minfoy

Date posted: 5y

I am really getting sick of this psychosis obsession. I don’t even know what’s happening around me anymore because I am so focused on it. I was convinced somebody was in the fan last night (not convinced, I knew their wasn’t logically but... you catch my drift) and I can’t seem to find anyone who has had these specific thoughts, so therefore I must be experiencing psychosis. I also have been hearing stuff as I’m falling asleep. I just can’t move on from this one. I don’t know what to do anymore. I hate being alone.

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

Ah awesome! I thought I was alone in this. Like my ears feel like they are on fire. It’s awful. And the bizzare thoughts like what if someone is here with me or what if my inner voice is actually a voice. It’s a freaking nightmare and it makes me feel better knowing I’m not alone. I’ve had this fear before back when I lived in London, but I’ve just moved to the states and I think being completely alone is bringing this fear back ten fold. I feel completely at a loss. It’s not so bad when I’m not alone.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

This paragraph right here is literally what I’ve been going through lately! Mine is the fear of schizophrenia and hurting people

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

@xxxxi I’m sorry to hear you are experiencing this too. I’ve had tons of thoughts. From there’s someone in the fan to someone in the wall, logically knowing there isn’t. As you can see you aren’t alone! I have a huge fear of schizophrenia too.

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@minfoy You should try writing down a scenario of what could happen if you actually developed schizophrenia like the worst case scenario and re read it a couple times a day, that’s what I’ve been doing and it helps!

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

@xxxxi Really? I’ll give it a go. I know I should be doing ERP but it’s so hard when I’m alone all the time to do it!

Anonymous

Date posted: 5y

@minfoy Yes you can also repeat to yourself that you have schizophrenia, and or write it down if it’s not too much of course. I’ve been doing these in therapy and just accepting the thoughts and it’s helped! I hope they also help u but if u get too much anxiety then you can stop it and try again the next day :)

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

@xxxxi thank you so much for this idea... I’ll give it a shot, I really appreciate it

tyla

Date posted: 5y

I know exactly what this is like, I get the same kind of thoughts. Like I’m so paranoid about getting paranoid, I’ll question all my thoughts and things I hear. Last night a lady was at my door and my instant thought went to “she’s stalking you” logically I know that’s not true but since it’s a symptom of psychosis to be paranoid it freaks me out. I’m struggling with it hardcore rn

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

Yes! These are the things I’m talking about. And my ears are super hyper aware of everything. It’s awful. I don’t know how to control them or accept them by this point because I think any minute I’m gonna hear a voice. Then I latched onto a thought about how there might be somebody in my fan and logically I know there isn’t but... here I am. Is there anything you are doing that helps? I’m sorry you are going through this.

tyla

Date posted: 5y

I’ve been dealing with this for a while now, I get a lot of physical symptoms. My ears are super sensitive to noise and I get dizzy and I get depersonalisation which does not help at all. But when it comes to the thoughts I try and just remind myself that I’ve been fearing this for a long time and it still hasn’t happened. I still don’t believe crazy things and I haven’t actually heard things. I know it sounds hard and it is because I still struggle with it but this is just something that’s kept me going, that I’ve never actually heard things I’ve just been very sensitive to noise and Ocd attacks your fears. This is a real fear for me so therefore it’ll convince me it’s happening

tyla

Date posted: 5y

I understand all that ❤️ it’s so much better when you realise someone experiences the same thing because I couldn’t find anyone who was feeling what I was feeling and it is so scary

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

Thank you so much honestly. I feel less... mad.

NatureAborsa...

Date posted: 5y

i have stuck thoughts...uts a question of steain brain..straining to hyperfocus on proem solving

tyla

Date posted: 5y

I also struggle to find people who experience the same thing as me so you’re not alone in that either!!

hannie

Date posted: 5y

I’m going through this as well. My thoughts are really bizarre and weird as well as sometimes I get like paranoid intrusive thoughts that I know are not logical or true but it’s like my brain for a split second believes it and then im overwhelmed with a sense of anxiety because I start to think I’m going insane or I’m developing schizophrenia. It’s so convincing I really sometimes doubt I have OCD and it’s something more. I have had this fear off and on for the last couple of years and I know how frustrating it is. You are not alone. Thinking of you. ❤️

Markito

Date posted: 5y

ok i understand, i did not know that.... maybe get a checkup so you can work on your ocd and leave the schiz fear behind... ocd loves to mimic stuff like schiz or so... classic ocd in my eyes

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

It’s okay! And yes it can, it’s just hard

NatureAborsa...

