- Date posted
- 1y
ocd therapy
Hi everyone, i’m writing this for a bit of advice or guidance as I have worries about my new therapy. So i’ve been put on CBT for my ocd however cbt has never meshed well with me & this therapy is through the NHS. Now my therapist told me that apparently CBT is the best for ocd but through research i’ve done myself most of the time exposure therapy has been proven as the gold standard? I’m really confused… personally I would have liked to receive exposure therapy, but unfortunately it’s not offered on the nhs in my area… The therapist herself I do not feel comfortable with, ocd is a sticky topic as we all know and it’s very difficult to open up about what actually goes on in our head. I feel as if I do not trust her to be able to open up and really get help. I could hear people in the background on the zoom call which spooked me as I don’t want anyone else hearing what I have to say and she wasn’t wearing headphones… She was also not very warm and welcoming, little to no interest and she was yawning and rubbing her face as if she needed to go for a nap… now my mental health is very important to me as i WANT to get better, due to my ocd and other health conditions i am unable to work and ocd has stripped me of who i am, so this therapy is super important to me so i can get back on track with my life. I don’t know whether this is me asking for too much, but in therapy I feel more comfortable if the therapist is friendly and warm, as if i’m having a chat with my friend, someone who i can make jokes to and trust. I did not get that from her, so I don’t know what to do. Next session she wants me to tell her all my obsessions and compulsions currently but i feel i just can’t, i don’t trust her. I want to try but how can i be so open and vulnerable when i can hear chit chat in the background and the therapist looks like she wants a kip? Is it selfish of me to want the therapist to gain my trust? Like work with me and try make me feel comfortable? is that too much? It’s either carry on with this or pay for my own therapy… Any advice or people’s own experiences? :,)