- Date posted
- 33w
Parents with pocd pls helpšŖ
Iāve been dealing with a bad flare up for awhile now. Before that my ocd was dormant for years. I developed ocd as postpartum so my ocd targets my kids and switches back and forth between my son and my daughter. As a mother this has been so debilitating. I went from being a normal mom enjoying time with and raising my kids to this nightmare of constant intrusive thoughts, false emotions, false memories and now even ocd dreams. Itās been so painful and hard to talk about but I know there are other parents out there that suffer with this and I need the support. So my son likes to draw and heās very good at it. He is into anime and usually draws his favorite male anime characters. Last night he sent me a screenshot of a character he drew and it was a female which surprised me because he usually draws only males. But my ocd kicked in and immediately said that I was upset and jealous that he drew a female. The emotions felt so real even though I know that I donāt feel that way at all. I know that I was just surprised because he usually only draws males but now iām questioning and doubting my own emotions. I hate that ocd can make thoughts and emotions feel like they are truly your own when theyāre not and now iām so stuck and depressed. My ocd makes me feel like iām lying to myself. Has anyone else dealt with this? How do you feel your own true emotions again and combat the ocd false emotions?