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- 1y
- Date posted
- 1y
I sooo feel this!! I worry about that with doctors. I go into urgent care/doctors appointments/the ER all presenting “real” symptoms and almost always leave with a diagnosis of anxiety. I’m scared that one day something will be actually wrong and no one will take me seriously. You’re not alone. I also worry that what if I don’t know the difference? Because I truly don’t. I can’t tell if I’m actually unable to breathe or if it’s just another panic attack): but I can assure you, you didn’t ruin your reputation. With time you can repair it! I understand the feelings and am looking for relief with this myself. It is hard, but we gotta keep fighting. That’s our only answer.
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 1y
I think a good majority of OCD people feel this way — I know I do! I’ve said it to my family, my boyfriend and my therapist multiple times. But here’s the thing: if people love you, and I mean truly love you, they’ll be supportive. My family dealt with my obsessions, my ruminations, compulsions for 16 yearssss. I think the most important thing to realize is that frustration doesn’t mean they consider you a burden or similar. Frustration shows up in many shapes and sizes — maybe they’re the most frustrated because they see your distress and can’t help. Point is, you don’t need the reassurance but you do need the support from loved ones. As for the shame and guilt, you should look at ACT workbooks (if you have a therapist, then ask them about it). It helps and I’m in the beginning stages of utilizing that alongside ERP. You got this! Don’t feel shame for your disorder, but feel empowered to try and kick it to the curb.
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- Date posted
- 23w
Never feels like I can fully put my mind to rest. The problem with OCD for me is once I'm over one worry there's another buried deep into my mind that I'm not fully over. The two events I'm not completely over is when I tried to help a 17 year old with POCD when I was 19 and the topics unfortunately were detailed and even then I explained to them I wasn't comfortable with talking to them. I guess I just had a hard time saying no to someone needing help but it eventually made me so uncomfortable that I stopped talking with them altogether at some point. Then the other thing is being so worried that I committed a crime because my elbow touched someone's behind when I didn't want that to happen at all. I didn't want to listen to my OCD by saying move my arm or something horrible is going to happen so I didn't and then something bad actually did happen. I thought it would just be a light touch while zipping a bag up but then it was worse than I ever wanted it to be and it was so awkward and I hated it. I feel like I just won't be able to get back to the way I was before OCD started all of this. Aside from that I've just had extreme health anxiety but am too afraid to reach out to a PCP even though I need to. Something deep down is telling me I should do this but I'm just so anxious and embarrassed about sharing things to them. I can't even enjoy the things I used to do because this is constantly just messing up my life. I'm hoping I get a start of positivity next time I see my therapist. This just sucks. Feels like others around me are doing so much better than I am and I'm just kind of stuck on these same problems and feeling absolute shame and guilt from the past over and over again. I'm just so sick of dealing with this every single day so I just use escape whenever I can. Even that doesn't really work. I just wish I could go back in time.
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- 21w
Please if someone can reply! I really just need someone to talk to. I don’t even know how to control my OCD. It honestly feels like it’s controlling me. Everyday my mind focuses on every bodily sensation I have and it’s like a broken record player, I have horrible health anxiety and my OCD just makes it worst just thinking about it everyday. It feels like everyone who I explain it to looks at me like I’m stupid/crazy. I use to be much more tame with my OCD, I use to eat things without worry, now I can’t even touch things I use to eat without worrying that I’ll get an allergic reaction (despite eating them BEFORE,,,but my mind tells me otherwise) and omg worrying about heart attacks, pulmonary issues..and I couldn’t even enjoy my own child’s birth because my mind was on high alert thinking I would hemorrhage any second or develop pre-E (complications of postpartum) I was miserable for the first couple of months of my baby’s life and I didn’t know what to do. And now, I’m pregnant with my second (4wks) and all the OCD thoughts and anxiety is coming back at me and I have no one to talk to, I feel lonely. And even if I considered taking a pill, I’d worry about being allergic to it and refusing to take it. I ruin everything for everyone. I remember I ate out one night and I started to think “you’re gonna pass out! You’re gonna pass out! (Without ever passing out before) and I had to leave! I feel like I ruin the mood for everyone when I don’t even try to, and I hate it.
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- 19w
Yesterday I had a panic attack from OCD fears. I live alone, so in my panic I called my mum just to get some emotional support. It did not go well. I was asking for reassurnce to much and basically she got annoyed with me and started to chastise me. She said I was being ridiculous and accused me of just making up my symptoms to emotionally manipulate her. She even went as far as threatening to call the police on me to have me sectioned. I feel so humiliated. I know that I can be annoying during my panic attacks, and that my OCD puts a massive toll on my familiy. But I don't want to manipulate people. Now, I feel like an abuser. In these moments, seeing how much my weakness makes my family suffer makes me just want to not be here anymore.
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