quick OCD question

hello friends! i hope everyone is doing well and making progress in their OCD recovery journey. for the last few months, i have found my themes and subtypes switching nearly by the week. yesterday, i had a HUGE trigger that sent me into a spiral. i’m currently in an argument with a friend over a silly mistake i made. we were taking yesterday and i took full accountability (confessing) that i did something i should not have done. after the person shared they still felt uneasy about the situation, i had the thought “what if my friend takes their life because of this? what if they take their life and i’m responsible? what if they take their life because of my mistake?” it’s almost like my brain has told me it’s going to happen or will happen. has anyone experienced this intrusive thought before? i would assume this is a suicide theme or responsibility themed OCD thought. any feedback is much appreciated! thanks everyone!

Northern_Dow...

Date posted: 1y

I've had this exact theme and I still struggle with it today. There's a couple things I will say -- you apologized and did what you can. at that point what happens is out of your hands but you tried to right your wrong and that's what matters most. Secondly, you really just have to sit with the anxiety. Unfortunately there's not much else to do. I know it's really hard. I lose sleep over it sometimes worrying. But whatever happens is out of your control and you have to accept that. In the meantime be kind to yourself. Arguments between friends happen ♡

jacksonvbarnes

Date posted: 1y

@Northern_Downpour thank you so much! this was helpful! it’s just scary worrying that maybe someone’s life is in my hands. it sucks having not talked to them for about three days, too. and then, there is the what if we make up and all is well and then it’s not actually well? so many things.

LowellT

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 1y

I understand how you feel. I don’t know if you’re getting counseling for OCD. I have been with NOCD for over 2 years and it has been a huge help. OCD has one weapon and that is doubt no matter what the “theme” is. The content of OCD is not the main point but doubt is. So all themes can be handled the same way. We have to let the doubt be there and not give into the compulsion to relive the anxiety and get on with our day. I know it’s difficult but as we do that our brain will see those messages are not important and will being to send them less and less. It is important that we show our brain the messages it is sending us is irrelevant. Nathan Peterson has a lot of good information on dealing OCD here is a video I have found helpful https://m.youtube.com/shorts/csQiYZUmXlE You can say “No” to OCD 👍.

cows12465

Date posted: 24w

suic. ocd advice?

so I need to get back into ERP, but it’s so hard to manage these thoughts and learn to deal with them. like I swear my mind has to make everything about it. Like every time I clean my room, my mind’s like yup make sure it’s clean so when your parents find you, or something so stupid like if I get a headache, my mind convinces me that I like the pain and that that’s why I get my thoughts because I actually want to do it. It’s so exhausting. Because I know I would never want to take my life and I treasure my life so why does it do it to me? It’s hard to comprehend the fact of these thoughts too because I don’t know many people with this exact theme. It’s such a scary feeling. And I’m constantly questioning whether I have actual depression or if it’s just my OCD. Yes I have been diagnosed with suicidal OCD, but my mind still tries to convince me otherwise. I just don’t know how to let these just sit and pass without panicking.

cows12465

Date posted: 21w

suic ocd

the thoughts that have been making me super anxious recently is every-time I’m around someone im happy with my mind is like “they will miss you” or “they will wonder why you did it when your always happy” it’s eating me i hate it. i’m tired of this theme, it’s been on and off for three years. but it makes me more anxious now the it does before. please share tips

andrea_sam730

Date posted: 19w

I’m feeling bad now and scared

Hey everyone, I’m going through something that really shook me up and triggered my OCD. Today I was talking to my mom about how people in our family have been talking badly about my cousin, who’s 17 and pregnant. I haven’t told my cousin anything about what they’re saying, because I don’t want to add any stress to her. I’ve honestly tried to protect her from all the drama. But then my mom told me to be careful about what I say to her, because she’s really worried my cousin could have a miscarriage from stress. She said if that happened and I had told my cousin anything, it would be my fault. I think my mom meant it out of concern, like she just wants to protect my cousin—but the way she said it came off as really harsh and it hurt me. Especially because I’ve never said anything to my cousin and I would never want to cause her any stress. Now my OCD is grabbing onto that fear. Even though I haven’t done anything wrong, it’s making me feel like, “What if something happens to the baby and it somehow ends up being your fault?” Logically, I know that doesn’t make sense. But the guilt and anxiety feel so real, and it’s hard to shake.

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