Iwanttobreakfree🦋
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Tired and confused
It's all so confusing and difficult. I swear I would just want to take some sort of blood test to tell me what the f*ck I am. Lol
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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Fr, if I had a brain scan that can confirm I'm straight, I'd take it, just today I though "Maybe you don't have OCD and this is the real you taking over" I swear I get atracted to every single dude now, can't even watch shirtless dudes without feeling like Im going to get aroused and I'm thinking non stop about kissing a dude, everytime I try to think about any scenario of me in the future I'm suddenly kissing a dude and it seems I don't even had a problem with it, like I actually want to
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
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I'm sorry you're going through that, stay strong❤️ Frankly at this point, I would take it even if it told me I was a lesbian. I know it's not realistic but it would be so much easier to know for sure. Being in a relationship while dealing with this is even harder :') Lately I've been afraid I actually know I'm a lesbian but struggling to accept it and pursuing that road. I really don't know at the moment and it's so annoying and time consuming
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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@g🦋 Yeah I feel like I know too and I just don't accept it, I'm sorry this is disrupting your relationship
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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@g🦋 And to be honest I'm more scared of being bi, not sure why, like if I got a test that said gay, I would just live with that O guess, but for some reason the idea of being into girls, but have whatever feeling is I get for dudes, for the rest of my life, it's just exhausting
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
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@Nicolas:) Maybe it's the idea of uncertainty! I was scared of being bi too. At the moment I'm more scared to be a lesbian, because it would create so much more radical changes in my life
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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@g🦋 Yeah that's true, like at the begging I was also really scares of all the changes in my life, and that's what I fear being gay the most, but now Im scared like, how it would be for me just to be diferent, of what I though I was, of how now I would just watch guy on guys stuff, or just hot guys (I don't think being able to tell they are hot makes me gay) or that I would get those crush I use to have for girls, but for guys now, and like, lately I'm just feeling like whatever I felt for girls before was nice, but whatever I feel for dudes now it's intense, like really intense, like 20 times what I use to feel for women, and it goes all the ways, wether it's a groinal to a sexual though or false atraction like a crush thing
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
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@Nicolas:) ocd can really mess up with our feelings :( hope you'll be able to overcome all this!
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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@g🦋 I hope the same for you, for all of us, but I mean, you are even willing to be a lesbian just to get the doubt over with, that sounds like textbook OCD and base on your other post, it's really clear OCD, I'm sure you and your bf would be happy toguether I wish you the best
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
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@Nicolas:) Thank you so much that's very kind, I'm in a place right now in which it doesn't seem ocd to me at all, but who knows, time will tell us (maybe)🥲
Nicolas:)Nicolas:)
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@g🦋 It never seemed like OCD to me, but funny thing is, now I look back to my early episodes and My brain it's like, yeah that was OCD, but this feelings now this are the real thing
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
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@Nicolas:) yes same!
AaaAnonymousAaaAnonymous
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@g🦋 I feel this girl!
matte5859matte5859
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Even if there was a test you brain would fund away to keep it going like test wrong so on
Iwanttobreakfree🦋Iwanttobreak...
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Yeah that's true... rip :')
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