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I watched same sex porn growing up as well. It’s a huge trigger my SOOCD, probably the biggest. But I can’t change it, and it’s so hard ti accept that it was just innocent sexual exploration for a couple of years. I don’t know why I did it either because I don’t have any feelings or attractions to the same sex, but that’s what young people do. They do things that are just different and not necessarily aligned with who they will be when they are older. Trust me I know how you are feeling!

Same here. I used to read dirty fan fictions involving minors when I was a minor. I’d make sex jokes with my online friends who were a few years older than me. I ended up not behind attracted to the acts in the fan fictions but it still haunts me. My therapist swears it’s normal but I still compulsively Google normal childhood behaviors to make sure I deserve to live

Same here 30 yrs, we are maybe the first generation who had way too early access to internet and such. From 10 to 30 now my life was all about sex. Grew up, father left home when I was 4 - OCD, porn, sex that were my drugs to cover pain. One day it hits you. Just like all of us. OCD pick the part that you are value the most. ♥️ Then comes POCD and such things with it. I exactly know how you feel. We're not monsters, I even tell this when I sometimes not believe about myself. But I never ever hurt somebody or made a advantage over other humans. Maybe we are hypersexual or some, we fear to have intimate feelings to a bf/gf. I think we all went through a trauma with those behaviors. Send love ✨