Speckles
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- 1y
Insane
Does anyone feel like they might actually be crazy? I feel OCD has made me go insane. It's scary....
NicaNica
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- 1y
Being normal is vastly overrated. Though if you were crazy, you wouldn’t be ruminating over if you were or not. I’ve seen actual “crazy” (not the medical or psychological term used anymore, by the way) and no one on this app is legitimately crazy.
SpecklesSpeckles
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Thanks for your reply. I feel like it's really made me almost insane tho, if they use that term anymore. It's making me question everything.
NicaNica
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- 1y
@Speckles Sounds more like paranoia and giving into compulsions. But you can overcome it! Are you seeing your therapist again? I suggest you go back in for check ups.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Nica Yes...I just saw her yesterday and she is trying to get me outside care to treat me. She thinks I need more specialized care. I don't think she knows what to do with me at this point. I'm so afraid I'm going to end up in an institution again.
NicaNica
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@Speckles Sometimes you need to find someone in-person to do certain treatment but there’s nothing wrong with that. You probably need more personal interaction that’s not technology-involved.
Wolfram Wolfram
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@Speckles Get whatever help is available. I've felt insane recently too. I'm doing wellness retreats and everything I can get my hands on. It takes strength to admit you're vulnerable and need help. Stay strong. We are here for you as you have been for us
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Nica I think you are right. Unfortunately, I can't seem to find anyone in my state that covers my insurance. I was willing to go b to this holistic ttpe place, but they closed down the branch in my state, so insurance won't cover it.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Wolfram Thanks... I'm going to try another place and maybe they can help. I think my therapist is not sure how to treat me
NicaNica
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- 1y
@Speckles Switch therapists. You can absolutely do that—you are paying them and NOCD for a service.
Wolfram Wolfram
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@Speckles Do they specialise in ocd?
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Nica Maybe I should tell them I need a new therapist?? I like her, but it seems like she is trying to get me outside help. I just feel that it should be coming from NOCD, but she thinks I have PTSD and wants that treated first. It's all so confusing. Not sure how to go about this
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Wolfram Yeah, it's thru NOCD here. I don't know what to think now. If they can't help then.... I feel hopeless
Wolfram Wolfram
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@Speckles Sometimes therapists hit a mental block themselves and have to talk to supervisors to go over what's best. Other times there may be comorbid issues that they don't know how to deal with and is intertwined with your ocd. That's what I have. It's difficult but I believe it's doable
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Wolfram Yeah, I think she feels I have other issues besides the OCD... so maybe she wants that treated. I'm a big mess!!
NicaNica
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@Speckles If you do have PTSD, then yes, she’s right that that needs to be treated first or else you are just going g to traumatize yourself over and over with ERP. Look into “trauma therapist (where you live)” into Google that also takes your insurance. That is honestly your next step.
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Nica Thanks... I'll see what I can find.
Wolfram Wolfram
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@Speckles Join the club. I'm screwed up too 😂 we can get better!
SpecklesSpeckles
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@Wolfram Ha! Keeping my fingers 🤞
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