marcygirl23
- Date posted
- 51w
Help
How can I tell the difference between suicidal ocd and suicidal thoughts?
AaaAnonymousAaaAnonymous
- Date posted
- 51w
I have a theme of scared of depression, scared I will get it or already have it. I know it’s not 100% the same but it’s similar so here if u need it talk
marlayna44marlayna44
- Date posted
- 50w
@Anonymous Yes I do this !
marcygirl23marcygirl23
- Date posted
- 50w
@Anonymous This is bad for me today
AaaAnonymousAaaAnonymous
- Date posted
- 47w
@marlayna44 You worry about this too? Having / getting depression?
AaaAnonymousAaaAnonymous
- Date posted
- 47w
@camkkkkkk You worry about this too? Having / getting depression?
Cgc7342Cgc7342
- Date posted
- 47w
@Anonymous Yes!!!!! A LOT! A constant fear all the time!
Anais VAnais V
- Date posted
- 50w
I know I’m not suicidal because when I think about if I’m suicidal I freak out and cry and wanna wrap myself up in a ball. I also link to fear of becoming depressed, so when I overthink being depressed the suicidal ocd attaches and it goes down from there. Do you constantly have thoughts about not wanting to live anymore? Up first, I thought I was having real idealizations, but then I realized that the word suicide in general scared me. I am still stuck in a what if cycle, like what if I don’t love myself and want to end my life. But a good point was brought up to me the other day. She said most people don’t just become suicidal. It happens over time and is usually the only thing someone thinks about. I also learned that suicidal ocd can sound like “I will” statements. Idk if any of that helped.
Cgc7342Cgc7342
- Date posted
- 48w
@Anais V This is exactly how I feel. It haunts me 24/7 and it bothers me so much. It’s been 2 years ugh.
Who_knows?Who_knows?
- Date posted
- 48w
@Anais V With ocd and this subtype just like any other though , it could be the only thing that some one thinks about as well . It’s an obsession . I have suicidal ocd and feels like I obsess over it all day everyday ! But I don’t want to die (even though my brain is telling me otherwise ) and I also don’t think people that actually want to obsess over it like we do
Anais VAnais V
- Date posted
- 48w
@Walters15! Yeah it’s terrifying because I’m like well wait what if I do wanna hurt my self. Or what if I don’t really wanna be here. I think I also have existential ocd as well which makes it scarier when I get the suicidal ocd obsession.
Who_knows?Who_knows?
- Date posted
- 48w
@Anais V Yeah I’m sure that’s tough !! I’m sorry !! Praying for healing ❤️🩹
Cgc7342Cgc7342
- Date posted
- 48w
@Anais V Yes this is EXACTLY how I feel too. I have existential ocd as well , constant intrusive thoughts of death, but meanwhile I’m horrified of it but then it causes this constant loop of suicidal thoughts and it scares me because what if is this what I really want?
Anais VAnais V
- Date posted
- 48w
@Cgc7342 Right! Exactly!! It’s so up and down. And the thoughts are terrifying and make you question yourself which is even worse.
Phillycoins2 Phillycoins2
- Date posted
- 41w
Yes
marlayna44marlayna44
- Date posted
- 51w
For me I’m afraid to kill myself or die but I obsessed over what if I did if my OCD told me too.
imsonocd imsonocd
- Date posted
- 41w
This is exactly how I’m feeling with both suicidal and existential ocd and it makes me question and doubt if I wanna die all the time and it actually makes me feel depressed which ocd then attacks and tries to tell me bc I feel this way or because ocd is making me feel this way, I’ll want to die or nothing matters. It literally makes me cry so much because I love my life so much. It’s sucks so bad. If anyone has any erp tips, please 🫶 also you are not alone 🫶
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- Date posted
- 25w
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- Date posted
- 24w
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tayloraniston
- Date posted
- 14w
Suicidal ocd
I’m not suicidal by any means, I had a thought one time when I was going through some stuff and ever since then I wake up every morning and think about it all day I have thoughts like “did I mean that?” “Did I want that?” “Am I gonna think this all day” “would I really do that” and literally it’s to the point it’s driving me nutssss please tell me I’m not alone and please tell me how you got through this, I started antidepressants about 6 days ago it’s called Effexor for the mean time I need some advice
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