- Date posted
- 46w
this post triggered my existential ocd
these thoughts are some that i obsess with and i'm trying so hard to overcome this current fixation on those thoughts but when i see videos like this appear on my feed, it makes my existential and magical thinking ocd really hurt. because like, it makes me think this is a sign and that something is wrong. i feel guilty for obsessing over these thoughts because i know i will rightfully regret these thoughts but i don't wanna think about eventually regretting it because that means thinking of the future and i fear the future. and fear time passing fast. i don't want the next 30-40 years to go by like the blink of an eye to to zoom by. i want it to be slow and i don't even wanna think about it. but it's so hard. my mind always thinks. i feel guilty when i don't think about the thoughts because it makes me think i don't care but i feel guilty when i think of the thoughts because they consume me until mg head feels fogged up and irritated. sometimes until it feels like a rubber band is going around my brain/mind itself. ugh