In need of ROCD Help!

Hi guys, I have ROCD and just figured it out about 2 weeks ago. For 2 weeks I have been having horrible anxiety over the thought I had that said “do you even like him” the thought came out of absolutely nowhere and basically hit me like a bus. Before that thought everything was perfect and now I find myself questioning everything. Today I was doing well with little to no anxiety over these thoughts but now my brain has gone to “if your not having anxiety about these thoughts you must actually not like him” im trying not to spiral but my god this is exhausting. Let me know what you guys think, I start therapy for ROCD in one week. And remember you are so loved.

twice1082

Date posted: 42w

Girl when I tell you. I HAVE THE EXACT SAME THING HAPPEN TOO ME! Remember you are not alone in this at all. For me what I realized and still trying to accept is that when we are getting these anxieties even though things are perfect. We freak out because a part of us dealt with past trauma, bad relationships etc. and that kinda helped me but a thing I’m learning is that it doesn’t go away automatically :/… trust me I wish it did the same cause I’m stubborn as heck and I don’t want to deal with this. No one does! But it is extremely normal for you too feel this way. I’m going through the exact same process you are going through but don’t give up. I keep telling myself that and you should too. God put them in your life for a reason. They are good. And you are not a terrible person for having these thoughts. I get it completely. If you ever need someone to talk to about this stuff I actually am always online. It feels good to know that I’m not crazy and people deal with this stuff too. Sending love 🫶

Hailey25

Date posted: 42w

@twice1082 Thank you so so much, it’s such a crazy thing that our minds can do this! This is the healthiest relationship I have ever had and have never been more happy and then boom, a switch flips in my brain one day and all of a sudden I’m questioning everything and it’s causing me so much anxiety, panic and also numbness which SUCKS. Do you have any tips on how to overcome this? I start therapy next Wednesday but the days r LONG and I need some relief. It’s also so weird bc when I’m with him the thoughts r still there but it’s almost like there muted, I just want to b able to enjoy my relationship

twice1082

Date posted: 42w

@Hailey25 I’m still kind of struggling myself girl… all I know is that it is going too take time and patience. A thing that helped me a little was telling myself that these thoughts were just thoughts. Intrusive thoughts and they don’t get to tell me how I feel. I know the days feel sooo long and you start feeling numb after a while but you are in full panic mode. Give yourself a deep breath and think to yourself. If you didn’t truly like him or care for him would you be this panicked about someone? That’s a thought I had. But I’ve really tried a lot and it’s hard to find what helps you from this thing :/

Hailey25

Date posted: 42w

Also if you ever want to talk I am also always here, no one should be alone in this❤️

twice1082

Date posted: 42w

@Hailey25 Yes please! I feel like I’m on a rollercoaster and some days are better than the others and it’s just I need help staying on the right track cause these intrusive thoughts are making me anxiousss!

42151Pwd

Date posted: 37w

guys im struggling with this same thing. i wish i didn’t and im glad that im not alone. i feel too shy to do therapy but nothing seems to help and ive been struggling for so so long :(

faye1010

Date posted: 24w

ROCD

Good morning everyone, I need some opinions or help on what people might think is wrong. March 2024 is when I started questioning everything about my relationship for no reason he is everything that I wanted, but my mind is trying to tell me that it isn't April 2024 was probably one of the worst times of my life I stayed home from work because I was constantly crying and totally sick because I didn't know what to do. The thoughts slowly started to not bother me as much. I feel like since it ever started I never have gotten that. Love feeling back for my boyfriend, but I want it back so bad because when I did have it, it was absolutely amazing. I have no desire to kiss him or be intimate with him either which also scares me fast-forward to today. I am waking up with so many doubts in questioning myself. Is this ever gonna go away or am I ever gonna feel that love back for my boyfriend ever again? I feel like I'm wasting his time and my time because it feels never ending. I went to a therapist shortly after starting to deal with this and she didn't really seem to help so now on Wednesday I have a new therapist that specializes in OCD I think does anyone have any advice? Thank you so much in advance.

rjahastings

Date posted: 24w

ROCD - anxiety

I’m having what I think is my first ROCD full episode. I’ve had doubting thoughts the entirety of my relationship. But in the last couple of days have been overwhelmed with and debilitated by anxiety and the feeling that I need to break up with my boyfriend. I don’t know if I have OCD officially but talking to therapists it seems that it is likely and I’m going to an OCD specialist next week to talk through my feelings but I feel completely helpless and hopeless at the moment and riddled with anxiety. I’m in a long distance relationship. I seem to have a waves throughout the day when I want to communicate with my boyfriend and tell him I love him etc. but the other 80% of my day is filled with anxiety and dread that I’m going to have to break up with him. I just want the anxiety to go away and to know if my thoughts are real thoughts or OCD thoughts. My biggest fear is that this isn’t an OCD episode and I do need to break up with him. I’m seeing him this weekend and I’m filled with dread about feeling disconnected and anxious and not in love.

Mariabae

Date posted: 13w

i need help, i dont know what is happening

I believe I have ROCD — at least, that’s what many people here have told me based on what I’ve shared — and I really need help, because I feel like I’m falling apart. I don’t know what I feel anymore. I don’t know what’s real. My thoughts come as loud, cold statements — not questions. They say things like: “Nothing is the same.” “You don’t love him.” “You’re just staying because you’re used to him.” And even though I know I’m supposed to let the thoughts pass and not engage with them — I can’t. I get stuck in them. I try to find answers, I ruminate, I check, I cry, I panic. Everyone says “love isn’t just a feeling” — and I know that. But… I still want to feel something. I want to feel warmth, or connection, or even just peace. It’s been so long since I felt anything like that. Now everything just feels empty or terrifying or cold. My brain only gives me negative interpretations. No memory brings me comfort anymore. Nothing feels like it used to. And the worst part is — it all feels true. Sometimes I think: “What if I’m just denying the truth?” “What if I’ve finally realized that I don’t love him, and I just don’t want to admit it?” This feels like the worst version of myself. I’m so confused and scared and tired. Even therapy didn’t help — my therapist said things that made it worse, and now I don’t know who or what to believe anymore. I just want help. I want to know how to face ROCD — if that’s what this really is. I want to believe I can feel love again. I don’t want to lose myself in this forever. Has anyone else felt like this? How did you start to get better? i cant even remember past good memories with him, my head tells me that i didnt love him and i was just “excited “ to have someone. We have 2 years together and i have been dealing with this for a year and a half.

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