I’m exhausted

My sister is going to a concert and coming back to the house where me and my family live. In my mind her clothes are extremely dirty. And I know her coming back is going to cause a lot of strong contamination thoughts to enter my head. I’m exhausted already from pushing myself and I can’t seem to focus on anything when these thoughts are really strong. I’m in college and this makes focusing on homework difficult. I failed an exam the other day bc I couldn’t stop thinking about what I need to clean and then cleaning. It’s really exhausting.

Keeps Trying

Date posted: 28d ago

That sounds so hard. My contamination OCD has been tough this cold/flu season… What are you doing to deal with the situation? Sometimes when it’s really hard, I still let myself wash my hands once, shower once, whatever, and then try to leave it at that. Sending empathy your way!

Kinu

Date posted: 28d ago

I can relate, as when my sister comes back home from her office, then i just force her to clean everything and sanitize her bag also which ultimately causes stress at home. Nowdays, i have let it be! Hyperawareness and tracking everything is the biggest problem in our scenarios. I know its very hard, but we need to let things be, not everything is certain and in our contro. We can start by dropping one by one compulsion from our routine. I have started to stop telling my sister to clean her stuff after coming from office, although it still bothers me but we can't force everyone around us nor we should!!

User type: Therapist

Date posted: 28d ago

Curious why the rest of your family is not bothered by this? Do they not see the germs that you do and feel the same urges to clean? Or, is this a problem of OCD and not a problem of germs? I would bet that is the answer right there. And, this happens a lot unfortunately where OCD takes things to a level that is above and beyond what anyone else would be concerned with. Do you have to believe the thoughts you have about contamination? No, but OCD can sure be convincing. Heck, she has not even been to the concert and you are already fretting about how you will handle it. Classic OCD move there. Life does not have to be ruled by OCD - there is no need to have it be in the drivers seat. You can challenge it and move into the drivers seat yourself. But, it is a bold and brave move to do so, and it will take effort and grit to get there. A life where your obsessions lead you to fail exams is not a life, I am assuming, you want to be experiencing. But, it does not have to be that way, and there is great therapy available to help you get through this. If you are ready, hit the therapy button on the NOCD app and see if one of our trained clinicians can help you live the life you want to live and not the life OCD wants you to live.

Andrea Wells

Date posted: 26d ago

It really is exhausting. I'm so sorry. Be kind to yourself and gentle to yourself through this. College is hard. OCD is hard. You've got both going on, that's a lot. It's okay to slow down sometimes and rest when you need it too.

Mooooni

Date posted: 25w ago

Ocd and sex

I noticed I’ve been posting a lot these past few weeks. I just hate my brain and been having a lot of ocd I’m very picky who I’m intimate with. I also have a strong fear of stds/hiv very heavily. I am afraid of lots of things but I can’t live in fear so I decided to engage in intimacy last night. (TMI) I thought the condom popped, but when he showed me it was closed and sealed but my ocd brain is thinking some of it ripped. Now I know that you have to expose yourself to situations that threaten you. I also noticed that I beat myself up heavy when I do an exposure and im still paranoid and then become grateful I’m so tired of my brain and not being able to enjoy anything sometimes: I sometimes feel like leaving this earth.

FairyWithaKnife

Date posted: 20w ago

I just don't know

I've gotten diagnosed with OCD and I'm in therapy. But I'm worried that I don't have OCD/that I got misdiagnosed. And recently I'm worried that I've just gotten myself into a habit of thinking of dirty minded or just plain old terrible things after I see/hear certain things because I feel like I need to prove I have OCD or else I'm faking(sometimes this goes away). Or that I'm just mimicking symptoms of ocd to cope with real problems I may have and that im just really deep into denial. I don't know...I'm just so tired. I mean, what if I really am what I think I am and this is my brains only way of coping? I don't even really feel anything towards most of the thoughts anymore either I just know they go against my values and I don't want them. I don't know if that's because I'm so mentally exhausted, I just don't care, or that the thoughts are true and I'm comfortable with them.

sara_24

Date posted: 13w ago

Anxious about everything

Guys I need help. I feel so alone . Basically I have this compulsion where I feel the need to write everything but this stems from me being anxious about EVERYTHING. Like my mom came in my room and I was irritated and snapped, immediately regretted now I keep writing “don’t be mean to mom next time” but I keep thinking about it. Then I think about how I finally left my house today and all the surfaces I touched that could’ve been contaminated and now I’m writing “next time don’t touch this and this”. Then I think about all the things I need to be doing for this week and I’m writing “don’t forget to do this and this” even though I’ve written it 5 times already. This is what happens everyday btw. My brain always thinks about something I need to be doing and making me anxious that I’ll forget it which is why I write it down on my notes app. I’m sooo mentally exhausted I need help pls!! Anyone have any advice ? I used to think I need to stop the writing but really I need to stop the anxious thoughts coming into my head . People say I need to accept the thoughts and let it go but that’s too hard for me

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