- Date posted
- 31w
Cheating event, do I confess?
Today at lunchtime, my friend and her boyfriend came over to sit with me like usual. Her boyfriend is almost always silent and we usually are the ones talking. Today, there was a point where he spoke and I felt a sense of attraction. Like I wanted to to touch him. So I made sure my legs were as far away as possible from his the whole time. Yet, I was speaking and trying to get his attention. After I left the lunch table I felt really guilty and I don't know what to do. I didn't say anything inappropriate it was just conversation and I didn't even speak to him directly but I was speaking in a way to get his attention and impress him, to make a move on him. Yet, moments earlier i was thinking of marrying my girlfriend and imagined how the ceremony would be. It made me feel so happy and just imagining it made me want to cry. Literally moments before, I was avoiding looking at others and making sure I didn't touch anyone. So I'm not sure why I did that, considering I don't like him and deeply in love with my girlfriend. I'm scared and feel really guilty.