Date posted: 5y

for me ... requires breathing through it..

NatureAborsa...

Date posted: 5y

focus on distraction and breath

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

But do you ever have thoughts like that?

mtask

Date posted: 5y

I have had thoughts like this myself but have never had any certain diagnosis. It feels like I've had night terrors while totally awake. Yet when I had night terrors I was also co oletely calm, logically so

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

it’s so strange, like i know someone isn’t in the fan but I guess because I have a fear of psychosis my brain is like there is, but I know there isn’t... that’s exactly what it feels like. I’m just alone a lot of the time and feel like I am going insane.

Markito

Date posted: 5y

Why is everybody scared about schizophrenia... people live good lifes with this illness, ocd i find tough and is not a much better diagnosis....

minfoy

Date posted: 5y

I am scared because if I did have it that would be an issue with my visa. Nothing against the illness or anything like that, plus we cannot help what our mind latches onto.

hannie

Date posted: 5y

It’s more of a fear of loss of control. We associate schizophrenia with a lack of control of our brains(and actions). I do realize that it is something you can deal with and I by no means mean to offend anyone with the illness. I know you can live a happy and healthy life, I guess I have a huge fear of lack of control and it took you asking that question to figure it out. All my intrusive thoughts are surrounded by losing control. I’m gonna work on it and I know how convincing and scary OCD can be. You guys are all very strong. I know what a hard battle this is. You guys wake up to face it everyday. Sending positive thoughts to you all!

Markito

Date posted: 5y

it is for sure, but very tretable

ConstantPain

Date posted: 23w

Dealing with a lot. Need support and company.

My last and almost life long theme/sub-theme largely subsided recently and my ocd felt like it wasn’t even an issue. Then I went on winter break from uni and being alone made my mind come up with a whole new topic to obsess over. TLDR on my fears, my advisor wouldn’t email me back for a while about signing up for classes so my mind started to worry “what if he doesn’t in time and you can’t enroll this semester and you lose this whole life you just built and all these new friends” So when that issue was resolved my mind found other scarier ways I could be uprooted from my current life and friends that I’ve grown so attached to. Then my mind remembered back when I was struggling with false memories and scrupulosity and I essentially made a post on a forum 2 and a half years ago saying I did something or was convinced I did something that I never actually did. Now I’ve been spiraling about someone finding it reporting me and I either get seen as a horrible person or arrested or something over something I never actually did but “admitted” to out of fear of going to hell. My mind won’t let it go and keeps finding new reasons for it to be “valid” “logical” or even inevitable. I feel like it’s just hanging over my head and I can never rest easy. Especially when I try to focus on my daily tasks or plan for the future I get this horrible flair up of “why plan for the future when this could come back in that future and you get uprooted from all of it” my mind won’t rest without certainty being uprooted won’t happen but certainty doesn’t exist, at least not with ocd. This sucks and I miss being care free.

lyn lyn

Date posted: 19w

I’m so lonely

I’ve been in an OCD loop for a month now and Im struggling so much alone, no one in my family get what Im going through and are just ignoring me, and I got no friends to tell Im stuck in this cycle and it feels like Im lonely in a dark place, Im writing this right now cuz u guys know the struggle, if it’s okay can u please leave a comment so I don’t feel alone in this, can u please share tips and advice so I can go through this, I feel like Im losing it

frannyb

Date posted: 19w

I can't do this anymore

I can't live with OCD anymore. It's ruining my life. I feel like I'm being constantly bullied in my own mind all day everyday. I don't know if what I think and feel is ever real or normal or okay, what is me and what is the OCD thoughts. I don't know if any of my experiences are normal. I'm exhausted from picking apart every single conversation I ever have with anyone until I'm strung out by a vague and ambiguous feeling of guilt. I'm tired of feeling like I'm a bad person and feeling scared all the time and not knowing why and having my brain spin me out on an endless spiralling train of thoughts that never goes anywhere and just makes me feel disconnected from everything and everyone around me. I don't know what I feel and if what I feel is normal or if anything I am doing is real and actually me or if I'm 'losing my mind.' I don't even know if this makes any sense. I get into these states of mind where every thought in my head and everything I feel and perceive makes me question my own sanity. I don't know if anyone likes me because I have absolutely no concept of what I am actually like. I feel completely lost and confused CONSTANTLY.

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