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Ocd is an 'ego-dystonic' disorder. It attacks what values you hold deeply and uses it against you. You can know logically you're being 'crazy' or that you disagree for a fact with the intrusive thought, but arguing with it will just make it more difficult. Try radical acceptance of yourself, no matter who or what you are. If that's too difficult, start smaller by telling yourself 'I'm having an intrusive thought. Maybe its real, maybe not, ill figure it out LATER' and keep telling yourself that until you believe it 💗 you've got this, we can all recover!

https://youtu.be/fPtjx2ysxa8?si=y_T6ZJM1dhjTsfRr first watch this. ITs 25 tips and tricks for OCD. second. OCD attaches to things that are important to you, to things that will demand your attention. the way you stop arguing is to come up with an RPM ( response prevention mantra) a "gear shift" that you say to yourself when you start to argue or analyze or question. mine is " I don't care about that right now, its not important, what else should I be doing right now" and it helps to remind me that " nope, this is OCD, not going to engage in that" now this doesnt mean the thoughts will just STOP, they will linger and OCD will try to get you to pay attention. As you said, every answer you gave it,, it had another alternative, so you just stop giving it answers. Let it ask, let it nag, let it lie. you just LET IT be and live your life, and by repeating this over and over, it WILL lose power. dont test it. testing is checking and checking is a compulsion. its like waking up a baby you just worked so hard to put to sleep, dont do it. EVERYTHING you are describeing is OCD to a T. you are not going crazy you are just struggeling and giving it too much attention. starve it, it will lose power.