I saw a shadowy figure in my peripheral vision & I AM SO SCARED. I am freaked out of developing schizophrenia- but my question is if I was - would I know the shadow I saw wasn’t real? If I was developing schizophrenia would I be freaked out of the shadow I saw or would I just believe it’s real?
I'm not trying to reassure you, but as far as I know seeing figures out of the corner of your eye is a survival mechanism to keep you safe. When your vision can't see something completely it fills it in with your brains best guess.
@sad-trash This is also true
U would believe it's real. I've been dealing with this theme for months and worried im going to start believing delusional thoughts and hallucinate still haven't but it a rough theme
@Ragnarking18 I never cared abt my thoughts but once I saw a real physical image of something not real im scared
This may or may not help. But there's a Buddhist video I was listening to once and it said if you were to see Buddha walking on the road in your thoughts ...trigger warning "shoot him" and then the monk laughed because it's not real. Our thoughts are not us it is constantly forming truths and lies at the same time. Once you can breathe and stay in the present that's all that matters. I've used this analogy and sometimes when I get mental images i just remember these guys aren't even buddah and shoot them. I usually think about haters or someone that used to criticize me because they were jealous but that's my OCD.
I'm still healing and barely started therapy a week ago and I do it once a week but on my free time I started to Meditate and the key goal is to be aware of the present and be mindful of our thoughts. I've seen improvement sometimes I get random attacks but I stay calm and just breathe. Using conscious breathing seems to be helping me slowly change for the better.
It's a struggle and it sucks but I'm slowly getting there.
Maggie,joshes wife talking - I used to have this problem until I got with my husband, it only comes when I am alone and I mean no one in the house or everyone’s asleep, I know that there’s nothing there and that it’s jsut my brain but in the moment I am terrified and scared and I remember as a child hiding under the covers afraid to sleep even if my mom or sister was sleeping in the same room I was afraid of closing my eyes because then I would meet my demise , I would think someone’s behind me in certain spots and or if their was a dark room someone was there, I used think if people where talking and looking in my direction they’re where talking about me, I also have a hard time relaxing I always act are is theirs a camera or someone I like (my husband) even in rooms he’s not with me in was watch me and I would practice my smile so that way I knew what I looked like when I made that face or looked at my self in the mirror in certain ways to make sure when he saw me doing that that it looked good. I sometimes thought I was developing schizophrenia but someone told me that it’s not like that so I am unsure what’s wrong with me.
@joshnmaggie ocd & adhd Have you been diagnosed with anything
@vanessa777 I have adhd but I know that my adhd medication used to mess with my mind due to the fact that the less you eat and sleep and magnesium your body makes and takes in which what you brain needs to relax and be logical gets low there for making you paranoid and other things. So maybe trying to take magnesium see if that dosnt increase your since of relaxation and less paranoia. But again I am sure theirs more that could be wrong with mentally me like my hair when I am alone with make me jump because I think something will be there. I do a lot of research on Google
Hi everyone. So recently I have been feeling so scared and paranoid of going crazy. I am terrified of i will go crazy and turn schizo. I’m so hyper aware of everything. My mind convinces me that I will end up like this but I really don’t want to.It’s my biggest fear and I think abt it almost everyday and I can’t handle it anymore. I just want to be ok. I have told my parents this and they say it’s all in my head and just laugh at me. I know it’s in my head but I physically feel sick to my stomach being constantly scared. Please someone help me please please. Thank you.
TW. Also long post ahead . I’ve been dealing with OCD for the past 10 years. I’m 32 years old . I didn’t get diagnosed with OCD until this year. I was always diagnosed with GAD, panic disorder, and depression. I don’t have your typical compulsions. Mine are mostly all mental. Reassurance seeking, avoidance , repeating a prayer , etc . I have three main themes . Schizophrenia OCD, sexual orientation OCD, and HIV. Sometimes i deal with harm OCD and POCD but my main big three are the ones I listed first . I feel like the schizophrenic OCD is the most debilitating for me. For the last ten years I’ve been thinking I’m losing my mind . I thought once I got to a certain age the fear would go away but it hasn’t and is in full force . I’m constantly checking my surroundings, what I’m hearing, how I’m acting , questioning if things are real and so on . Now I do have times where this theme doesn’t bother me . It’s put on the back burner . I go through cycles . But when I’m focusing on this theme I feel like I’m hearing stuff . Most of the time I can’t make it out but recently I feel like I’ve been hearing a whisper saying “hey” . It mainly happens at night . It sends me into a complete panic and I feel like “this is it “ I’m seeing an OCD therapist and she recommended me to go to this psychiatric place in town to get meds to help my anxiety from the OCD. My last psychiatrist always pushed the newest medicine and was constantly changing up my regimen. I thought I would give it a try. WORST IDEA EVER . Keep in mind my therapist gave me a letter to give to her explaining I have been diagnosed with OCD and explaining it . She doesn't think I have OCD at all. She wanted to put me on an antipsychotic so me with my OCD brain . I asked her if she thought I was psychotic . She said I was nearing psychosis . She called me interesting . She feels like I have major depressive disorder . I'm just at a loss for words. It was honestly the strangest meeting I have had with a psychiatrist. It was very unprofessional. She has no idea the damage she has done nor do I think she cares. I just don't know what to Believe in anymore ... We met for approximately 45 minutes . First time ever meeting. I just want to cry and I’m freaking out 😢
I feel so upset right now. Can anyone relate? I keep having this delusional-type thoughts that my mom is out to hurt me. We live together and at night when I’m trying to sleep I get the thought that she is going to come in my bedroom and hurt me. My mom is so kind and loving, she’s my best friend. I know OCD attacks what we love, but I can’t let this go. I try to just reply with a “maybe, maybe not,” but then it comes back full force and says “you’re in denial, they’re brainwashing you to think that way, etc.” and it freaks me out and makes me feel so down. Like it says “your life is in danger, don’t dismiss this!” I keep thinking I’m in psychosis. Like if someone asks me if I truly believe these things, I want to automatically rely “I don’t know.” Because the doubt and realness of the thoughts/feelings deal soo real like I’m convinced of these things. I just feel so lost and confused. It makes me feel sick. I confess all of these things to my mom, which I know is just me seeking reassurance. I try to say to myself if I truly believed she was out to hurt me, I probably wouldn’t even be sharing this with her. But then again my mind always has a rebuttal to bring me back into rumination. I want this to be easier. I want my life back. I have been dealing with ocd for years now and this flare up has been the worst yet. Please, I know I’m seeking reassurance, but can anyone relate to any of this?
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