- Username
- KelSul73
- Date posted
- 18w ago
Religious OCD
Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?
- Username
- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 18w ago
Have felt this so much in the past!!!
- Username
- KelSul73KelSul73
- Date posted
- 18w ago
I’m glad I’m not the only one!
- Username
- SpecklesSpeckles
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 18w ago
I have this too 😔
- Username
- KelSul73KelSul73
- Date posted
- 18w ago
@Speckles I just have such a hard time because the more I ruminate about what’s real I find myself further from what I believe the truth is - if that makes sense?
- Username
- SpecklesSpeckles
- User type
- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 18w ago
@KelSul73 I think I understand what you mean. I just feel like a horrible person bc of my thoughts and that I offended God.
- Username
- KelSul73KelSul73
- Date posted
- 18w ago
I totally get that- and not to invalidate your experience AT ALL- but please understand that SO many Christians with ocd have felt the EXACT SAME WAY! Including me! I know that makes me feel less alienated! I also remind myself of how many different perspectives there are in following God and what it seems that you’re feeling/thinking is more rules based religion type of Christianity- where as, after what I’ve been through with ocd, I want to pursue the emphasis of God in His Grace. I want to pursue the God I know that loves me as I am, exactly as I am- He knows every single thing about you and knows what your heart needs to heal
- Username
- KelSul73KelSul73
- Date posted
- 18w ago
Meanwhile, even with all of that- God is still pursuing YOU! He loves you THAT much- I need to re-parent myself in Christianity as well where I need to remind myself that my parents did the best with what they had at the time. I want to sit in with the most important things God tells us- not to make sure we follow these rules perfectly, but to know that Jesus lived a perfect life as the ultimate example because His Father knew we couldn’t. I also know that we after many biblical scholars have studied the Bible in various ways, a lot of people think that ocd (without this name at the time obviously) was very prevalent in many people in the Bible! This has a been a great suffering for CENTURIES and know that Jesus loved those people perfectly too
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- Anonymous
- Date posted
- 23w ago
Someone help please
I just started high school and my OCD is horrible. It was bad the couple weeks leading up to it but now it’s even worse. All of the stress triggered my pure OCD and now my brain is believing that I am evil. And now whenever I try to pray I feel I can’t. Then when I try to use ERP, it just feels like I am going against God by saying maybe I’ll letting evil in.
- Username
- joyouscreature
- Date posted
- 22w ago
Is it even OCD anymore?
I started seeing every little thing as a sin. Or at least things that will bring bad karma. Everything, even little things like listening to music or enjoying a meal. In my eyes, everything everyone is doing is mostly sins and it terrifies me to death. It scares me to the point of paralysis and I can’t even do anything anymore because everything is a sin in my eyes. I’ll definitely spiral if I think about it more, but if I don’t, I feel like I’m lying to myself. I don’t even have confidence that this is OCD anymore. What if I’m right (I’m not necessarily wrong according to my religious doctrines, not that I’m a 100% sure) and nothings going to help me, not even therapy? And if most things humans do are sins anyway, what’s the point of anything? (See how it starts relating to an existential crisis) I’m terrified that no one’s gonna be able to help me anymore. I feel like I’m at wits ends. I don’t practice Christianity btw. Any insights or even “me too”s would help.
- Username
- KelSul73
- Date posted
- 18w ago
Spiritual warfare or OCD?
Hey guys- I don’t know if any of you with religion/spirituality ocd struggle with the “unacceptable thoughts” about like evil and stuff but I’m struggling.. it feels like I believe that I want the evil stuff because I had demon-like voices in my head as ahead where I went to talk to God when I was experiencing great distress and then these evil thoughts came in and I let them in and like “ok-ed” evil stuff. Especially because I felt so forced into my faith journey as a kid so it’s like that “feeling rejected -> rebellion thing) but I also know that but I also have such fond memories of feeling so close to God to leaning on Him for so many things. It’s so hard because 90% of my memories as a kid, I struggled with severe ocd and no one knew what it was or how debilitating it could be I’m trying the ERP with these thoughts but😭 have any of you gone through the same things? It’s so strong In my mind because I know there’s actual spiritual warfare so I feel like - pray for me guys
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