please help :(

I dont have ocd. I really dont. It feels like im actually a lesbian. I dont feel anything for guys. I dont know how to describe my feelings. It feels like i cant escape my body or my mind. I feel stuck. It feels real. It must be real. But i cant imagine that its real. But it feels so real like im actually a lesbian. I dont want to be. Today i had urges to come out. I feel depressed. I dont wanna live. I cant escape. I just have to accept that im a lesbian.

Username: ivrecivrec

Date posted: 17w ago

It sounds like you are not really sure. Especially since you said you really don’t want to be. No one has to act on their feelings. Feelings are not always accurate. Ask anyone with OCD the feelings that come after intrusive thoughts can feel like they mean danger but they are false. What you are experiencing may or may not be OCD. Either way I would just try and let these feelings pass and don’t let them dictate any actions on your part. Maybe a therapist could help you explore what you’re going through. I’m sure you will find your way. God bless

Username: Nicolas:)Nicolas:)

Date posted: 17w ago

What if I also don't want to be, but I'm not feelings distress about the thoughs, but I'm feeling distress about not feeling distress?

Username: Nicolas:)Nicolas:)

Date posted: 17w ago

Last time we spoke you were doing fine and sure you were straigh, also lack of atraction doesn't mean you are gay, you are haven't felt atraction to girls

Username: ninkaninganinkaninga

Date posted: 17w ago

@Nicolas:) That you for this reminder🙏 i dont even know if i ever felt attraction for girls, i mean if i was ATTRACTED. But it makes me feel that i was even though i do not remember and if i was doing fine i would say i never had.

Username: anonysheisanonysheis

Date posted: 17w ago

i feel this exact same way. i woke up one day after having my healthiest relationship and being in a good mental place and my brain was altered. i was panicking bc i was ruminating about the fact i’m a lesbian all of a sudden and it drove my crazy. i was living in my mind. i could barely have conversations with anyone bc my brain wouldn’t switch off. it was the first thing i thought of when i woke up and the last thing i thought before i slept. my attraction to men has completely diminished even after only being attracted to men. i’m now questioning if i ever did to begin with. i’m sure i did but maybe it was all false. i understand how you feel.

Username: Alice1837Alice1837

Date posted: 17w ago

Hey! Not sure if that helps but I'm a lesbian myself and even though I was raised in a rather homophobic environment, realizing I only liked girls was really freeing and it felt sooo right. I wasn't scared of my feelings but rather of how other people around me would react to me. I guess what I'm trying to say is, real attraction is supposed to make you feel safe and good. If it doesn't then do not worry it's not actual attraction 🙂

Username: ninkaninganinkaninga

Date posted: 17w ago

@Alice1837 Yea, thank you for your comment🙂

Username: ninkaninganinkaninga

Date posted: 17w ago

@Alice1837 I mean but im scared because what if there was so many evidence of me being a lesbian😞 anyway….everytime when i feel like i might be into a guy or that i might feel something, like butterflies i always get this thoughts like “You are just pretending, you dont like him, you have just mistaken butterflies with anxiety, you cant like a guy etc.” and for some moment it feels nice but then all these thoughts starts again….

Username: Alice1837Alice1837

Date posted: 17w ago

@ninkaninga To me what makes you feel nice and safe is the real stuff. What doesn't is your OCD playing stupid tricks.

Username: ninkaninganinkaninga

Date posted: 17w ago

@Alice1837 Yea, but even if i feel something nice when i think about a relationship with a guy my ocd tends to twist it and makes me feel awful

Username: Alice1837Alice1837

Date posted: 17w ago

@ninkaninga I understand. I would suggest to try focusing on how you felt at first 😊

Username: marina<3

Date posted: 5y ago

i’m so stuck right now , this does not feel like ocd. my thoughts keep telling me “just come out and be like all those other people”. i hate these thoughts and everything feels so real. i feel like i’m just questioning my sexuality and i don’t want to. this does not feel like ocd it feel so so real. ugh i’m so confused and scared

Username: Idk

Date posted: 5y ago

I seriously have never thought about girls until now. It just never crossed my mind. I never liked or had feelings for a girl. And now that I’m constantly questioning everything and picturing everything. It just feels like I like it. It scares me, would I be happy with a girl ?? I don’t want to be with a girl but I feels like I do want this. It’s so confusing. I can’t tell whether this is actually ocd or I’m genuinely attracted to the same sex. I hate this so much !!! It’s like I just completely lost myself and questioned it so much I’ve just become lesbian but some things just don’t make sense. Why would I catch feelings for other boys? Never girls. I don’t know anymore. I’m happy with my boyfriend. Without these thoughts I’d be so good and so much more happy. Now I just don’t fucking know and this hurts so damn bad that I can’t just rest not one day. This is so damn stressful and hurtful to question your identity every single day. Sometimes I seriously just feel like I’m lesbian but I can’t seem to settle on that because I just can’t be. I want to just die. I hate what my mind is doing to me. I hate I have to go through these thoughts alone. I hate everything. I just want to crawl in a hole and never see anyone. I just want to hug my boyfriend and have my thoughts erased. I’ve thought too much and too deep I can’t stop. I’m crying from sadness because I don’t know what’s real anymore and I never in a million years thought this is something I’d have to deal with.

Sexual Orientation OCD

Username: Clementine

Date posted: 3y ago

Please someone help me. I feel like I’m in denial. I feel like I don’t have ocd. It’s too real. The intrusive thoughts aren’t as frequent, I don’t have anxiety or do compulsions. I’m not even against the thoughts anymore. I can’t explain how real it feels. It can’t be ocd and the thing is I just don’t want to like girls. That’s it. I just don’t want to. But that sounds like I’m resisting my sexuality and it feels like this too. I’m sorry to everyone on this app but I don’t think I’m like u anymore. If things like internalised homophobia and comphet didn’t exist then I’d know I was straight but they do so now I think I’m just that. I don’t want to marry a girl or have sex with one or anything. I want to be straight and just fucking live my life. I’ve never had a boyfriend and I haven’t had a crush on a boy for years even though my ‘ocd’ started in the summer. I’ve had loads of male celebrity crushes that I’ve felt like I’ve loved and I don’t understand how those could’ve been fake but they must have been. Compulsions don’t comfort me I just watch tv to distract myself and that’s it. I can’t do this shit anymore. I don’t want to like girls but I have to be either bi or lesbian. Please I just want to be straight I don’t get it.

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