Soocd feels to real and like am i in denial? Help!

I had a dream also about doing stuff and liking it with the same sex and like it felt real and natural and me enjoying it in the dreams and wanting to do if and felt like my normal and when i woke up also and felt so real and normal like i was always that and that attracts me i am just hiding and then because it feels so real and i was liking it turned on by it and even wanted to do it or like it means it not ocd and also cause i wasnt anxious or anything just enjoying and wanted more of it even when i woke up nothing so idk how can this be ocd and i am taking meds so it can be and i am in denial?

Mtb110

Date posted: 27w

So your mind is constantly at odds with your own true reality. It may FEEL real but you have to treat it the same as every other obsession. Having to accept the uncomfortable and anxiety provoking thoughts, urges and emotions is part of the ocd experience. Try to sit with the thoughts for at least 10-15 minutes. Accept them without judgment or the need to know if they’re real.

Brave through

Date posted: 27w

@Mtb110 Hey thanks for this but i needed some more guidance …But like yeah watch i movies for the girls and look at them and tbh for 2 years i was doing okay but now suddenly it seems like i hid it when it was all there and consistently the signs say that so idk? And accepting it doesnt scare which means is so and again if did erp would also lead to this itself where i would be looking and being okay and realise it is actually so and not ocd and i was in denial and then like now i am taking meds and then seeing the girls and like i mentioned above the erp thing feels so so real that it means its so and it truly is so and always been so and i am not accepting cause like even with the med a part of me is like that is my truth what can meds do and they will never help cause i know its so and if i know it so feel it then it is and i know know no matter what i write so then it is so right?

Mtb110

Date posted: 27w

@Brave through Well it’s going to feel real. I can guarantee that you haven’t focused on anything this hard in your life. I mean that. Your whole mind is misfiring because of your ocd and you won’t see its tricks and games the disorder plays on you. You’ve got to try and learn to live with the possibility of your obsession. Yes I know that sounds awful and makes you feel just as bad but true healing starts with acceptance and coexistence with your thoughts. They don’t have to mean anything until you’re ready and they certainly don’t change who you are or want to be.

Brave through

Date posted: 26w

@Mtb110 Thankyou so much i could really use some more guidance this is long so hope you read would really appreciate….Hey i also wanted to ask you about rocd if you had any idea cause it seems to have been hampering with my relationship and its my first relationship so moreover idk if its rocd or actually true and i am in denial…

Brave through

Date posted: 26w

@Mtb110 So today a few things just bugged me like i hadnt seen my bf in a while like a full day (my first relationship and i am 22 he is turning 25) cause i was at an event and he was sleeping and when we spoke i was like desperate to meet him while he was nonchalant and said we will meet when we have to after dinner and that caused a fight cause i thought he doesnt care and and doesnt miss me and sees sleep and gym as priority over me while i am missing him and craving fir his reassurance where he told me maybe you should be with someone who is a puppy around you and for you cause he cant and i got scared that he will leave and i thought also like am i settling these are red flags? And like these few things in the start that bother you turn bitter later so i should breakuo now and he said the honeymoon phase is over but why should it be and should i not be with someone who is smitten am i settling and will lager cause problem and he is like all okay and stuff and these are actual things happening and not just rocd so its not ocd and idk what to do?

Brave through

Date posted: 26w

@Mtb110 And then at the event i found this other guy cute and like cute and thought if he comes ans talks to me i would and then would i tell him i am in a relationship? And if no why not and why even have him or want him to come talk to me with that cute in the head and this was not like ocd stuff but something actually i would do and ask for validation and that means liar and cheater and know so and is true and my bf also very jokingly or idk now idk if jokingly looks at women never makes me feel bad but does and today i told him makes me feel bad while hiding this former feeling so not like actual ocd even asking for reassurance know its not okay lie and manipulate and cheat so cant be ocd and is not okay?

Brave through

Date posted: 26w

@Mtb110 If constantly dount and question and ask reassurance what does that even mean then? I hope you read this pls pls help what is this?

Brave through

Date posted: 26w

@Mtb110 Hey… was having panic attack hopefully you can help.. today a few things just bugged me like i hadnt seen my bf in a while like a full day cause i was at an event and he was sleeping and when we spoke i was like desperate to meet him while he was nonchalant and said we will meet when we have to after dinner and that caused a fight cause i thought he doesnt care and and doesnt miss me and sees sleep and gym as priority over me while i am missing him and craving fir his reassurance where he told me maybe you should be with someone who is a puppy around you and for you cause he cant and i got scared that he will leave and i thought also like am i settling these are red flags? And like these few things in the start that bother you turn bitter later so i should breakuo now and he said the honeymoon phase is over but why should it be and should i not be with someone who is smitten am i settling and will lager cause problem and he is like all okay and stuff and these are actual things happening and not just rocd so its not ocd and idk what to do?

Mtb110

Date posted: 26w

So for one, yes unfortunately the “honeymoon phase” ends for some people sooner than later, but that doesn’t mean your significant other did. I can understand him becoming frustrated with you pestering him or bothering him if you were constantly texting him non stop. It’s only human to be annoyed by constant texts, calls and communication. I can also see why you’re upset he doesn’t seem more interested to contact you. He has his boundaries and private time and sometimes people need their own space. You’re not setting red flags but if he seems some type of way or you feel some type of way, don’t make it a big thing that incites an argument. You’re grown ups so I’d start getting used to sitting down together, and talking these things out face to face in a mature way. Secondly you finding another person attractive is normal? There’s nothing wrong with being a human being, feeling human things. Your ocd is trying to latch onto these feelings and give them meaning. Only you can decipher those feelings. Only you can make them mean something. You make your own decisions at the end of the day about your relationship. You finding someone attractive is not cheating and you craving validation isn’t against any relationship rule book. But wanting to seek validation from someone who gives you attention might be pointing at another issue you may have and not ocd.

Brave through

Date posted: 26w

@Mtb110 Hey, i am going through a very hard time is there a way i can reach out to you other than this platform if its okay with you? I could really use some help…

Mtb110

Date posted: 26w

@Brave through Im not super comfortable with giving out my info but I will say this. Asking me any question will only provide you with reassurance and will not be good for you in the long run.

Mags2002

Date posted: 16w

Soocd: need some response , is this even ocd?

I really dont know if it is ocd anymore I dont want certain sexual things with my bf anymore that i used to like When i envision it with a girl it is so easy to envision and it feels like i want that , that will give me the satisfaction This feeling is making me really question if i am still into men , desire men sexually Is this still ocd , i really dont know anymore , as it is a feeling it is too real

mattis!

Date posted: 16w

Feels so real

I don’t know if it’s SOOCD. I no longer feel anxious in the moment when I think about women, and it’s like my imagination wants me to think about it and get aroused. I don’t want to be gay, but maybe I am after all. In my life I haven’t been so sexually driven before (when I was living with a man, or when being single) but now all I can think about is having sex with a woman. I don’t want to, but somehow my body does and it feels like my mind have changed to accept it to.. feel so sad This all started around 4 weeks ago..

OCD_girly

Date posted: 13w

Hocd dreams

I know people say ocd can manifest in your dreams. I had a semi sexual dream, in that there was a naked woman and I enjoyed the dream so surely that can't be ocd. Idk this shit is annoying.

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