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- KelSul73
- Date posted
- 4w ago
Religious OCD
Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?
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- AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 4w ago
Have felt this so much in the past!!!
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- KelSul73KelSul73
- Date posted
- 4w ago
I’m glad I’m not the only one!
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- SpecklesSpeckles
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- OCD Conqueror
- Date posted
- 4w ago
I have this too 😔
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- KelSul73KelSul73
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- 4w ago
@Speckles I just have such a hard time because the more I ruminate about what’s real I find myself further from what I believe the truth is - if that makes sense?
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- SpecklesSpeckles
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- OCD Conqueror
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- 4w ago
@KelSul73 I think I understand what you mean. I just feel like a horrible person bc of my thoughts and that I offended God.
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- KelSul73KelSul73
- Date posted
- 4w ago
I totally get that- and not to invalidate your experience AT ALL- but please understand that SO many Christians with ocd have felt the EXACT SAME WAY! Including me! I know that makes me feel less alienated! I also remind myself of how many different perspectives there are in following God and what it seems that you’re feeling/thinking is more rules based religion type of Christianity- where as, after what I’ve been through with ocd, I want to pursue the emphasis of God in His Grace. I want to pursue the God I know that loves me as I am, exactly as I am- He knows every single thing about you and knows what your heart needs to heal
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- KelSul73KelSul73
- Date posted
- 4w ago
Meanwhile, even with all of that- God is still pursuing YOU! He loves you THAT much- I need to re-parent myself in Christianity as well where I need to remind myself that my parents did the best with what they had at the time. I want to sit in with the most important things God tells us- not to make sure we follow these rules perfectly, but to know that Jesus lived a perfect life as the ultimate example because His Father knew we couldn’t. I also know that we after many biblical scholars have studied the Bible in various ways, a lot of people think that ocd (without this name at the time obviously) was very prevalent in many people in the Bible! This has a been a great suffering for CENTURIES and know that Jesus loved those people perfectly too
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- Jolee0524
- Date posted
- 32w ago
Religious OCD
Hey guys so I’m new to this. I struggle really bad with religious ocd on top of other themes of ocd i have. But the religious ocd and POCD I have are definitely the hardest two. Today was so hard for me because I was freaking out all day about the eclipse and if it was the end of the world. I grew of in a very strict church and being gay was not acceptable so now I feel I’m morally wrong and unlovable in a sense. I don’t really know how to explain it. Wether it was from my youth pastor outing me on stage in front of all of my friends and hundreds of students, to them praying over me for years on end, before I finally left the church. Yet I still question if my salvation is safe or not. I question if God loves me etc. it gets so bad that I’m convinced everything I do is because I’m possessed by a demon. And I’ll start to vomit. Literally vomit. It sounds wild I know. Wether it’s music my ocd deems demonic or movies or spiritual things such as tarot cards that I enjoy. But my mind will convince me if I use them I will go to hell because that’s what I was taught for so long. I just wish I could get better but I don’t know how and I’m so hopeless.
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- firefly512
- Date posted
- 20w ago
Anyone else have a general feeling of dread?
Sometimes I'll have the general feeling Something Bad is going to happen. Is this common with OCD?
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- jellyfish305
- Date posted
- 18w ago
Religious OCD (?)
PLEASE READ. Ok so I’ve had these intrusive thoughts for a while and essentially at their core they’re about worshipping the devil. I’ve always been scared of doing a prayer to the devil (specifically out loud). Recently for ERP practice my therapist has had me say the word “devil.” We’ve also watched videos about people who have made deals with the devil and videos talking about the devil himself. These are really triggering for me but I understand they’re meant to be as ERP. However, this stuff has really amped up my doubts and I’m not even really sure how to explain them. Basically I’m doubting if I even believe in what I’ve considered my core beliefs, and whether or not I would want to worship the devil. Moreover the fear of saying a bad prayer aloud has spiked especially because I’ve already said the word “devil” aloud. Then I tell myself that if I do it as a form of ERP it would be fine, but then i wonder if my doing it would actually be as ERP or because I actually want to, which stresses me out more about doing the prayer. I haven’t actually done it aloud but I’m scared of doing so.
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