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My OCD has become so bad and I feel so alone. I have religious OCD (Christianity) and I’ve been doing okay with letting the blasphemous thoughts go in the moment, but I’m so overcome with guilt and shame I can barely function. I can feel okay and hopeful for a few minutes and then I’m reminded of the horrible thoughts and how nothing can take them back and I can’t handle the guilt. I’m becoming a burden to my family and feel so alone. I do not know what to do. Please help.

imani22

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

I struggled with religious OCD like this for years, but I've gotten to a place now where it very rarely affects me anymore. I know it's difficult to do, but the only way through it is to just try to tolerate the guilt and shame without doing any compulsions to make yourself feel better. I struggle with moral OCD and feel a lot of guilt, shame, and anxiety about things, but this has been gradually helping me to feel it less

jsford04

Date posted: 7w

@imani22 How do you tolerate guilt and shame? What worked for you?

imani22

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

@jsford04 I just kind of grit my teeth and bear it. I take a deep breath and try to carry on with normal daily tasks. e.g. scrolling on my phone, going to make food for myself, going for a walk, etc.

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

God knows us better than we know ourselves. He knows these intrusive thoughts are from OCD, not you. When you have a blasphemous thought, just remind yourself that it's only OCD and move on with your day.

jsford04

Date posted: 7w

@Steven55! I’ve gotten pretty good at ignoring the thoughts it’s just the crippling guilt from them

Steven55!

User type: OCD Conqueror

Date posted: 7w

@jsford04 I understand the guilt, but God knows these are intrusive thoughts, and I'm sure He doesn't hold them against you. Neither should you.

Eschmatter25

Date posted: 7w

OCD is a screaming crying spoiled brat. Treat it as such. Pay it no attention, the brat wants your attention to get what it wants; compulsions.

Aly2010

Date posted: 4d

I am currently dealing with religious ocd as well, and while I am trying to figure this all out as well, here’s something to remind yourself, God understands and knows you. He knows you are having these terrible awful thoughts, and is here for you. God loves you so much, and wants to help you through this tough time. So please, as you keep on facing these fearful thoughts, try to remind yourself that God knows your ocd, and is loving and cares for you. As we all face these tough time, know also that you are not alone! I have had as well terrible thoughts during this ocd journey, they truly do make you feel like a bad person, but know that these thoughts do not define you, and are uncontrollable. Keep on preserving please.

Anonymous

Date posted: 9w

Religious OCD

Hey all. I need help. I am sitting on my bathroom floor freaking out and convinced that all my work towards getting better has gone out the window. I am so scared of the “bad guy” getting me all the time. I constantly feel like I have to prove to God that I don’t mean these awful feelings and thoughts that I have about the bad guy. I’ve had trouble sleeping tonight, going in and out of consciousness, all while dealing with bad thoughts going in and out of my head. Finally I woke up and am flooded with “you have so many thoughts and feeling that you let slide while you were trying to sleep. You had thoughts that you accepted the bad guy and you didn’t dispute them before you tried to move on. You have so much to answer for.” So now I’m sitting here in my bathroom floor hysterically crying and begging God to believe me when I say I don’t any of these thoughts or feelings… please someone help

Anonymous

Date posted: 5w

Religious OCD, ashamed of my thoughts

I am a christian guy who grew up in a christian community and family. For as long as i remember, ive had horrible thoughts about all kinds of things that i dont know where to begin. Due to my extreme thoughts, i feel as if i am unworthy of practicing my religioin, such as praying, reading, meditating, etc. I feel ashamed when i go to church, as if i dont belong there because i feel like i am secretely evil, and that God knows i am evil and i am committing blasphemy by going there, and refusing to "repent", from my thoughts. But then again, my thoughts are just thoughts, sure. So whats the problem? - The problem is that in my faith, i have been taught that we must control our thoughts, so they do not get power over us to make us commit sin. Such as "If you think lustfully about a woman, you have already committed adultery with her in your heart". This verse has killed my self esteem, due to the constant unwanted sexual and disturbing thoughts. It makes me feel like a monster, who secretely just wants to abuse and be horrible to people, even though i know very well i do not want this. Sometimes i think horrible things about the people i love very much, such as my girlfriend. It feels so wrong and evil, even though i know it isnt my true will.

Anonymous

Date posted: 4w

Religious OCD

I need help everyone. My thoughts have been getting worse… I haven’t used my ERP because it feels too scary and too real and so I am caught in this spiral of doing compulsions with every other thought that I have. I have thoughts about that bad guy that are so horrible and then I think that the bad guy is talking to me so I do compulsions and desperately want GOD to believe me when I say I don’t mean the thoughts, but then it creates doubt about whether or not I actually do mean the thoughts. And now I am afraid of my own thoughts This makes me want to fix ALL of the thoughts and feelings that I have to prove even more to myself and to GOD that I don’t mean these thoughts. On top of all of this, I am trying to convince myself that it’s OCD and not me at all. Does anyone have this and can anyone help? I am so tired and scared and burnt out…

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