Needing help:/

@Anonymous - Thank you, I’m gonna make sure to really do this.

@JulioKelle Anytime 🙂. I know you can do it. Remember, everything we've learned in our life or anything we've succeeded at was achieved through practice. By practicing long enough, we can make it happen. Every day, take any steps, even small ones, and you will see results.

@Anonymous - This is the motivation I really needed

@JulioKelle Also, reading books helps you change your perspective.

@Anonymous - I’ve been reading mark dejesus’s book

@JulioKelle Everything gonna be okay soon. Wishing you a good recovery.

@Anonymous - Thank you, I needed to hear that. These thoughts now distort my perception of my relationship. It’s really difficult, but thank you.

@JulioKelle You're welcome 🙂. I understand that even though my subtype is different, I know that with practice, there is nothing you can't do. Just have faith in yourself and believe that you can observe your thoughts and that they are powerless. You can take back your life and experience a wonderful relationship with him. Remember, you have to stop overthinking everything OCD says.

@Anonymous - You’re right. It’s just really hard atm. I like to journal a lot, do you think journaling and restructuring (not as a compulsion or to alleviate stress) but just to write down feelings and stuff is a good idea?

@JulioKelle Yes, I think if you write them down, your mind becomes empty. It feels like you threw them out, and you also see that they are meaningless.

@Anonymous - I’ve never thought of it that way. That’s extremely insightful. Thank you for taking the time to write that for me too. This OCD is so debilitating. And you’re right it’s like as if I immerse myself in them:/ and then they become a “reality”

@JulioKelle Anytime 🙂. I know that indeed is debilitating.

@Anonymous - Okay, if things come up, is it okay if I just reply to you? I don’t have this expectation that you have to help me, but if you’re up to it?

@Anonymous - Thank you!

@Anonymous - That’s awesome! Thank you so much. I love reading. I’m in a field training (army stuff) for the next 9 days so I won’t have my phone or kindle, but I’ll have to read these!

@JulioKelle Sounds great.wish you great days ahead

@Anonymous - Thank you!

@Anonymous - Unfortunately I found that out the hard way lol. The type of anxiety feels different, and I think that’s why I’m still holding on:/

@JulioKelle Do you mean not reacting to OCD?

@Anonymous - No, I found out the hard way that drinking affects OCD. Like it’s a different type of anxiety or doubt I’m experiencing and it feels different “or more severe” even though I’ve gone through this a bunch of times.

@JulioKelle I see. I think its effect for most of us with OCD makes it worse and causes too much anxiety. Although I really don't like the hangover after drinking.

@Anonymous - Hi, I’m so glad that you reached out. I’m doing meh. I’ve recently gotten a new thing going

@JulioKelle 🙂that's great to hear. I'm here for you if you need anything.

@Anonymous - Can I just text it out with you in a sec?

@JulioKelle Sure things. When ever you want totally is fine.

@Anonymous - So last week me and my boyfriend were hanging out and playing pong and we got drunk and stuff. Nothing out of control but just feeling whoozy. I purposefully told myself to not be on my phone because I knew my anxiety from OCD would make something up saying I cheated. My OCD was like don’t drink because you’re gonna do X Y Z… and I told myself like you’re gonna act normal because you trust yourself and teaching yourself everything is okay. We end up having so much fun and it was great and I went to bed. I remember telling myself when I wake up, “I feel like I should be worrying if I texted someone inappropriately last night.” And then all went down hill and my imagination went crazy.

@Anonymous - It’s not something I would do, also don’t even know who I would’ve talked to. I didn’t even talk to anyone else. Also, just my brain making a bunch of what ifs. It all makes no sense as to why I should believe I would’ve done such a thing. Also I feel like I would’ve worried about it the night of and things would’ve changed. I wouldn’t have had a good night if I did something wrong.

@Anonymous - I’m not asking for reassurance, but it’s just all is crazy to me

@Anonymous - It’s not even a memory, like I don’t remember doing that yk? It’s just my imagination. Like I know it didn’t happen.

@JulioKelle False memories mostly didn't happen, and individuals think they happened. False memories refer to recollections of events that never actually occurred or are distorted in some way. These memories can feel very real to individuals, leading them to believe that the events happened when, in reality, they did not. Research in psychology has shown that false memories can be created through suggestion, leading questions, and other factors, demonstrating the fallibility of human memory.

@Anonymous - Ahhh ok this makes sense

@Anonymous - I’ve also had occurrences like that before

@JulioKelle Because of alcohol?

@Anonymous - No even without alcohol, I have had false memory OCD several times