Hey I feel like I just have this evil like whirring feeling of anxiety and like “something bad is gonna happen” and feeling you’re going to do things against God or like you already have I guess?
Have felt this so much in the past!!!
I’m glad I’m not the only one!
I have this too 😔
@Speckles I just have such a hard time because the more I ruminate about what’s real I find myself further from what I believe the truth is - if that makes sense?
@KelSul73 I think I understand what you mean. I just feel like a horrible person bc of my thoughts and that I offended God.
I totally get that- and not to invalidate your experience AT ALL- but please understand that SO many Christians with ocd have felt the EXACT SAME WAY! Including me! I know that makes me feel less alienated! I also remind myself of how many different perspectives there are in following God and what it seems that you’re feeling/thinking is more rules based religion type of Christianity- where as, after what I’ve been through with ocd, I want to pursue the emphasis of God in His Grace. I want to pursue the God I know that loves me as I am, exactly as I am- He knows every single thing about you and knows what your heart needs to heal
Meanwhile, even with all of that- God is still pursuing YOU! He loves you THAT much- I need to re-parent myself in Christianity as well where I need to remind myself that my parents did the best with what they had at the time. I want to sit in with the most important things God tells us- not to make sure we follow these rules perfectly, but to know that Jesus lived a perfect life as the ultimate example because His Father knew we couldn’t. I also know that we after many biblical scholars have studied the Bible in various ways, a lot of people think that ocd (without this name at the time obviously) was very prevalent in many people in the Bible! This has a been a great suffering for CENTURIES and know that Jesus loved those people perfectly too
im Catholic and ever since starting highschool and started being scared of what people are thinking. I’m scared that I’m evil and that I praise evil because my ocd is a fear of talking to it so my compulsion is to focuse on talking to something or someone else. But, I keep imagining evil like under the ground and now it feels like I know its personality. And I can’t imagine it as truly evil and I can’t even imagine God anymore. Please help
Is this ocd? I Have a thought or think something f harmful that I’ve gotten intrusive thoughts about - and get a feeling like I want/like it or it would give me relief??? Please tell me that will eventually go away and I’ll get my real feelings back??? Or have I just turned into those things? Sometimes things that make me upset it even feels like I’ll do them just so I can be upset about them.
I have panic disorder, and OCD and anxiety. Does anyone else ever feel just off the edge all the time? Like I always feel like something’s off or something’s gonna happen. I don’t know how to explain the feeling. But I always feel off and when I feel off I panic
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