Freaking out…

+18 TRIGGER WARNING I’ve been rethinking things from the past and one of those things was a conversation I had with someone on the chatting app yik yak about six months ago. On there, I joined the smut community and started posting stuff on there (story excerpts, writing questions, etc.) and someone dmed me about one of my posts. They asked if we could role-play a situation about a husband and wife. It got pretty graphic, too. We moved off the app and started texting but my anxiety got the better of me and I looked up their number and found their social media. It confirmed the school that they told me they went to, their major, work experience, and even their name. According to their social media, they’re 23 (22 during the time of our conversation) and I’m pretty sure it’s the same guy. Still, I DONT KNOW for certain and I’m scared that I was interacting with someone underaged the entire time. I’ve been going back through screenshots to try to decipher what I can find but it still hangs over my head. (Edit: I did ask for their age when we were texting and I remember that they told me they were 22. But I can’t find any of those texts and I’m scared that my mind is just filling in the blanks. I have had their number blocked and deleted from my phone since March of this year.)

Username: GivenupGivenup

Date posted: 16w ago

Im pretty sure that if they listed themselves as 23 on social media, then thats the age they actually are. Especially if it corroborates his claims of being 22 at the time of your ERP. Im suffering so much too... your not alone...

Username: ocdnoononiocdnoononi

Date posted: 15w ago

Honestly if he’s got it listed as 23 and his friends and family follow that social media it’s probably true. This is the same theme I’ve been going through too- I used to engage in a few nsfw chats and for the most part I knew for sure they were adults but I still have lingering worries that I might not have… it’s a frustrating feeling that can lead to actually one of the most intense panic attacks I have ever had. More people need to talk about this- we honestly need more people to understand. More support. I hope that you feel better in knowing you aren’t alone.

Username: myocdstory

Date posted: 4y ago

"am I disgusting?" (24,f) OK, what I'm about to tell you might be a false memory because I don't remember much details on this and ofc I'm assuming the worse. Over a year ago (prior to april 2019), I used to have both sexual and Romantic fantasies with made up people. Unfortunately, I was already over 20 (21-22) and remember a fantasy about me being 16-17 again (basically still in HS) in a all-boys team of baseball. Why? I love baseball and such thing is not available in my country. 2. I love hanging with guys... They are so sweet to me and I usually get along with them. I'm gay... Ish. And I remember also putting another girl on the team, I think... But I don't remember what "story" I gave her and what age, nor her face, nor personality!! I can't be certain but I feel like I created aome romantic attraction between us and I'm not sure.. Today, I feel super anxious about it... Like "what if she was too young?" or "what if I put us dating?" I truly don't remember. I'm not even sure she existed. I have the slight memory she appeared in that fantasy a couple of times but I can't recall anything at all. I know this is silly but oh boy... I feel awful...

Username: Bright garfi...

Date posted: 3y ago

POCD,+18 please, need of help I keep thinking abt when I was like 17 I used to go on amino to roleplay ships I like,and I'm freaked out now over it because even though I never did sexual rp before I still did rp that was in a romantic setting and I'm worried if anyone I ever roleplayed with was massively younger than me and I just didn't care or didn't put in effort to notice. I have a memory of doing a short roleplay with someone and feeling uncomfortable about it and i don't know if it was because I just felt shy or they were young and I was uncomfortable but doing it anyways. A long while back I went to the amino again and checked all my followers and tried to find who I roleplayed with going off of what I remembered their pfp being and the one I thought seemed most similiar was someone who was 20 and all the rest didn't list their age but im worried what if they unfollowed me and did say their age. It all makes me freaked out because there was this thing where a 20 something dude said it was OK he roleplayed nsfw w minors because he didn't want to seem rude by saying no when they suggested it and I don't want to be as bad as that guy is and i never did anything sexual but I'm still scared it's just as bad if it's roleplaying a romantic relationship and I had that memory of feeling uncomfortable but not wanting to seem rude by not interacting. I dont know if it's a false memory or not and idk if it is. I just know when I was spiraling and checking all my social media I deleted a chat w a ship rp w/o checking and I've been freaked since.

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Username: Dothewalkofl...

Date posted: 3y ago

i’m going to have a panic attack (i beg that u read) i became very close with this guy i met on omeagle a he definitely told me he was 17 and i told him i was 15 (which i am) and forward a few months he is the guy i go to for mental health support because he has been through the same. and i told him about my first bf when i got him. but then this guy started to get a bit too interested and he asked for nudes. i said no. but then considered what if my bf wants them ?? i want to know that he would like what he saw. so i asked him ( the omeagle guy ) if he would tell me honestly if my bf would like it. it wasn’t a nude it was litterally a bikini top. that’s all. and i’m not gifted so nothing was showing. he told me my bf would love it etc etc. and i was happy. but the omeagle guy got more interested and because i felt like i liked it i kept using it as proof that i’m not gay. and me thinking he was 17 i kind of let it happen as banter while continuously reminding him that we are just friends and i have a bf and he said yes he understands. today he told me he’s 18. making him an adult and me a minor. and he’s telling me i told him i’m 16 when i’ve had 15 in my bio for ages and i told him i’m 15. i’m scared i’m going to be arrested or that he still has that pic of me but he’s screen recorded his camera roll to make me feel assured that he doesn’t have it. i’m reallly panicking what do i do

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