- Date posted
- 32w
Anyone relate? š„²
Hey everyone, Iāve been struggling a lot lately and just needed to put this out there. Sometimes I feel like my situation is so much worse than others because my OCD has gotten to the point where I feel like Iām actually moving in response to an intrusive thought. And by movement, I donāt just mean small twitches or urgesāI mean actual movements, like thrusting up or shifting my body in some way. I feel like most people talk about body sensations, but for me, itās more than that, and it makes me feel so ashamed and alone. I know some people have said theyāve experienced similar things, but I donāt see many people talking about it, and that just makes me feel even worse. Whatās been scaring me the most is that Iāve started noticing this happening during moments of self-intimacy or intimacy in general. Itās making those moments feel really overwhelming and even terrifying for me. Sometimes, I feel like Iām moving because of the thought itself, and thatās what makes me feel the worst. It makes me question everything, and I donāt know how to deal with that fear. I also just started taking sertraline for my OCD, and honestly, I donāt feel any different. My therapist says she sees progress in me, but I donāt know what sheās seeing because I feel the same. Itās making me scared that if this doesnāt work, maybe I donāt even have OCD at all. I guess I just wanted to know if anyone else has been through this or felt this way also sry yall I may sound like a horrible person š«¤