- Date posted
- 4w ago
Pls has anyone been through this?
Let me start by prefacing that I developed ocd as postpartum ocd after having my first child. I had harm and pocd. I had it on and off for years and then it just eventually went away completely for many years until recently after a stressful life event. Now that itâs back it again targets my children but now my grandchildren also. Itâs been horrible and makes me pull away from them. Last night my 6 year old granddaughter threw up in the car when my daughter was about to take her home so my daughter brought her back in the house and asked me to clean her up while she cleaned her car. I had some anxiety about it because of my ocd but I couldnât say no to helping so I opened the bathroom door and my granddaughter was standing in her underwear waiting for me to clean and dress her. Everything was fine and normal but then for some reason, I have no idea why, I looked down at her chest area. I immediately got so upset and didnât know why I looked there and now my ocd is saying itâs because iâm a monster. I tried to tell myself itâs just normal human behavior when someone is standing there naked that you look where you shouldnât simply because itâs just there in front of you but I feel horrible. I donât feel any inappropriate way about her or any child but my ocd is saying it was inappropriate. Has anyone else been through this?