TRIGGER WARNING My friend basically said to me that someone who’s drunk could easily do something out of character and harm someone else?! That majorly triggered me as my ocd false memory involves me being drunk, so now I feel like it’s really possible. I’m not an angry drunk by any means but still. Ugh why do people have to say things to me. I feel so ashamed for getting drunk.
I get the feeling people will have differing opinions on this. Your friend probably meant unintentionally could harm someone else, not like molest them or stab them or something. I really struggle with this theme too and did a lot of compulsions around whether or not drunk people could act out of character. The truth is we will never know. I get what you mean about being ashamed of getting drunk. I should have never gone back to drinking. It makes it harder to remember. I pray that God gives you and me signs that what our OCD is telling us never happened and we can move forward. 🙏
@Anonymous Thank you, I think she did mean that but my ocd will always just take it the wrong way. I’m so sorry you’re also suffering with this terrible theme , I really feel for you as I can relate I know how hard it is. Thank you!!
Anything can be a trigger. When i was in the death grip of OCD, I swear every other thing my husband said was a trigger. You just have to remember you have OCD and where that anxiety and fear come from is not real but from false alarms and to not allow yourself to go down that rabbit hole. The problem is not what people say, the triggers are not the problem, your reaction to them is. That is where you need to work on it.
I’m freaking out. I have relationship ocd and for the most part felt like I was doing better but yesterday was my 21st birthday party and I was already scared of drinking cause I felt like I was going to do or say something bad while being drunk. I went kind of hard on the drinking yesterday and ended up blacking out. When I woke up my boyfriend told me what happened and he told me that I called my best friends boyfriend, my boyfriend and that absolutely triggered me. I tried to go around it and he’s like “no you said he was your boyfriend” but he told me he didn’t take it too personal. But now I’m having a mental breakdown cause why the hell would I even say that. So many questions are going through my head and I just want to cry my eyes out.
Does anyone ever see very triggering stories on the news of something terrible and somehow your mind tricks you into thinking that you are also capable of those acts? I know I would NEVER but somehow my mind groups me into that category and it’s so scary and triggering. I wish I could just let these thoughts pass by but it’s almost like I’m constantly trying to prove that I’m a bad person. I’m sad and tired of this 😭
I often want to be able to drink alcohol like a normal 21 year old with friends, but then I notice I question if I handled my intrusive thoughts normally while under the influence. I then convince myself that the alcohol made me less aware and more likely to engage with the thought. Even though I think I’m fighting against the thought even more than if i was sober. It’s annoying because I want to be able to relax when buzzed but when the ocd thoughts start, then it’s harder to ignore them than when sober. I wish I could just trust in myself and know that even if i am tipsy, that i am stronger than intrusive thoughts and can handle them as I usually do.
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