Anonymous
- Date posted
- 25w
Anxious ab HIV
I’m anxious about HIV. What if I get it? That’s a scary thought to me. And then I’m scared/worried about giving it to others, not knowing if I have it, etc.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 25w
Lots of hugs to you. Can I ask you, are you aware of how HIV is contracted? What helps me is exploring the facts of something. My fears are rooted in C-19 because I am a healthcare worker.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 24w
@Anonymous Yeah, I’ve googled lots, but like I accidentally touched trash in the bathroom (at an hiv/std testing clinic) with my sleeve and then what if it got from my sleeve into the cuts on my hands, etc. I might ask about Prep or something even though I feel like it’s silly but I would rather be safe than sorry I guess 😣 I’m sorry you have anxiety about c-19 too ❤️
Emmy JayEmmy Jay
- Date posted
- 24w
I have this same kind of OCD. Constant intrusive thoughts about if I was careful enough during intimacy, what if I got something I’m unaware of even though used protection and get tested after every partner. What if they lied to Me? It has burdened me so badly in the past to where I stopped dating all together and was bed ridden with fear for weeks on end. My body would create false symptoms to go along with the lies I was telling myself. It was the only thing I could think about for weeks on end. While isolating myself from opportunities for intimacy helped in the moment, I realized isolating myself from love long term wasn’t going to be helpful. What has helped me in the past when Im spiraling over which make believe std I have that day, I get tested to ease my anxiety, even when realistically I know I have been safe. Talk with any potential partners you have about their sexual health status. Go get tested together! Use protection. Remind yourself that even people with hiv live long lives. I have general health anxiety, but I believe the social stigma of shame and embarrassment made up surrounding stds is what makes these OCD thoughts feel so powerful sometimes. Remind yourself you are healthy and here right now, with nothing to be ashamed of.
AnonymousAnonymous
- Date posted
- 24w
@Emmy Jay Thank you for this, and I can relate- the anxiety can be crippling at times 💔
abreeclareyabreeclarey
- Date posted
- 16w
I know this post is old but how did you get tested? if you look at my post I have this fear after experiencing sexual things no vag intercourse with a man for the very first time last year and after months of fear I got a urine test and it came back negative but I feel its not enough and that I need to get tested with my blood. Eventually after the test I did ask the man ( I no longer talk to now) if he's clean and he kept reassuring me but deep down I don't know if I can believe him. we did oral but nothing got in my mouth because I personally think its gross, tried it analy and he didn't have a condom one time and I don't think he was all the way in but he didn't get anything in me.sorry if this is gross I just want someone to understand me. the very last time we seen eachother he had a condom but we didn't do anything really because of the pain so I stopped and that was the very last time. still to this day I'm scared of HIV. these fears started the day I first ever experienced oral sex and I got home and a TikTok popped up saying " God said to leave that man alone.hes going to kill you and give you HIV" my heart immediately started racing and yet we continued seeing eachother for a few months (we didn't see each other every day and at one point we didn't see each other for 2 or 3 months ) but this is the only man i touched and let touch me I just wanted to experience things at that time but I no longer want to do anything until marriage
r.m.1r.m.1
- Date posted
- 24w
You can follow rules AND do ERP to handle this. Before any new partner, you can get tested- it’s simple and easy and recommended. But make that the only action you do (rule) or else you’ll be feeding the ocd with compulsions. You need to do ERP and sit with the uncertainty and fear and it WILL lessen and leave you less anxious 1. Have rules about actions to take. Do them 2. Do ERP for remaining fears
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