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I sooo feel this!! I worry about that with doctors. I go into urgent care/doctors appointments/the ER all presenting “real” symptoms and almost always leave with a diagnosis of anxiety. I’m scared that one day something will be actually wrong and no one will take me seriously. You’re not alone. I also worry that what if I don’t know the difference? Because I truly don’t. I can’t tell if I’m actually unable to breathe or if it’s just another panic attack): but I can assure you, you didn’t ruin your reputation. With time you can repair it! I understand the feelings and am looking for relief with this myself. It is hard, but we gotta keep fighting. That’s our only answer.

I think a good majority of OCD people feel this way — I know I do! I’ve said it to my family, my boyfriend and my therapist multiple times. But here’s the thing: if people love you, and I mean truly love you, they’ll be supportive. My family dealt with my obsessions, my ruminations, compulsions for 16 yearssss. I think the most important thing to realize is that frustration doesn’t mean they consider you a burden or similar. Frustration shows up in many shapes and sizes — maybe they’re the most frustrated because they see your distress and can’t help. Point is, you don’t need the reassurance but you do need the support from loved ones. As for the shame and guilt, you should look at ACT workbooks (if you have a therapist, then ask them about it). It helps and I’m in the beginning stages of utilizing that alongside ERP. You got this! Don’t feel shame for your disorder, but feel empowered to try and kick it to the curb.