he idea fills me with depression
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oooh ok
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i'm a lesbian too, and i often struggle with this, but not to the level that i think i have hocd. most of the time, it helps to remember that society is really heteronormative and that it's normal for lesbians to have "crushes" on guys before they really understand their sexuality. i did, too. look inside yourself and ask hard questions about who you're attracted to, your mental illness can lie to you, but your attraction doesn't.
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Yeah, I am similar. It's confusing as a woman who has crushed on guys or even enjoyed sexual experiences. But I fall in love with girls and have met a girl who I absolutely love but keep analysing my feelings for her Vs for guys and it drives me to the point of insanity :'(
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hi i’m a lesbian! and i have known im a lesbian for a really long time and i have a sweet girlfriend of 1 year. it all started when i saw this masc lesbian come out as straight, after that i had my guy friend over and he’s a sweet guy and he was flirting with me (he didn’t know i was gay) im not sure but i panicked and my brain froze and i was like “do i like him”, ever since my brain has been over worked 24/7 for 2 months now and it’s spiralling constantly. im trying to control it but all these thoughts are so disgusting and my brain tries to put him and i in scenarios that make me uncomfortable and i feel panic and i hate it. i have always been comfortable being a lesbian and i still am comfortable as a lesbian, but i dislike these thoughts i have about him and men and i want it to be over. i do not want to experiment with men even tho my brain is telling me i do, i find it disgusting and i dread it, i have a sweet girlfriend and i want to be with her forever, i do not imagine anything with any men and i hate these thoughts. im scared of becoming bisexual/straight one day and i hate hearing sexuality is fluid. its a whole mix of comphet and so-ocd
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i’m scared i’m bi and in denial and trying to convince myself im straight.
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I really need help understanding what I’m going through. For a long time now, I’ve been struggling with thoughts and feelings about women that confuse and scare me. Sometimes I feel this strange emotional or mental ‘pull’ toward certain women — it’s not exactly sexual, and not clearly romantic either, but it feels like something, and it triggers deep anxiety. When I see a beautiful woman or a WLW (woman-loving-woman) couple, I feel something that I can’t explain — sometimes I think it’s just admiration or aesthetic appreciation, but OCD keeps telling me: “You felt something, so you must be gay,” or “You’re hiding something.” I get stuck in endless loops, trying to analyze these moments and label them. Even when I feel physical or emotional reactions, they don’t feel natural or aligned with who I am. They feel like a reaction to the idea of women, not real attraction. I try to be honest with myself — I even told a friend I might be bisexual at some point, just to test if that felt more comfortable. But it didn’t. It made things worse, and I felt like I lost touch with who I am. I don’t want to lie to myself or live in denial, but I’m exhausted. It feels like I’m being mentally forced to feel something that isn’t mine. I’m 14, and I understand that things might still be developing, but I can’t help feeling like I’ve always been drawn to men, and never naturally wanted women that way. Still, I keep doubting everything. Is this real attraction or OCD feeding false feelings and thoughts? Can OCD create emotional or mental sensations that feel like desire? I’m so scared that I’ll lose myself, or find out something I never wanted. I just want peace and to feel like myself again.
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